1o1% insane

2007-02-07T23:41:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was rather funny. Gerald said something bad to YOGA master which is true and makes me and fiona laughing away like mad ass. While we were having lesson, I saw YOGA master digging his nose away and flicking the 'dirts'. I told gerald about it and I didnt know gerald was observing YOGA master for digging his nose all the while. Finally, gerald said something impolite to YOGA master which I think made YOGA master embarassment. Gerald told him, ' HEY *** ****, can you stop digging your nose? Do you know that it was so disgusting. I cant stand it anymore liao lars!' When I heard it, I was shock while I found it funny, so I told fiona about it and she was laughing away with me. Wahahas YOGA master is so suay, got caught red handed for digging his nose and flicking around his 'dirts'.

English lesson, Miss Toh didnt come, so I was taking pictures away with roy, nadia and my precious yiling.

Social studies was my favorite period, got back own social studies test result. Wahahas I got 11/12, damn happy. But I shall not be slacking but working harder as I want a full mark. All the best for my O level, my aim's 13 points.

Tuesday went for my X ray, result will be out soon within this week. Wore a kinda funny 'dress' which makes me look funny. God bless me.

Most of all, this saturday after flat day I should be going to library to study. Anyone interested??

Yesterday night chat with kenken on phone awhile, feel kinda much better. He had went though much tough situation, yet he was fine and well now, I believe I can forget everything and study well too.

Today I was feeling drowsy again and breathing difficulties again. Keep falling asleep as my head was spinning, but some teachers just thought I was too lazy to study. Cant teachers be more understandable?

Taken before X ray.

Roy & me.

Give me all your money now !!

Sorry, I'm wrong, didnt know that you are the holy mummies from egypt.

Rawrs !!

2007-02-05T08:01:00.000-08:00

My feelings seems to change.

It changed since the minute I was maligned.

Nostalgia yet indelible memories cause hatred.

I had kept my promise till today,

what about the person?

A pack of lies.

Dont forget,

the walls always have ears to listen to what you had said behind my back.

Now then I realised I was so stupid,

so idoitic,

but it was too late.

Soul was slashed,

heart was broke,

tears were shed,

I was maligned,

words are put into my mouth,

and promises are meant to be broken in the first place.

2007-02-04T06:16:00.000-08:00

Let's begin with Friday. Friday after soon, I went straight to causeway point for working. I am there to relief every friday -.-.. The promoters there are really nice, however, I still cant get use to the environment. No 'lao zi nior', no jennifer, I feel kinda empty as I was very new there. 1 day of my work there, and I see 3 girls caught stealing and the police was called to arrest them. They were caught stealing a ZA 2 way foundation, silky girl perfume ( which is kinda cheap, if me, I would rather steal escada perfume as if was more worth it. ) and some others makeup. How I hope I can see how they were arrested (evil), but I didnt get to see it. After that I bought a revlon lip gloss which I long for. Is nude colour whichmakes my lips look natural and puffy. After work, I went home to rest and watch TV, then joanne called me. Went to K-box with joanne to sing song. I love the song 'ai wo de zi ge' and was trying hard to learn to sing by repeating the song, and joanne told me something funny. She says, 'Aiyo, you keep repeating, the SHE sing untill their mouth tired liao lars'. I was laughing like hell then. Went home after K-box and have a sleep.

On Saturday I woke up at about 12.45pm and realise that I was late for my X-ray !! Too bad, I have to wait till Tuesday to go for X-ray. Then went back to sleep again till 4 plus linda called me, and linda, me, karen and joanne went to giant for shopping. I bought the last pair of jeans for my chinese new year, and everything was done! Got a tapped( dont know how to spell ) jeans from IP zone. Wahahas I like it, I can wear it with a boxer which makes me look more 'yo yo yo'. After that went to eat long john silver, then went home for TV. At night, as usual went out. But not to DXO as my friends does not wanna go. Then went out with friends which I shall not mention their names due to what the person told me in the past, 'Not to mention his name anymore'. Erm all I can say is sorry, sorry to cause you guys so much trouble. More or less, I can see which kinda friend I should have and should not have.

Today I sleep till 6 plus pm then woke up, watch TV and eat. After that at 9pm, I proceed with homework, and now blogging. Later I am going to search on net for ettusais makeup work shop. Feel like learn more things, study more, and make myself more tired so that I wouldnt have the time to think of other things other than studies, career, family.

Mad !!

Joanne, please concentrate on singing.

She is disturbing me when I was singing.

Your mum singing your funeral song

She is taking self pic, spot me?

The girl who makes me laugh like hell when she told me SHE gonna sing till their mouth tired.

Caught her messaging boy.

Sing sing sing

The jeans which I bought.

The jean which I tried. Didnt like it.

This makes me look fat.

I like this pic.

Same goes to this !

My question to linda at giant, 'What will you think of when you see this?'

2007-02-01T08:11:00.000-08:00

Just finished my homework. After tuesday I consulted a doctor for my infrequent fever, cough, ear block, headache, drowsy, difficulty in breathing, all this symptoms are gone by today. Now I only have difficulty in breathing, ear block and due to difficulty in breathing, the harder i breathe, the more painful my chest is. The whole problem worsened when I will suddenly wake up in the middle of the night trying to grap for breath. I would always feel drowsy and sleepy which cause me to sleep in class and difficulty to concentrate in class or doing test. Some say that maybe because I didnt have suffient sleep, but I had notice from last weekend till now, I has sleep more than enough. Yesterday i slept for a totally of 11+ hours including nap. So, I decided to went back to the doctor again today. actually today i need to go for blood test, but my fever is gone, so no more blood test for me. Yeah ! Dont need to go for injuction, however the doctor still cant find out the reason why I am having so many problems with my body and she suspect that I have asthema due to difficulty in breathing. She arranged for me to go for X-ray this saturday to check what was happening or growing in my body. Choy * Well, X-ray is bad for health as it will kill my cells and also a waste of money.

Okay, enough of this. Now let's talk about today. Went to school and was nearly late due to the late arrival of stupid bus 945. I realise that the frequency of 945 was damn slow which I think the council show improve in to cut down on the number of late comers. Had social studies test and the question was unexpected. Luckily, I knew how to do the question but was quick breathless when I was doing the paper due to poor time management, and at the conclusion part, I only remember to explain why senior citizens are assets to singapore and forgot to state my stand again !! Omg, Mdm Chan gonna minus my marks. Hahas I was so 'kia su' that I wrote 2 fullpage of answer for a 12 marks question only. -.-

Well, regarding the tag, more or less i can guess who is 'unknown'. People can be forgive when they know that they are wrong and turn back. But i am scare of many things now and dont wanna face them, so I choose to focus on my studies to get into marine engineering, I choose to study hard and play hard. Even people who did the wrong things can be forgive, thinking back of the past, even I didnt done anything wrong and kept quiet, I wasnt given a chance to explain myself and I was maligned. The main pit fall was malign, I will lost my hope in a person once the person malign me and for now, I was tired or even lazy or dont want to think back any further more. No one knows how hard has the impact cause on me.

2007-01-30T06:33:00.000-08:00

Hahas it has being age since i blogged. Hmm, let's start from last friday.

Last friday after school i went to work, and chiam li li came to find me. So good of him then after that he wait for me at lot 1 while I go home to bath and watch tv, then meet him at west mall for a movie. We watched altered, M18. Lols I lied to the ticket seller that I am 21 years old when I kept all my ic and ez-link card in my pocket and show her my triumph ez-link and lied to her I didnt bring my ic. The movie was not as disgusting as I expected, but 1 of the part was scary. When the movie shows a guy who was struggling to breath and he made the 'ka ka ka' sound, the theathe staff was standing behind me eating pop corn and making the 'ka ka ka' sound too which gave me a shock. The staff the laughed and walk way, so bad. I suddenly feel very cold and wanted to vomit, lucky chiam li li go and get a plastic bag for me before I vomit all over the cinema. After the movie, I was cold and having a headache + wanna vomit, so we went to 7-11 to get a bottle was water and panadol. Panadol seems to be useless as it only makes me feel drowsy. Cabbed home after eating panadol then went home and sleep.

Saturday actually planned to go for jogging with jasmine in the morning and do some self study in the afternoon, but when I wake up, I started vomitting, fever and headache again. Well, everything was ruined. As i promised huiyi that i will attend her birthday party, so I went to meet aloy, mengkian and sikai for huiyi birthday. We bought a present for her which was choose by sikai and mengkian while I stay at buger king to wait for them as I was not feeling well. Feel like vomitting, but cant vomit out, then aloy help me to buy a packet of milk which makes me feel better for awhile only. Went to huiyi house for her birthday, I rested awhile and feel much better. But at night time when I gone home, my fever was back again and my headache start again.

I spend the whole sunday resting at home like a pig as I was feeling very giddy.

Monday as usually I went to school, xiaoqing and jasper quarrelled. After school, went to work then rushed home for TV. While I was working, my head was spinning like hell, argh so uncomfortable.

Today morning woke up at about 4am as I started to have difficulty in breathing, but went back to sleep later and I was late for school. I imformed mum that I was sick and will be seeing doctor after school and also informed my compant that I cant work today due to fever. While going to school, carrying the heavy bag, my head was spinning again, but I bear with it. Told mr mustafa that I was sick and unable to run the field due to late coming and he let me rest aside. Cant concentrate much in class as I am having a serious headache, ear block, nose block, and my jaws are pain. Then heard jasper and xiaoqing quarrel again, wooah it sounds like english debat as both of them are very well-spoken. They were shotting each other untill xiaoqing started crying and eventually she cramp again and the boys help to carry her up. Poor xiaoqing, I heard from nadia that they quarrel till xiaoqing brother, zhengjie there and when benjamin and eddie heard about it, they were unhappy. So both of them waited outside the scool for jasper when school ended and jasper called his uncle to fetch him. After that went for math supplymentary and home sweet home. actually want to go and see doctor but my head was too pain so i went to sleep. At night went to see a doctor and she cant find the reason why I was having fever infrequently as in my fever comes in sudden everyday, headache, difficulty in breathing, jaws pain and ear block. She suspected that I am having problems with my body, so she told me if by thrusday I still didnt get well, I need to go for a blood test. Suay, waste money. -.-

Oh ya I remember what I do on last sunday, I went to kose centre for facial. I was wearing a facial gown which looks funny on me and it nearly drop. The facial was good, when the person put the mask for me, as told me not to open my mouth and eyes. But, i didnt close my mouth tight enough which caused some of the mask content to flow into my mouth. It taste like jelly, lols. I had a picture to share with you guys about the facial gown which looks funny.

Hahas the facial gown

Hahas need makeup pattern

Me and huiyi the birthday girl

bleahx..

Huiyi making wish

Angeline & me

New mascara for lashes, long?

Yuchan & me

Me, yuchan, xiaoqing & eileen

2007-01-25T04:20:00.000-08:00

Wooah secondary 5 is really a busy year. I was so busy that I didnt even have the time to blog. Last saturday went to DXO again with selina, was damn squeezy inside untill I became 'roti prata' in DXO. This time round, DXO was boring like hell, music which I doesnt like was played, but those music which I like wasnt played. So selina and me went out of DXO awhile to take a walk. Went to the area which is near to the sea there and settle down with selina plus some chit chat session. After that we went back to DXO to dance awhile more, saw zhenhui and jasmin they all. Was simply too boring, so me and selina cabbed home.

I forgot what happened in Sunday. Lols..

Monday & Tuesday was the same, school, nap, homework, work and sleep.

Wednesday after school, went home to sleep. At about 6pm, met desmond & aurange for muay thai lesson. Hahas I go there sit and relax.

Today everything was normal, expect for the chinese supplymentary class which makes us stay till 4pm.

Well, our class nowdays have lots of unhappy matters and quarrels. Heard that there was a bully in my class who like to bully others, but didnt have the ability to save himself. Joining gang is not a big due at all man, it's common in singapore and I dont think the bully have any thing to show off about it.

Hmm, I had heard alot of things, didnt know people are telling me the truth? Or just lying to me trying to make me talk about something which I doesnt wanna talk about. I had being thinking for very long, since some people already say such nasty things to me, I shouldnt care or even listen to his things anymore. It's none of my business anymore. I enjoy my life now, having fun, study hard and go shopping when I am free, I loves my job too. Oh ya, I just bought a sweet japanese jacket yesterday online, and the web owner happens to live at my block upstairs. Things which she was selling online was cheap and nice.

The jacket which I bought !!

2007-01-16T06:29:00.000-08:00

This few days my life seems to be so peaceful and lonely. On Saturday afternoon, I went to library to study and do my homework and revision. After that I went to DXO with selina. While we were queueing up, there were 2 indian girl cut queue and cut right infront of me. Well, I spent about 20 minutus queueing then reached half of the queue, it's so unfair. So i purposely talk to selina in english, " Hey dont you think some people are so inconsiderate? They just love to cut queue and they thought they were so pretty swinging their hairs infront of me? Oh my god, their hair stinks, even more smelly than my house broom." Those two girls moved aside and stopped queueing infront of us, but they seems to be talking bad about us in their language. I went to sg whosgoing and happened to see their photo, so I shall share it with you guys.

They think they are so sexy -.-

Me & selina, take me till so ugly, sad , credit to sg whosgoing

After that Francis came to look for us, and we met chuanyi and his friends in DXO and started dancing. Was quite warm even there were air conditioner. After that Zhengjie came with both his friends and joined us. Danced, and went over to see selina's friends drinking waterfall. Wooah was very nice man, the bartender light up a glass of liqour and pour it down a pyramid bottle into another glass of liqour, and that guy need to drink up everything in time. The whole pyramid bottle was on fire, same goes to the liqour in the glass. After the party, lawrence called me and came to fetch me & selina home. Hahas free transport. While we were waiting for the car to reach, Zhengjie's friends made fun of me and called me 'Nan ren po' so I attacked him with my saliva, and it landed on someone else, lucky the person say never mind. When I was in the car, I keep making fun of him, saying him 'Happy donkey face'. Lawrence lost his way while driving, lucky he made it in the end.

Sunday maggie suddenly called me and ask me to go back to work as Sue was sicked again. So I went back, after work I went home and watch TV and sleep.

Monday was back to school, changed my bellystud and was much easier for me to exercise. Planned to go gym every weekend to train myself to be fitter and healthy and of course to burn my extra 4kg !! Study and study, finally this year I and more serious with my work, trying to be more gentle too. Gonna cut and rebond my hair when it get longer as I look rather different in short hair. I regret cutting my hair, I want my long hair back.

Today went to school, was late again. The back gate was always closed earlier than 7.24am when the actual time to close it is 7.25am. Argh pissed !! Tomorrow I will try to be faster. Mengkian pants 'picha' today, it was damn funny. I think he was playing some sort of funny games outside the classroom, and got his pants 'picha'. He covered his important part shyly and rushed to the toilet with his PE shorts, damn funny. I discovered that my atm was lost, so went to bank straight after school with yiling to POSB bank. I applied for a new atm card, but later changed into a POSB mastercard. As I was always too lazy to go atm to press out my money, and when there is change for the cab fare, I will spent the change. So, using a mastercard is more better as taxi accept mastercard.

I had being pondering many questions for this whole week. Well, things that are said cant be taken back as it was too late. Sorry no cure. A message can hurt a heart, but not heal a heart. Maybe my life now is better, concentrate on school works. I dont wanna think so much, everytime I see the message, my heart just stings. I never thought of hatred, and hope there wouldnt be misunderstanding, but i was disappointed.

Me and joy during new year eve count down.

Wendy birthday.

Me and selina ; DXO

same..

I am wearing desmond's cap.

After muay thai lesson. Aurange, me and desmond. I look so much uglier in short hair.

That me in the past, look very different?

2007-01-08T07:52:00.000-08:00

Saturday sleep till 4+pm then dressup and went to a friend birthday. Had fun at K box, and also met a new friend. She's my friend's friend, Ah clair. Sing and had fun till about 4+am then went home to sleep.

Sunday had being sleeping at home for the whole day, watch Tv, online. My mood was spoilt due to a message in Msn, shall not mention as that particular person told me not to mention his name as topic anymore, and i shall never !

( NO NAMES ARE MENTION HERE )

Just didnt expect someone whom I love and trust uses hurtful words to slash right through my heart. I know you are reading, so I shall say here. Whatever things you told me not to tell anyone, I really didnt tell. Trust me or not, it's up to you. I hate you for accusing me for things I didnt say at all, those hurtful words you say to me, distrust me, think that I am so petty to get unhappy just because you didnt come for my birthday, and even warned me not to test your patience. Fine, like what I say, I shall never ever mention your name anymore since you had enough of my nonsense. I has never fucking ever spread a single word out of what you mention in the message !! Your words stings.

2007-01-04T06:21:00.000-08:00

On 28 dec went to club momo with selina and her friends. Was quite fun as i keep making people dance pole dance. Wasnt that happy when i saw my ex, zhenhui at momo. I act as if i didnt know this person before and walked away. After momo chat with ah chang & lionel they all then selina and me headed to drink. 3 and a half shots of barcadi almost make me drunk, but 1 submarine made selina drunk. Wahahas !! I am such a lousy drinker as i dont drink often because i dont want a big belly.

29 dec went to catch a movie 'Death note 2' with linda and karen. A nice show, doesnt like 'light', prefer 'L' as he was much funnier. After that went home.

On 31dec went to esplanade to countdown with linda, joy, hongfang and their friends. We meet at marina square's yuki yaki to have our dinner. I ate as much sushi as i can, because i dont wanna spend my money eating very few things only. After that we go for countdown, and there was this woman who is damn inconsiderate. As i was quite short, she rest her elbow on my shoulder while eating her chocolate chic when i dont even know her. When i look at her, then she put down her elbow. After the countdown, the whole place was damn squeezy. There was one guy who is so tall that his armpit area is at my nose level, when his rises his arm, i can smell everything. So i told my friend every loudly infront of that guy, i said ' Wa lau i so short, at here smell people armpit, wanna faint liao lars'. After that took some photo with joy, then we went to boat quay to slack awhile then home sweet home.

For jan1 and 2 i went to work, and my senior give me a shimmering body puff and a vivid purple mascara by KOSE. Enjoy my work and i decided to eat less so that i can slim down faster as i had added on 3kg during the holiday due to 'pizza everyday'. On jan 2 after work i went to meet joanne and a friend,My friend told me something as she dont want me to get hurt. Hais it's really hard to put down everything, i didnt know what is wrong and right, i didnt know how deeply i love him? Or just i was too stubborn?

First day of school on jan3, start studying. Ms Koh ask me about where i spend my money on, and i said shopping, clothes, furniture, cosmetic, skincare and i think giving parents money is a waste. Got i lecture from Ms Koh, and i think i deserve it, well i learnt to think. Indeed i am spending money like nobody business, and my mum really treat me very good since young, mum and dad spent so much money to bring me up, i should give them money and save my money up. Immediatly i help mum with a bit of housework. Take a nap, then woke up at night and went to bumble beez to count down for my birthday. Meijuan bought me a small cheesecake, then joanne and wendy each bought me a g-string. After that went to buy a bigger cake for celebration. Dance abit, when 12 striked, my friends help me to light up the candles and sang happy birthday song to me, those people in the club also join in the fun too. Received a lot of happy birthday sms, also his happy birthday message for me. Was sad that i didnt get to see him, all i want for birthday is just to see him, but he wouldnt be coming. I knew the real reason why he wouldnt be coming, but i just kept everything to myself. Then i requested for a song call 'if i cant have you'. My friend's friend bought me a cocktail as i cant drink alcohol. After enjoying then we went home and sleep as we will be schooling the next day. I bought back the cheesecake for my mum and dad, parental love is still the best. Anyway thanks joanne & wendy for the two G-string, I will not wear it, but I will keep it well. Loves you girls, muacks ! And also thanks ah joy, francis, wendy, joanne, meijuan, chuanyi for celebrating my birthday with me, but too back Mr bamboo stick kenzo, yaoming and big butt alien jason didnt come. Well kenzo, dont need to say sorry, I had received alot of sorry in Msn by you but i didnt reply. Not because i am angry, but because everytime you talk to me in Msn, I am having my nap.

This morning woke up, mum gave me a hongbao for my birthday. I kept the hongbao as i dont bear to spend it and i must save money !! I will keep all my birthday presents and wouldnt be using them as it was part of the memories. Went to school, jianming told Ms siew today was my birthday, and my class sang birthday song to me. They sang 'Happy birthday to LEE XIAO LONG' as my present hairstyle look like bruce lee hairstyle. That's how sweet my class can be, and i was touched, really. Ms siew also told Mdm Chan today was my birthday and she told me Happy bithday, i was delighted. Concentrate on chemistry leson, and i found that chemistry was actually quite simply. Anyway happy birthday to myself, and thanks to my friends, teacher and classmates.

Due to photobucket was quite lag and down, so i will post up all the pictures when i can. =)

2006-12-27T08:52:00.000-08:00

Went suntec city & bugis shopping with stacey today, after that meet my bestie 7th milk meijuan, hweelay, and amanda for shopping at bugis. Bought a dress, top and a braces, gonna wear that braces for tomorrow clubbing at club momo. Went to teenage to eat, the fish & chips there taste good and cheap.

Just did a test on net to see which kinda tarot card am i?

Here's the result ;

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2006-12-26T09:46:00.000-08:00

Saturday went to DXO with selina, but we didnt manage to get in as the coupons were finished. What i heard from the boss of DXO was for example that the organiser bought 800 coupons from DXO and he over print the tickets (cheat money), and we need to use our tickets to exchange into coupons inorder to get in. About 100+ people were stuck outside of DXO as they doesnt have the coupon too, and most of them were waiting for the organiser to appear and beat him up, even the bouncer also said that once the organiser is out of DXO, they wouldnt stop anyone from beating him.

On Christmas eve i thought i will be slacking at home all the way, or go to cocolatte. In the end, i went to town to countdown with xinchang, francis they all. They were spraying the man-made snow happily, and bully bangala. I saw bangala from black turned into white, some even turned yellow, blue or red as they were spray by paint. Same goes to me, i was sprayed by both paint and man-made snow, but i hide behind my handbag. After that went to eat and then home sweet home.

Christmas went to lot 1 pizza hut to have a feast with linda, joanne, karen, and hweelay. Ate alot then we walked a very far distance to a bus stop and they take bus to cdans for bowling while i went to clementi k box to sing with ah boon and his cousins. I think i need to improve on my chinese man, as i doesnt know how to read the chinese words on the screen. After that cab home, was raining and the weather was cold. Wrote a testimonial for adrian, tell him merry christmas and hope him and his gf goes on smoothly. Hais ~ Deep inside my heart i just feel so terrible, the guy whom i love the most, was other's lover. I can do nothing like a useless bum, it's really hard to let go, i have being thinking of him most of the time.

Today went back to school to see whether i am accepted or not, and yea i am accepted. =) I believed in retribution and it really does, umbrella hairy fighter's name wasnt tick means he need to appeal to school. Bought PE t-shirt and shorts, books were out of stock, so i went to west mall popular to look for my books, but were also out of stock. Then bought a bag from yellow, OMG the sales girl in yellow was super attitude. I told her i wanna look around myself, and she kept recommending bags to me which i am not fancy of, and when i chose the bag which i bought, she told me ' You dont need to see, is all the same'. Fuck her man, and i purposely bought that to shut her mouth up. I hope her boss will just fired her. Went for a movie alone, 'Niht at the museum'. Interesting and funny.

2006-12-21T07:04:00.000-08:00

Let me begin with my N level result first. I was so happy and shock when i got my result, guess why? I got a total of 6 points for my N level !! But that was not good, if i can get 3, that's better. Got A2 for my english, maths and humanities, B3 for my chinese and B4 for my science and POA. Surprisingly, i got an A2 for my english and a B4 for my POA as i will always get 20 marks or less upon 100. Thanks alot to Mrs tai for not giving me up and spent her time teaching me during the weekends and also thanks Ms toh for guiding me all along !! I was well-known for lousy english and failed english, yet i got an A2, guess Ms toh will be glad if she see that the effort she put on me is not wasted. I decided to continue with Secondary 5 and not choosing ITE as i knew next year is my last year, i will study like hell for my future. Heard that my class that umbrella hairy fighter got a 9 point, hope he is stream to other classes, retribution. Seriously, if i hasnt met all my Secondary 4 great teachers, i might be ruining my future now and ending up at ITE, i really need them and thanks them.

Now, lets talk about my class's Lim Jianming. I hope he see this !! Here i go, JM got maths, humanities and POA for A2, the rest all B3. His result is far too better than mine, and he wanted to go ITE !! What the hell !! He is born to be a fast learner and clever, if he dont wanna continue Sec 5 is really a waste. Why do he work so hard for N level, because he wanna go Sec 5 take O level and get into a Poly. Since he had already put in so much efforts for N level, why not he put in more efforts for O level? Even the umbrella hairy fighter also wanna go Sec 5 when his result sucks, why not you? Everyone is trying to go up to Sec 5 but they have no chance, JM should be glad that he has a chance to go up to Sec 5. I talk to JM till my saliva gonna dry up, hope tomorrow i will see him in school submitting the Sec 5's form. I had being quarelling with JM last time, but not now as he is really a very nice friend, no matter what i hope to see him next year in hillgrove sec.

On tuesday, went to drink with aurange and desmond. Really thanks them alot too, for what they say to make me feel better. On wednesday, went to muay thai lesson with desmond and aurange, it was fun !! Kicking and boxing, but the thing i hate the most is skipping. When they were doing sit up, they look like those salty fishes. Wahahas !! Both of them had really made me feel better this few days and not think much, thanks =)

Today went back to office to try on my new work uniform, it was comfortable and nice. But mt top and bottom size was XS -.- When i look at list where shows other girl's size, my size was the smallest. Kathy is even smaller size then me, wonder when she try the uniform what will be her size? XXS? Lols. After that went to bugis to pray, bought a new belly stud, and went for a movie 'curse of the golden flower' with selina. A nice movie, and for the first time i think Jay Chou was handsome and macho.

Well, this few days i realise i really had changed abit, not much pervert stuff come out from my mouth, and i always kept my mouth shut to prevent spouting nonsense. No matter how much i had enjoyed myself this few days, sometimes i still think of him. Just kinda sad, regret and empty. Sigh... I miss him, but i cant.

2006-12-15T20:37:00.000-08:00

Yawns * Yesterday was my last day of work for this month, then jan gonna start work again. I cut a mushroom head recently which makes me really regret, but no choice just wait for it to grow. Was quite happy with my job, have a group of good work friends especially KOSE's stella & jennifer and Shishedo's serene & shirley.

Yesterday after work brought a lot of things, KOSE black mask, happy bath day body scrub, lotions, fasio eyeshadows, DMK heels. Then went over to KOSE counter to ask stella auntie help me to put the black mask. It was rather effective, it really tighten and when she tear out the mask for me, i could see all my dead skins and blackheads on the mask. After that she help me with makeup as i would be seeing Adrian chan for the last time later on. Then Desmond and Aurange came and wait with me for Adrian to end work. Desmond play Xsquare while i ordered pizza to eat. When 12am arrived Adrian end work and i went to his house for tattoo. Saw his gf msn message him, but i just act as if i didnt see anything. It wasnt as painful as i expected, but my heart hurts more than my skins. While he was putting for me, looking at his serious face really melts my heart. After that he do tattoo for his own leg, it's look rather painful as his 'gray wash' became 'red bloody wash'. I was busying stopping my tattoo from bleeding and after that i told him i wanna go home, actually i didnt want, i just wanna see him longer but... When i was outside his house, i was wearing my shoes and i smiled at him and left, i wanna turn back and look at him. But i didnt as my tears were dripping and i scare that i wouldnt wanna leave anymore. I walked really fast down the stairs yet i can sense that he was looking at me walking down the stair untill i reached 2nd floor i heard him closing his door. Maybe that was the last time i gonna see him, my heart filled with regrets but no choice. I dont wanna step in deeper, but i realise i still love him as much or even more then before. He was a real nice guy, hope his gf will treasure him. No matters how much i do, i will never be the princess he want. Reached home, he message mesaying that actually he wanna ask me to stay and watch show. It's too late, i told him that will be the last time i gonna see him. Didnt tell him the reasons behind it, i just dont wanna get in between him & his gf, i dont wanna step deeper to hurt me & him. But my heart was suffering, he will never understand the pain.

my mushroom head

me in black mask

me & aurange

my new tattoo

2006-12-10T05:37:00.000-08:00

Finally, i have the time to blog. This few days or rather weeks, was very happening to me. Went to mos with leonard, eric and their friends, then met huini there too so i joined them. Actually huini cant get in as she forgot to bring her ic along, but i jus try her luck by pressing my wrist real hard on her's, hoping that she wrist will get stamped and go into mos too. And we success surprisingly. My work was quite easy and well paid too, just that this few days there were lots of things happened which makes me cant accept in such a short time. Went to bumble beez on Friday with steve they all, was quite fun but something unhappy happened, it makes me realise that steve they all are actually very nice friends and makes me knew how to treasure friends. On saturday morning, went to woodlands to have my lunch with derrick, then go home sleep and at night meet linyin for a movie. She talk to me about a lot of things which makes me think that i shouldnt stay in the same spot, i should change, i should be more like a girl. Hmm, i need time to do that, but i will make sure i will show you guys 1 day that i can change. Today work wasnt smooth, had a conflict between me and kanebo brand, but all along KOSE and shishedo were by my side teaching me what to do. Thanks really, thank those angel who guide me along. I was in a really sucky mood right now, so dont ever provoke me. I miss him, but all along i wasnt important or even something to him. How i hope i didnt fall for him before.

2006-11-29T08:51:00.000-08:00

Ah !! Finally stop working le and have the time to blog. Well, where should I start? Hmm just start from everything ba. I had quit my job which is Triumph sales promoter. There are reasons behind why I quit my job. I realise I cant click with my senior, they just treat me like a baby, what ever things I do, right or wrong they would just scold me & blame me. Partly is my fault too as I was always late, but I am trying very hard to kick off this bad habit. While I was working on Monday, one of my work friend from seiyu, KOSE department came to chit-chat with me. She told me that makeup isnt a difficult task, if i am willing & interested to learn, it's easy. She encouraged me to go for an interview, and give it a try. But i was always like a timid turtle hiding in my shell as i cant adapt to new working environment easily so i considered it for a while. After work i decided to give it a try and went to Fasio counter to get Fasio's number from Kathy. Called the incharge and she ask me to go for an interview the next day morning.

The next day about 7.30am i actually woke up and prepared for my interview. As usually, i keep dragging here and there by chatting in msn and listening to music when my interview is actually on 9.30am. I was rushing in time, yet need to makeup before interview. Gave it a quick yet good try. For the 1st time, I put on foundation then loose powder. Hees, as i always will only put on loose powder due to my laziness of cleaning off my makeup. Then put on a white shiny eyeshadow, then a bit of purpish eyeshadow then put on thin layer of eyeliner, blusher, mascara, eyebrow line-ing and I am ready for interview. When to take train while i noticed this girl in black who put on heavy makeup. Then took train till tiong bahru, take cab to Great world city, West tower for interview. Omg, I was late. I reached the place where the address indicts by it shows 'KOSE', thought i had the whole address, called the incharge and realise Fasio is under the same company as KOSE. Filled up the interview form, and wait for further instruction, while waiting a girl came in too, who was the girl who put on heavy makeup and taking the same train as me. Talk to her awhile, her name was Christine. While waiting for her to fill up her form too, I heard the incharge talking to a female, she said, ' Are you wearing on lacy bra?' The female replied, ' Ya, why?' Then the incharge replied, 'Wa, then can see your that two balls'. Lols i was laughing like hell. The incharge was damn direct and straight forward whom makes me afraid of not being qualify for the interview. After that i went into a room with the incharge for interview, she asked me when i can start work and when school reopen and my working experience. I was scared and shivering, then she told me to wait outside awhile, she will ask people to do my paper work. I was so scared that i will be disqualify, then Christine went in for interview. She went in for quite long and i thought she would pass the interview. Yet she came out and walked straight out of the office. The incharge call me into another room to brief me about the job and she called Christine back as she had just fired a girl working in Fasio as she cant work for 1 day due to sick. This makes me realise how ruthless the world is, then we were given alot of flyer on Fasio to read on, and we were brief and went given 5 set of uniforms, for our bottom just wear any demin skirt and a white shoes. We didnt get our bottom as Fasio is changing their uniform my next month. Start training on Saturday and work, the pay was simply too good, but i will demand a higher pay if i have the potential in the further. Then quickly rushed back home to rest awhile and set off to work. I am super stress with my current work facing those hypocites, if she was so unhappy with me, then just say infront of me, dont need to stab me from my back. Luckily i got a few good friends whom i knew due to working. They warned me not to believe my senior easily and treat me real well. Thanks. Pass my day stressfully and today i had an arguement with my senior.

Hmm i should update on previous days ago. Went to momo with ah joy and her friend, saw a lot of familiar face. While i was dancing on the dance floor, saw this girl whom i dislike with her friend. I didnt know her, but not dislike her for just a look. But is because last time i went to west mall find yaoming when he was doing his flag day, then i didnt know her yet she ask her guy friend to come and di-siao me. Then zhengjie asked me why his friend ( that girl ) ask her friend to disturb me, did i offenced her? I told him i didnt even know who's that girl, maybe she had nothing better to do, but why disturb me sia? Hmm momo was quite fun, tried a few new dance step while looking at how others dance and then cabbed home.

My work place will still be at lot 1, seiyu, but is Fasio counter. God bless me for my 1st day of work on Saturday, sad, no more store room for me to hide inside and eat, gonna go to office and eat. Miserable =( Seriously i miss working in Triumph, but there isnt any point for me to stay anymore.

On sunday i was like a mad woman, went to giant to buy a giantic big floor pillow, a boney big pillow and a baby pillow for my niece. Loves those pillows as i can sleep more comfortable with more pillow. Suddenly miss him so much, it had being so many days. I get used to the pain, but i will think of him whenever i saw those loving couples, hearing music or even dazzing. What is he doing? Where is he? Will he be back? Or left me forever? I didnt know, all i know is that i really love him like hell before and now also, but he broke my heart like fuck. I just miss him so badly.

Tomorrow planning is to explore Singapore and go to Zouk at night. Who's gonna accompany me?

me & selina at MOS

grad night babes

look like a family? Just that we had two dads, one is gay

Sweetie fiona & me

My makeup for Fasio interview

The last self pic i took during break @ triumph store room

The store room which i always had my lunch there & sleep there. Miss it.

The little badge which had follow me for more then half a year

The big floor pillow which i bought

My boney pillow

The babe whom took good care of me while working

Sexy us !!

Clubbing @ momo, me & ah joy they all.

2006-11-26T08:57:00.000-08:00

On tuesday went to mos with selina. Was quite boring there. Then saw grace there and chit-chat awhile then continue with dance. After that ah rui they all came. Then go home with ah rui they all.

On Wednesday was graduation night went to angeline house to prepare, help huiyi to stick her fake eyelashes & proceed to school for grad night. After that went to esplanade with them. Then went home.

On thrus went to momo with ah joy & her friends. Dance a lot, enjoy being with her.

Made a painful decision, how i hope i can see him for the last time, but guess it's impossible. I love you, but i just feel so helpless.

2006-11-19T19:13:00.000-08:00

This few days quite busy and fun. Work then play & play. On friday after work went to meet linyin & her friends to chit-chat. Got o know two friends whom is ah yong & junlin. Lols junlin actually lives at the block infront of mine. Chat alot of stuff about him. I realised i was stupid but i am willing to wait for him and wanna wait for him. He will never understand how much i love him. I miss him seriously.

On saturday went to meet linyin they all to chervon and sing song. Then met her friend hazel. Sing & sing then chit chat till 4+ go home and sleep.

Yesterday went for shopping. Early in the morning about 10am i woke up. Prepare and meet john to pierce my 2nd belly hole for me. Went to lot 1 and bought a sloggi bra set, then cab down to orchard ask I had an appointment at 12pm at touche spa and i was late. In the end the person told me that i was below 21 years old and i cant do spa ask that was Singapore's law. Argh then went to far east with Stacey. Bought two heels and 2 masks. Then Stacey say she need to go for her mum performance, so i went back to cck to chit chat with my work friends and also bought a top there. Then meet joanne at town. but i went to Bugis 1st to meet ah joy then bought a skirt at bugis. After that went to town to meet poor joanne as she had waited for me about an hour time. Then went to heeren to buy her converse shoes and then back to west mall to meet linyin they all. Chit chat awhile, then saw jianming they all. Xiaoqing and them went celebrating her birthday inside pasta mania, so i went to buy a cake and give it to her as a birthday present. Chat awhile then i left quickly to find linyin they all. By the time i reached, linyin, hazel, ah yong, junlin and big balls alien was there. Drank a bottle of soyamilk, sour plum and also french fries. After that send linyin and we cab home.

Awaiting for this tuesday MOS party !!

my new belly piercing

angeline & xiaoqing

me & xiaoqing

Stacey & me

2006-11-14T18:31:00.000-08:00

Working for thise few days till i was sick le. Yesterday had some clash with the cb-visor again. =( I was serving a customer who is going oversea soon and she bought about $200+'s lingerines. But she told me that she need to find a hard case container to put her bras inside so that it will not be out of shape while her luggage was placed in the cargo. Since she need it, and last time triumph promotion free gift is the hard case container and we dont need it anymore, i decided to give it to her. When cb-visor heard about that, she was furious and blame me for telling the customer as she doesnt wanna give it to the customer although she pays alot for the bras. She even scolded me infront of the customer and i show her, 'I am pissed' face. So the customer told her not to blame me, and she kept her mouth shut. After the incident, the cb-visor went around and complain, but no one cares. Stupid cb-visor.

After that i kept sneezing, didnt know what happen to me untill the cb-visor placed her palm on my forehead and told me that i am running a fever. Omg. For the 1st time she didnt let me do much work and even ask me to take care. My ears are playing tricks with me? Hope not.

Today is wednesday and i am getting my pay !! Wooah so happy. But Doreen just called and ask me to borrow her money. Should i? I know her for so long and i should trust her ba? Hmm later discuss with mum.

Awaiting for Sunday shopping, spa, facial !! Lots of things waiting for me to buy. I need a shopping mate, anyone is free on that day to accompany me go shopping and spa?

On last sunday, I went shopping for my graduation's night stuff like dress and heels and shoes. Guess what happened? I went into a so called professional shop and had my eyebrow trimmed. My eyebrow was trimmed badly, even i trim myself also look nicer then letting her trim. Well, it's okay with her lousy eyebrow trimming skill. But while triming my eyebrow using a small pair of scissors, she cut my eyelid too, and is my both eyelids !! And now I had 4 scars all around and on my eyelids. What the hell, I will never go there to get my eyebrow trim anymore.

Oh ya, there is a gossip going on in seiyuCCK. Hahas those auntie told me that for everydays, there will be a fat guy, who was quite fair walking around seiyu for many rounds, with the same clothes he wore everydays and he had a 'dead corpse' walking style. I, myself had also saw him, on Monday he walked 6 rounds around seiyu, Tuesday he walked 3 rounds. Let's see today he will walk how many rounds.

He seems to be avoiding me. Hais didnt know what to do.

2006-11-10T11:04:00.000-08:00

Work wasnt easy at all. Argh had a big of problem with my supervisor aka cb-visor today. She told me that i am having my 2 weeks off starting next week, and now want me to go back and work. Wtf. I planned my schedule for next week, and she just ruin it like that. Fuck it. Today i have a customer who spend $200+ over 2 bras and a few panties, and once again the old witch say that i write the wrong memo, and she write it for me. Obviously she is trying to snatch my credit. Then she print the loyalty card for the customer and done it wrongly, i was just standing at the side looking, and she blame me from not doing my job. Hello, you are the one who snatch my credit, and when there is trouble, you say i am the one who causes it. Then she keep making call and made the customer wait. Just to help out, i wanna pass the customer a lucky draw form to let her fill up so that she have something to do then waiting for that old witch. And that old witch blame me for disturbing her while taking the lucky draw form. Argh ~ !! When the customer gone, that old witch even insulted me that i should just go face those computer ad not working in sales line. I was damn pissed. When we are packing stock, she keep asking me which bag of stock in the store is packed by me, those lousy one are surely being packed by me. I was so angry that i shoot her, ' My brain also not computer lars, how you expect me to remember so much? Isnt it like remembering what time i shit and urine?' She was stunned and say that, 'Wooah you shoot me with that, you are same as those people in HR'. Wahahas i was finally relieved are keep smiling to myself when i get back to her. =P

Smsed him, actually plan to meet, but end up no. But no matter what i am down here waiting for his sms reply even till daybreaks. Sometimes i wanna let go, but i just cant. I spent days thinking whether my feeling towards him is love? Or just i am used to it? But i realised that it was both, i was thinking of him almost every minutes. But, he just tend to hurt me mentally without noticing it. Next sunday is my off day, gonna MIA for that day, go shopping, spa, facial and do all the stuff i long to do and soul search. Maybe will apply for more off days as i wanna go to M'sia for so shopping. I wanna buy handbag, shoes, heels, dress, bottoms, tops, furniture, lingerines and many more =)

2006-11-08T21:09:00.000-08:00

After much thoughts and consideration, i decided to MIA for a short period of time. To clear up the mess in my mind and to do things that i really wanna do. This sunday will be my off day all the way till 2 weeks later then i will be back to work. But friends, 21 november's momo party i will definately appear =) Hope during this period of times i can really free my mind and clear everythings. Thanks meijuan for being with me all the while, i will try to close the book as i dont wanna do cb things.

2006-11-06T19:25:00.000-08:00

Yeah i am back. This few days was rather busy with work & friends, so didnt have the time to blog. Hope this entry will not make you guys e.g. adelene & fiona so boring as part of this post is about the bad things indonesian had done to chinese.

Well, friday i went to Geylang to meet Mac with joanne & ah pok. But along the way to find Mac's friends, joanne & ah pok was complaining & showing attitube as they wasnt happy with the way those ah pek look at them & the distance they walked. When this happens, Mac was pissed off. As Mac was trying to find his friends while trying to stop my friends from making noises & showing attitube. So, i was like a hamburger. Joanne & ah pok are like indonesia's volcano, while Mac was like Malaysia's volcano. I just kept quiet although i was pissed with their attitube too, but is understandable that it wasnt comfortable to being stare by uncles. So Joanne & ah pok decided to go boat quay, but they cant get into bumble beez & ah pok blame me for letting the bouncer to know their age. -.- Hello, even you lie to him that you are 16, without an IC you still cant get in as you are underage and some more the bouncer say that you look too young and it was obvious. Even for me, i can went in, but cant drink. But after that we went to blue blaze to find linyin & drink there. Sang a bit of songs & drank abit, then i met him. When he reached, he accompany me to ATM & also find toilet. The toilet was super duper far & hard to find. Asshole * Then went back to blue blaze to find joanne & ah pok. Then went to destiny outside as Joanne wanna meet her friend & they left, while he go into destiny & say hi-bye to his friend. But me & ah pok left without him as we thought he is leaving with his friend & ah pok wanna go drink. So we went to the coffee shop to have a bite 1st, but he smsed me to tell me that he just go in and say hi-bye to his friends, but we left so he is going home. I didnt know what to do and ask him to wait for me outside destiny while i rushed there. I waited outside destiny awhile, but he didnt appear & smsed me telling me that he had left and went to look for his friends. Disappointed * But it was my fault as i had neglected him. Went back to look for ah pok, didnt have the mood to eat & proceed to a pub & drink. As i only have $100 with me, I need to return Joanne her money, eat, bus concession & buy birthday gift for grace's daughter, i left roughly about less than $50. Then i treat ah pok drink & me, myself drank 1 glass only. Yet she complaint that i throw her face by treating her 1 glass & 1 glass is too little for her. Hey you can just ask my buddy meijuan whether did i treat her drink before? She will say no. People got treat you better then no right? You can go atm and get the money yourself right? I'm not your dog okay. Frankly speaking if he was there i will go press more money & buy much more, but for friends that's definately no! She was angry also because i refused to lend her money as next money i was going out for a movie & chalet. Seriously, i wouldnt even go atm to press money to lend her, lets say if Joanne they all lend money from me i will borrow as i know them well, for ah pok, she show me attitube and that surely a no. Who will be so stupid to lend money to a person who keep showing her attitube & even piss her? Then when she went to sit at the sofa & refuse to leave so fast, i told her that the last NR8 was going to end soon and it was disgraceful to sit there. So she told me, 'Disgraceful? You had disgrace me okay!' Since then, you buy your drink yourself lars. Then she walked away & i went to wait for bus. When i boarded the bus and it stopped at clarke quay there, i saw ah pok board the bus. Guess she went to MOS but cant get in. Like what Mac say before at geylang, 'she got tiu then let her go'. Well, i was fucking pissed, do all she like man, typical girl. Not happy? Then spam my tagbox lars. Then reached home, smsed him, and i ps him in some way, but i didnt do it purposely. All i can say was sorry, but i knew he was still angry. Love him, but i always done the wrong things. I dont know what to do, but he seems to drift further away from me, but i will always try to change to a better one which suit him.

Saturday about 11+ then i woke up and went to catch a movie with derrick at CWP at about 1.50pm. Death note was quite okay and was touching. Then we went to longjohnsilver to eat & went outside CWP to chit chat. Keep making fun of him by calling him skinny monk & short monk. Then about 5 plus he went home and i went to meet a friend and weisheng to go grace's daughter chalet. Grace had grown fatter but she was cute !! Being a mother of 3 childrens yet she was still fun-loving. Maybe because she was only 19 ba, but she had got herself a good husband. =) Then drank abit there while play true or dare, they made me dance on Joanne, and many funny stuff they do. at about 4 plus we take night rider to orchard, went to cine to slack awhile and cab home.

Monday after work, friend come and fetch me. Then went home chat on phone awhile and meet meijuan they all at my house nearby. As i was broke and have not take pay, they are so nice to come and find me so that i will not waste money on cab fare. Chit chat till 5 plus in the morning and we went home. We shares our secrets and also share my problems with them. Also sex talk. Lols. Afterall, meijuan is still my best buddy, she is always there for me when i was sad and need someone to talk to.

NOW, finally, i shall start with what bad things indonesian had done to chinese. In 1998, indonesian killed raped chinese girls and killed them as they hate chinese. Fuck up sia. Well, i got this imformation by lawrence. Thanks to him, claps *

Saw that? So why should we help indonesian when they treat us chinese like whore?

2006-10-31T06:54:00.000-08:00

I am fucking pissed !!

Friends, please stop going to bukit gombak block 371 western food stall to eat as they cheat money and was unhygiene !

After work, I went to there to buy french fries for my supper. I remembered clearly that i paid a $1 coin to the stall holder, and he insisted that i didnt pay. He even raised his voice at me, so i told him, 'Do you think i wanna eat your cheap $1?' ARGH !! So i threw $2 at him, and he didnt even give me back my change. WTF i was pissed and walk off angrily.

Reached home, told mum about what happened and she understood. But dad cant understand and he keep shouting at me for throwing his money at someone. Hey if i dont give him the money, do you think he will stop making those irritating noise? Fuck the stallholder.

And i heard from my friends that they will take those uneatten bread which was left and re-toast it again for the next customer. Yucks damn unhygiene ! I hope one day MOH will went there for a check.

My temper was getting worst recently, it's just sucks. No one can understand how i feel. Everyone was blaming me, i really cant take it anymore. He had left too, no matter what i will wait. I love him !

2006-10-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

This few days wasnt easy to pass. On thrusday night straight after work, i went for class chalet. Stayed over night there, and i left all my clothes at my work place. WTF. After that huiyi lend me her shorts & we set off to changi beach. As on the way we will walk pass RED HOUSE, all the girls retreated. Left with me, yiling, jianming, jasper & two girls. I insist on going to RED HOUSE but they refused, saying that it was very dangerous. On the way to changi beach, we met a group of guys & i decided to go RED HOUSE with them. Jianming they all stand at the gate waiting for me, while the rest went in with me. One of the fatty was struck outside as he cant climb in. Wahahas !! Went in awhile & i came out, then we headed back to chalet & have a nice rest. I had a nice sleep on angeline's bed till 9+am which caused angeline sleepless. After that went to hail a cab which took me about 30mins. Then went to my work place to take back my clothes & went home. SLEEP *

About 6+pm i woke up, watch TV and slack awhile then went to find yuanci with meijuan as he say got things wanna tell me. He met me at K pool, when i went in i saw AC, i U turn and walked away. Just didnt have the courage to face him anymore. He told me that AC said that wouldnt let let me down. Hais but he still gonna be with his pretty GF first. Guess he will be very in love with her soon. Then went back to batok to eat with meijuan & also meet aaron, jieying & bernic too. Chat awhile then i went home.

Next day was working, went to work about 12pm and end work at 8pm. Wasnt good with my new old supervisor. Gonna change my job soon. She is a totally shit !! I told her that on next Saturday i need to work morning shift as i had things to do in the afternoon. Guess what she tell me? She smile at me and say it will be better if you OFF for that day, dont make things difficult for me. I was pissed and i told her, why dont i OFF for everyday, then it's better. Argh and she have the cheek to tell me, 'yeah, next month you will be having 2 weeks OFF, i will arrange for you'. Fuck ! I might as well quit my job. After work, met linyin. She told me that the previous night, she chat online with AC. AC told her that he was very in love with his pretty GF. So now, who should i believe? I really dont know myself. They are just making me confused. Who should i trust?

2006-10-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday after work went to meet jason & yaoming awhile at gombak. Chat awhile & went to find meijuan, linda, joanne, karen & hweelay.

Received his message, cant hold back my tears again. Meijuan, joanne, linda, thanks for being there for me. But it isnt easy to give up everythings. I tried my very best to give up once, but i failed. That why i choose to wait. I will prove, i will build up things between me & him. I love him. But i cant be a relationship destroyer, all i can do is to wait. Sistership is still the best. Yes, you all can fill up my time and let me to think less about him, but not completely stop thinking about him. Really thanks you girls alot. My life just sucks. He says he love me, but yet he was with another pretty girl. Things really happens too sudden, his message can only heal my heart partly, but not all. There will still be a scar left by him. Cant be forgotten.

2006-10-22T11:11:00.000-07:00

On saturday, straight after work, i went to DXO with selina, steve's group, and ah xing & his friend. Steve open a bottle of jimbean & barrel. Selina was caught drinking, and was chase out of the club. But later, steve talk to the bouncer & she got in again. Next was weiqiang. Blar blar blar. While we were dancing in the dancefloor, steve's friend look after the bottle & barrel for us. But he fell asleep, and the half bottle of liqour was stolen by some cheap-skate people. Seriously, if they dont have the money, then dont drink. Why must they steal people's bottle? cheap man. Steve was angry, he called his friend an idoit & he went back to dance again. After much dancing, my foot was hurted. Went to upstair & relax with weisheng & ahxing's friend. Talk till wanna cry again. Was talking about adrian. Hais. He got a new GF, and he was serious about her. Seriously, i dont have the courage to face him anymore, not even message him as a friend or even say a hi. If i can choose again, i would rather not know him. The one i love the most, end up hurting me the most. It's easy to fall onto him, but it's hard to forget about him. This few days, even working, i dont even have the mood. Either i dont serve the customers, or i loss my temper. I became short-tempered, but when thinking back the past, i wanna cry. Indeed he got a good taste, his GF was a pretty lady. Not going to contact him, as it might cause misunderstanding to his GF or what. My heart is sinking, it just hurts. I learnt, not to be serious at my age. When everything was gone, i will only suffer. Not gonna be serious anymore. Friends, if i have being neglecting you guys, i am sorry about it. I dont wanna rack up memories. I will be clubbing or outing recently, friends who are going too, jio me along okay. Trying very hard forget everything. I love him, but i knows he will never be mine. Or i can say, i have never had a place in his heart before. In the past i can tolerate he dont love me, he is busy & neglect me, or even lie to me, but not giving his love to other girls. I tried very hard, i can give in anything because of him, but evetually he still left. I can only vent everything to this stupid blog.

2006-10-19T19:22:00.000-07:00

I had cleared my doubts.

It's aching,

but i gonna stop thinking about him.

I wanna do so,

but my heart doesnt allow me to do so.

Kill me,

since you had slashed my heart.

2006-10-17T22:41:00.000-07:00

This few days keep working, fucking tired. Met a few friends and things turned out to be unexpected.

They told me that he got a GF, and was actually trying to stable down. I remember that time he told me that he didnt have a GF, so everything was a lie? I dont know who should i believe. Just read through his testimonials. It seems that he had more then 4 ex-GF, yet he told me before he got 4 ex-GF. What the hell am i thinking? Am i too naive to believe his lie, or too naive to believe to his friend's lie? I dont know who should i believe, he doesnt look like a liar, same goes to his friends. Just feel so messy now, dont know should i step forward to just clear my doubts or just leave sliently. Stinging pain pireces through my heart.

Yesterday were to work, told photo with my beloved shah as it was her last day working at CCK. Was quite relaxing yesterday as my supervisor OFF.

Today off, should i go bugis to shop & pray? Or just slack & sleep at home all day? Messy, really messy & many doubts.

NOV 15 i am going to do eyelashes implantation, and also shopping for a belt, shoes, clothes, bag. Anyone free?

2006-10-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

Received a call yesterday about 2+pm. Was from company, they want me to get back to work by 4pm and i told them other then cck triumph, i am not going anywhere to relieve. So they LL and i was back to work. =) The times yesterday past super fast. Standing at the counter is much relaxing.

After work, were to look for linyin at lavender. Have some french fries & soya bean milk for supper. Chat 'xin shi' with linyin awhile and she introduce me to her BF's friends. I only got a deep impression with two guys, one is the bandit, another is the cow. Wahahas !! After that linyin they all send me home, and cow walk me to my house downstair & linyin's cab follow in. Lols.

Reached home, online awhile & have a chat with yuanci on phone. After the chat, i feel much relax. Thanks =) Chat about lot of people and also about my own personal problems. About 2:55am, hang up the call and proceed with sleeping.

Today is not that worst. 8hours of work, from 2pm till 10pm. Stand counter again, lucky man. Friends to do come and visit me as i am bored to death. Later gonna eat papaya, honey dew & milk again =) Healthy diet !!

MISSES, MISSES, MISSES. But all i said was too late. Hais, he didnt even know or give a hack to me.

2006-10-15T20:43:00.000-07:00

This few days busy working, and now from Monday to Thrusday i gonna have my farking OFF DAYS. Till Friday then i go back to do fair.

On Friday went to DXO with linda, meijuan and their groups of friends. Meet up with yaoming and we took train together to cityhall, then he & jason came to find me to eat together. About 10+pm then got into DXO ask it has super long queue. Get tickets for Cecilia's friend who is Cheryl. Then moment he walk to the queue finding me, i shouted at her, 'Hey butch, cecilia's friend!!' She was shock and we introduce to each others. Went in dance dance, come out eat and dance dance. Everyone keep going in and out of DXO and i was quite pissed because there isnt much time for us to enjoy if we keep going in and out, might as well dont waste the money going in by just staying awhile inside. When i went into the dancefloor to look for linda they all, it was packed and i was like squeeze with a bunch of sweaty people. I was damn pissed, and while dancing a girl keep using her bag to push me, so me and meijuan used our butts to slam her. Wahahas !! After that she didnt dare to push le. Stillthat day was suck, so i were to order shocks to drink and met chocolate. Lols he is still very cute looking, then got to know his friend, Chunyong. After drinking, then dance awhile, meijuan they all come and join me. While i was dancing with meijuan, my belly stud struck on her belt and the 'ball' gone missing, so we started searching for my 'ball'. Lols lucky got some kind souls help us in search too and finally, meijuan found my 'ball'. Lols. Went home, i drop dead on my bed and was simply to tired to remove my makeup, end up having a pimple face. T.T Next day 11am start working !!

Work like mad ass for a few days, everyday OT, hahas but i like it. Tired but OT pays me high !! Finally can rest for 4 days, but no income T.T This few days lunch and dinner keep buying honey dew, papaya & milk to eat and drink. Wahahas and also watch my diet because scare my tummy will grow further bigger. Hope papaya, honey dew & milk will help to enhance breasts. Wahahas !!

Looked at his friendster, more girls ask him to intro. Hais. I have no right to say anything anyway.

AIM : TO LEARN DANCE FASTER

me

me & linda !!

2006-10-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

POA paper was extremely hard, even to some PRO. Luckily i didnt use POA as one of my subject to pass my N level. But, i really studied hard for POA and tried my best.

Rushed to work immediatly after exam. Triumph have a fair again, yeah it's fun. Can chit-chat with those people who are working in the fair too. Got to know a SORELLA's girl called 'Shah'. Wahahas when we were bored, we always talk and fool around together and have our dinner or lunch.

On tuesday went to bumble beez with my friends, meijuan, joanne, ah rui, zhihao, and their friends. I also nagged Kappo to go too. There was quite boring as i still didnt know how to dance much, then Kappo bring me to his friends there and ask them to teach me how to dance, therefore i dragged joanne along. Didnt drag meijuan along too ask she went out of bumble beez with a new-known guy and her handphone off. -.- Btw, thanks Kappo for at least making me not bored to death in bumble beez. Guess Kappo that day must have taken his pay or strike toto. Lols because he bought 53 tequilia shock, Omg that was alot and he keep treating friends. Then meijuan bought a jug of volka with joanne and they drank, i didnt join in too because i was broke and the next day i still need to work. After much drinking, joanne was like drunk. Enjoy awhile and we took cab home. Meijuan has a guy to drive her home by bike, and i shall not mention what happen after, while me, fake hair and joanne took cab home. As i was tired, i request to go to my house first, leaving joanne and fake hair together. Heard that joanne handphone was stolen by him, i felt abit guilty of leaving her with fake hair. Well, we should always keep our handphone in our pockets, not bag.

Yesterday while working, i had a bit clash with a old greedy auntie. There was a sales $10 per piece of bra, and she choose bra like choose gold. When there wasnt her size anymore, she insist on stirring up the whole place till she find her size. And she even blame me for not finding her size, but the problem is, there isnt her size. Since she is so fat, she might as well buy the more expensive bra, why must she choose the cheap bras like gold. This few days have being working OT, on monday i work for 9 hours, tuesday 10 hours, wednesday 11 hours and today again 10 hours. Oh my god, it's killing my leg althought the ot's pay was high. Gonna collaspe soon. Waiting for friday, my off day. Can sleep all day long. Wahahas !!

Was busying working this few days, but still cant forget about adrian. He was suddenly so cold, and was like suddenly got girls clinging around him again. Hais, i have nothing to say, but feeling lost and empty. Keep thinking of him while i was working. guess he is avoiding me. Gonna go work soon, friends if free, please drop by cck triumph to shop !! =)
Btw i misses felix, saw felix that day at bumble beez. It was his last day in Singapore. Saddening, he is such a good friend, such a good gay. Felix, dont ever forgot me. =]

2006-10-08T06:13:00.000-07:00

Received a morning call from mama, gonna go to Mrs Tai's place at Hazel Park for supplymentary POA lesson as i was weak and didnt have any foundation in POA. Wooah her condominium was so nice that it looks like a barbie doll's house. Went with yiling and wenhui, studied from 10.30am till 6pm. It nearly kill me. Sure a long hours for POA. Learnt partnership account and P&L account. Hope i can really pass my POA.

Triumph called me just now, going back to work tomorrow at CCK again. 1pm to 10pm, long working hours, but got OT =) Gonna be busying working for this holiday and also this friday DXO. Dyeing my hair to red tomorrow straight after exams. Finally can paint my nails and wear accessories without changing here and there.
Busy, but want somebody(you should know who you are) to ask me out, but guess he wouldnt. Went to view his friendster again just now, another new girl(XiAo-Ger) who ask him to intro and say 'thanks for adding'. He should be busy chatting and meeting up those girls? Please lars, girls if you really wanna know guys, please message them in frienster, writing those fucking childish testimonials for them will only makes my eyes sore. Change to a more creative method please. Well, he is not my BF anyway, i have no right to interfere? The glimpse of hope is fading slowly. I love him, but does he care? He only care and listen to those girls. Suit him. Argh !!

Tomorrow gonna pass my POA, dye my hair & work. Tiring !!

2006-10-07T10:50:00.000-07:00

Friday

Mathematics paper 2 was chicken feet, guess cambridge will moderate to about 80 marks then get an A1. Wondering if those people who actually passed and can come back to Sec 5 was rejected due to moderation, isnt it saddening? Hope they will moderate down, but not up.

After the paper, i passed my paper to Miss Koh and asked her to mark for me. Then went home and have a good sleep. At night, meet up with joanne, meijuan, linda, karen, hweelay and meijuan's friend to little guilin to celebrate lantern festival. Played with candles and fireworks like kids, then went to bukit timah for a pool session. I played 3 rounds and won 2 rounds due to 'Typco'. The ball just rebounces anywhere. About 1am+ then we cab home together.

Saturday

Went to school early in the morning at 9am. Studied POA. Lols i spend 2 days to study a 2 years work which i doesnt understand at all. But i pick up everything quite fast, hope i can pass my POA and Mrs Tai will owe me a pizza. Wahahas !! Went to west mall to look for meijuan after POA and then went home to sleep again. At night meet joanne went to west mall to buy a red hair dye for my holiday, after that we went to Mc Donald to study from 10pm+ till 12am+. Was busying practice and trying to understand my POA. Tough !!

Looked at his friendster account, he had asked the - DEAD to leave him her msn address to chat. Awhile LOSTEDdoll, awhile - DEAD. Should i call myself a SHITTYtoy? I has nothing to say, it's none of my business anyway as he isnt my boyfriend or whatever shit. Do what he like. I shall also do what i like, next friday going DXO with meijuan they all.

Anyway my computer just reformat, can anyone send me song please?

Studying hard for N level Geo paper

Entertainment after studies

5 minutes break

Relaxing exercises while studying

Me gay-ing with yiling

Mummy and niece

big-BOOBS joanne

hweelay's sexy butt !!

2006-10-05T09:30:00.000-07:00

Wednesday chemistry and physics paper 1, 2 and 3 was chicken feet. But chemistry paper 4 was the killer. Damn fucking hard. After N level exams, i rush straight to staff room to look for miss wang and mrs peng to go though the answers. both paper 1 and 3 i go 75% and above. For paper 2, i am confident that i can get 75% and above, but paper 4 if i pass, then is miracle.

Today wake up at 7.30am, studied a bit of maths formula as i had memorize almost all. Then went to find adrian. He is still the same, but sleepy. Because i was late, he went to sleep and his friends are all asleep too. He hide his keys under the slippers and tel me to open the door by myself. Spend alot of effort, then found the part to plug in the key and open the gate as his gate was different from mine house's gate. And, the key was struck there !! I didnt have the strength to pull the key out, and his elder sister came to help me. Went in chat with him, listen to music and study on my own while everyone was asleep. When his friends wakeup, they left and i wait for adrian to prepare finish and he went to town i went home. He is so near, yet cant reach his heart. Then meijuan came tomy house and use computer while watching TV. Chat alot and gossip too. Should i be contented and happy to see him? Or should i be sad that i cant reaches his heart?

2006-10-03T03:12:00.000-07:00

I didnt have the mood to study today for Geography N level exam. Maths was quite easy, but i loss a few marks due to careless mistake. After that i bought 3 pizza breads and a pack of hello panda, pink dolphin. Sikai called for Mac delivery and i had another meal again while studying my 2pm paper, Geography.

While eating, an ambulance arrived. And wenhui joke that who called for 'Ambulance delivery'? Someone says that it was for Xiaoqing and the person was right. We rushed down and saw xiaoqing in an usual form. She had muscle fits because of being too tense for exam. Poor Xiaoqing, study too much is also not a good thing. When i saw her in such state, dont know why i have an soury feeling in my heart. She close 1 eye also can get A1 for her humanties, why study so hard?

After that we change to study in gym which is much quiet, but didnt have the mood, yet was forcing myself to study. Play awhile with the microphone and jump around like monkey too. Had some fun with my classmates for 10mins and i continue with my studies.

End up Geograhy paper was easy, even map reading was easy too. Luckily gradient didnt come out. Then went to study corner to study with yiling, gerald, wenhui and Miss wang till 5+pm. Shag, but i must hold on, after next monday i will be totally free !!

He message me since last midnight till this morning. Should i be happy or sad? So near, yet so far. Went to view his friendster profile, a girl ( -DEAD )add a testi for him. Telling him thanks for the 'invite' = he add her, and ask him to introduce himself. Well, who am i to care? He is a popular guy, he has his own groups of beautiful girls isnt it? After exam, i gonna do what i planned with meijuan, enjoys our single life, clubbing, shopping and working. I shouldnt have much free time anymore, got free time he also wouldnt care about me. I was pushed to take this path as there isnt any hope. I am tired, why am i the one who is always giving in and waiting for his reply? Just dont understand why guys like to be surrounded by girls? Next year i will super busy with my O level if i can pass this year. I really do love him, but did he take me seriously? Or just a part timer?

2006-10-01T22:18:00.000-07:00

On saturday went to gombak Mac to study with joanne. Guess what we saw? We saw my school 'super duper fatty nehneh' CPH. Hahas her classroom is opposite of my classroom, guess you guys should know who is she? Saw her intimating with a super fatty, ugly guy. Wahahas lmao man. While CPH was ordering her food, i saw the guy bushing his hand across her breast to get the straw. Omg. But, maybe he didnt do it purposely? CPH was chatting with the guy rather loudly in Mac, i can simply heard about their conversation. When CPH saw me, she asked me in ah-lian manner, 'Hey why did you call me?' Lols then i told her i didnt see her, but obviously i am lying. Such a huge object moving around me, how can i dont see it? Anyway i had snap a pic of their backview being together. Hahas love you joanne, remember to tag ok? Mount everest. Wahahas !! Then after that went to play pool with joanne till about !am then reached home. Anyway really enjoy studying with joanne, because i can concentrate and finish up my Geography FYS.

Sunday, i studied at home. Sleep till 9 plus, wake up to eat, sleep again, wake up to reply my Msn message, got a girl call CAT add me in Msn and ask me for tickets. Guess i not gonna help in the party, found people, yet hard to find the main organiser and i want to concentrate on my N level. Then found out that CAT actually love ah xing alot. Ah xing ah, you should treasure girls who take you as gem and pamper them. But CAT seems to be very sad, hais guys are 'hard-to-understand' creatures and they tend to break girls heart. This reminds me of adrian chan again. He's ignoring me, i'm feeling so terrible. Why did he treat me awhile good, and awhile bad? Maybe i should listen to Meijuan, he is still young, same as me. We should continue to play till when we are old, we will settle ourselves down. I cant serious anymore, except towards adrian chan. Then sleep again till about 7pm then wake up. Wahahas sleep too much le, then study all the way. Studied english letter writing format, and Sec 3 physics and abit of Chemistry, but i am still blur about Chemistry.

After studying i online awhile and heard from my friend that stacey added him in frindster. Lols yiling was right that she wanna flirt my friend, typical girl. I asked her this morning and she told me that is her god-sister add my friend using her friendster. Her friendster only got 25 friends, and other then me and yiling, she doesnt have friend who know my friend. Therefore she was lying, but why she lie? Add people only ma.

Awhile later, Weiqiang add me in Msn. Hahas i was bored yet he was trying to entertain me, thank man. Luckily he is not that annoying guy in my Msn and friendster call Weili, if not i will faint man. By the way, that guy was really annoying. He will call me out of sudden and chat with me, when i was busy, he refuse to hang. -.- That time when me and Yango they all go watch movie, he also call, then i tell him i am watching movie and not to disturb me. Guess what he sms me? He sms say i changed and i must had heard some gossips about him that why treat him like that. Please man, i dont even know him, i dont entertain unknown friendster guys, especially annoying guy like him. Fan Si Ren Le. Hope he will never call again, if not, i will give him a good scolding.

Today went to school for GCE N level, english paper 1 and 2. paper 1 was super hard, and i chose the hardest question out of all, 'what makes a good parent?' -.- But Paper 2 was manageble.

Hahas gotcha !!

2006-09-29T20:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the last day in hillgrove's classroom study. Whether i can come back or not, depends on my N level result. Last recess, last day being together with my teachers, last day to be with all the 41 student in 4A1.

Got back my report book. If i will to score like my prelim result, i will to come back to Sec 5.

English : 58, Grade 5 ( 2 more marks to Grade 4 )

Chinese : 65, Grade 3

Mathematics : 71, Grade 2

Science : 50, Grade 5 ( the 1st time i pass my science in Sec 4 level )

Combined humanities : 48, Grade U ( i used to get Grade 1 or 2 for this )

Principles Of A/C : 17, Grade U ( that normal )

Total : 309/600 ( improved, compared to 292/600 )

Class position : 28/41 ( i was dragged down by my POA )

teacher's remarks :

Peiling is a very vocal pupil. She needs to be more tactful in her lauguage towards her peers and teachers. Peiling requires greater consistency and more dedication in her studies to improve her overall grades.

Lols, Miss siew says i need to be more tactful in my lauguage is it because of what happened between me, A and B? By the way, i guess most of you can see that they should be the one to be more tactful with their lauguage, not me. Because they are bombsters, but, using lousy bombs.

During English period, adeline asked Miss Toh will she miss us? Miss Toh say 'yes' and i continue with, 'but Miss Toh will miss me the most !!' Lols and then Miss Toh says that she will miss me. Wahahas Miss Toh miss me not because i am the top scorer, but because she used to nag at me !! Well, hope next year i can still come back to continue Sec 5 and to let her nag. Seriously, i need to thank her alot. I always fail my English lauguage, but when she started teaching me in Sec 3, my English improved and it was quite surprising that i pass my English lauguage. Miss Toh really taught me alot, she also help me to kick off my 'SLEEPING IN CLASS' habit, that why i can concentrate better in my studies. But, still i need to sleep up to about 12 hours a day. Better then sleeping in class anyway. =)

After N level examination, me and yiling planned to work in Triumph, or find some others better pay job. If we can promote to Sec 5 together and score for O level, we will go to Nayang Polytechnic to take 'Industrial Design', if didnt score well, then we will take nursing together. We wanna be 'office nurse', not 'clean backside nurse'. Lols. So, let strike for our target, good luck !!

After school, went home to take a nap till about 7pm. Wake up and slack, watch TV, bath, makeup till 9pm and went to meet Yango for a movie at jurong entertainment. At first, we went to a coffee shop to eat hor fun because he is hungry. And, he insist on paying for my share, i felt so bad letting him to pay for my horfun as i isnt used to use guy's money. Went to jurong entertainment to catching a midnight movie, 'baobei B ji hua'. Again, i didnt pay a cent at all. -.-Damn funny man, i laughed all the way from the start of the movie to the end of the movie. But, it was quite touching when they are trying their very best to save the baby. The clearest part which i remember was when Gu TianLe throw the soiled diaper onto the bad egg's face and tell him that it smells nice, the shit was fresh. After that Yango got things to do with his friends and i cab home. Anyway, thanks Yango !! On my computer and it was spoilt, till this morning then i fixed it back. Asshole.

Smsed adrian chan, msn-ed adrian chan, everything was useless. He didnt reply. Not even asingle word despite of so many PM. I am tired, shagged, useless.

Today's plan, STUDY !!

2006-09-28T01:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday in school during social studies lesson, mdm chan bring us to the computer lab and do NE quiz. Is sort of game, which we need to answer the question correctly in order to earn money and build those useful facilities in Singapore. Hahas i got a senior builder certificate. =) Amazingly.

Reached home and sleep for about 6 hours, wake up and watch television programmes and online. Chat with a guy name Yuanci, he likes to make fun of my msn nick ( hao ai AC ) as he knows AC too. But i kept denying that the AC i am refering to is not his AC, but is actually the AC he knows. Because i once promised AC that i will not say out we are together before, so i am not suppose to tell yuanci, all i can do was to deny. Told him that i was sad about AC's depressed and stress, and he told me that the AC he knew was really stress and depress recently. And AC will not share his problem want. Yuanci kept insisting on his stand that the AC i was refering in my msn nick was the AC he knew, but actually he got it. Sometimes, i just felt that i was really selfish. I didnt care about other's feeling at all. Did i done wrong? But afterall, i still love him.

Today, my beloved Fiona cried. She cried from the starting of the school till recess. Poor thing. Ate alot, after school went to school outside with yiling, yilian and stacey to wait for a friend, chit chat awhile and we all go home. Actually they expect stacey to flirt the guy when she see him, but surprisingly, she didnt. Lols.

2006-09-26T02:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, went to meet adrian chan as he was having a flu. Don't know should i be happy or sad? Because if he is not sick, i wouldnt get to see him as he will be working. While going to meet him, i bought some cheese balls from cavana. It still taste as delicious as before. Biting into the cheese balls, cheese will spread in my mouth while munching it. He looks tired and shag. Loves the way he act like a spoil kid, but still he isnt mine. How i wish, i want him back, but somehow it was impossible. I didnt wanna spoil my mood and his mood, so didnt ask him why he was stress and depress. Learnt lots of things. How much do i love him, and how much do he love me, only he, himself knows.

After that aaron called my handphone, heard that his girlfriend was snatched by a guy name jeff. Somemore that guy was quite rude when talking to aaron on phone. Aaron was rather unhappy about it, and at the same time jeff ask liping to call as aaron used 'siao''s name. But seriously, he was from there, and much bigger then liping. guess jeff had call the wrong person for help, but still liping just keep scolding and talking loudly on phone. After that, jieying call in to ask for liping's number and help Aaron about it.

My comments :

Sometimes, some people cant help much, yet wanted to help and 'step yi ge'. But guess in the end, it might backfired. Anyway, it's none of my business, so, obviously i am not involve.

Today watched a vcd <<>>. Was quite touching and funny when the 13 years old teacher went to the tv station and look for her student. She cried during the show, and when her student see it, he cried too. Kinda cute. But i still prefer the show on 'miracle bar'. As me and yiling too very long to change in toilet, the class left for PE without us, and on our way to gym for PE, saw a van which deliver peel fresh fruit juice. Both me and yiling were thristy, so we went forward and ask the uncle to sell us two packets of mango fruit juice, and in the end, the uncle gave that to us for free. FREE !! I must be quite lucky today, i insist on paying him the money and he refused. So me and yiling keep saying 'thanks you' to him. Kind soul.

After school, went to IMM with yiling and yilian. Lols yiling and wuya are progressing quite fast. And for the 1st time, i see wuya was so caring and thoughtful. Rare species. Then yilian met a group of friends while i look for my fake eyelashes. Saw a store set up in IMM, eyelashes implantation. $80, i am broke now because i never work, so it cost a bomb to me. Ah but i really wanted to go for eyelashes implantation, so that i will look good all the time, dont need 2 apply mascara nor put on fake eyelashes facing the danger of dropping eyelashes. I want to do eyelashes implantation man, how a $80 notes will drop from the heaven. Wahahas !!

Went home, blogging and chat with Yango on phone awhile. Yango told me a very funny thing. Still remember on my few previous entries about the guy, B who quarrel with me in giantic turtle shell? He told yango that golden pig was very 'pop' (popular) and yango say that can ask golden pig to do BJ for him. Lmao !! B once threaten me to call the whole Singapore's west side gangsters to come and bash me up, yet an unpopular guy was so called popular by him. Indeed childish. Ok enough of this.

Our free drinks

I wanna ride on this !!

Me and yilian

2006-09-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday afternoon, received a call from stacey. Went to bugis shopping with her. On our way there, saw a poor indian half-naked guy was lying on a bench in the public, guess he might be homeless. I was evil enough to take a photo of the way he lie on the bench. Lols went to buy my calculator, school bag, belly stud and a top.

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While shopping, received a call from andrew. Asking me whether i am going to cocolatte? Ponder awhile, sms adrian chan, and he is going to B1. Guess he must be enjoying himself there? With beautiful girls around.So i am not going anywhere since exams are around the corner. Reached home, online awhile and meet Joanne to go downstair for a walk a chit-chat. Chat about alot of things and we even sit at adrian ong's house downstairs to chat. Miss the days we fool around, but very soon linda's birthday is coming. Will be meeting up soon ya?

Just went to send my CPF letter, Triumph letter at west mall post office and talk to yango awhile. Tired and lazy at the same time. Received a message from adrian chan, I am damn fucking happy. He told me that that he miss me dont know why. Actually i miss him too, badly and always just that he didnt notice about it. Even when i am leaving him, i wouldnt bear it. What is he doing now, i wondering.

The poor bangala.

Me at ah joy's shop

My new belly stud.

2006-09-22T20:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday mid night around 12am went to a nearby roti prata shop with zhengjie to have our supper. Well, as i have a very small appetite, he asked, 'Why you always eat so slowly huh?' Lol that reminds me that many of my friends would always ask why i eat so slowly, and while eating, i will give the 'wanna die face'. Me myself also dont know why, but when i am eating junk food, i am sure i can eat alot and in a very fast speed. =)

I just simply dont understand why everyone eat, i also eat, but all their fats goes to their breasts and all my fats goes to my tummy !! -.- I dont eat any meats or seafood only fish, but my tummy just keep growing. Some people told me that eating beef and chicken breast meat will help to enhance my breasts, but all this are fattening. What if it didnt enhance my tummy instead of breasts? Can any expert please tell me what to do? I am already 16, yet i doesnt look like because of my height, looks, and many. Is this known as 'fa yu bu liang'?

Well, enough of my diet stuff.

There are many weak women around the world, as in mentally weak. I dont deny i am one too, but some of my friends are worser then me. Names shall not be mention.

Example 1 ;

I had heard many stories from my friends about this girl, S and her boyfriend K, S had also told me that was true.

This is what i heard according to my friends and S

S and K were together for more then a year, but being a guy, K had never ever foot any bill or pay for any food and movie for S. Instead S, being a girl was the one who is footing the bill for K most of the time. Not only this, when S wanted to top up her hi-card, K stop her from doing that by telling her that he was angry. Because K wanted to lend money from S, that why he stopped her from buying hi-card. K was so horny that he always ask S for sex and even ask S to do a BJ for him. Isnt this too much? If anyone will to ask me to do a BJ, i will castrate him man. Being a guy, even if they foot for their own bills and stuff it's alright, but he actually ask S to foot the bill for him and borrow money from the poor S? Omg that's 'chi ran fan'. He might ask well go and be a gigolo. I just cant understand why S will love K so much that she even willing to do a BJ for him, K was fat, ugly, penniless, less-educated then S, lazy to work, horny, and even ask S to foot his bill. The funniest part was that S told me that K always ask for sex, yet halfway though he will always claim that he was tired and he havent even cum yet !! He would then lie on his bed and ask S to do a BJ for him. Then i ask S why dont she just ride on K, by doing BJ for K is only lowering her dignity. Yet S told me that if she dont do that K will get angry and K likes S to BJ for him. Omg he was totally lousy and he didnt even consider for S at all because she was underage. I ask S why do she loves K so much, she told me that because he was nice to hug. Girl, that isnt love man. When S go shopping with me, she would look for cute guys, since there isnt any love and lowering your dignity, why not breakup? He is such a lousy guy, unmotivated and if you guys get married, S will be the one working and earning money for K to use. K really look so ugly that even put his face on my toilet bowl, it will spoilt my mood shitting only. -.-

Example 2 ;

This is what my friends and me witnessed.

L is a girl, she had a boyfriend, J. J was also penniless and uneducated, yet he was hardworking and that was good enough to show that even he will not get a high pay in the future, yet he is willing to work and maintain a family. We also can see that even J was not rich, yet he would so time give L $50 like that for her expenses. L loves J deeply as she always cry because of him and J too as he would get jealous easily. But there was once me and some friends went to marina south to eat, and saw J pulling L's ponytail and even scold L till she cry at a public bus stop just because she wanna accompany Me and my friends longer and not leaving with J. J was the one who always threaten L that he wanna break. Well, this was complicated, J loves L yet hurt her.

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Looking at all my friends condition, guess i am not as weak as them. Because i wouldnt allow my boyfriend to lower my dignity nor bully me physically and threatening me.

Sometimes, i loves the way he dotes me, loves the way he smile at me, loves the way he treat me as a girl and loves the way he look at me when i am going off. I would look back at him, till he turn his head away. Most of all, he didnt bully me nor lower my dignity, decent guy is what i can say about him. However, it is fate. He told me that he loves me too, and he didnt really go like other girls, but why he didnt wanna patch back? Why he felt stress and depressed? I am still waiting for his answer why he will feel stress and depressed. When i am sad and down, he would ask me what happened and help me out. But, he is so cold and always busy with his work and studies. Well, i dont have the right to want him to accompany me, i am not his GF or what any way. =(

Enough of what's happening the past few days, hope everything was really over.

2006-09-22T06:05:00.000-07:00

During recess time today, B came into giantic turtle shell and scream at me again. I am really going crazy and phobia of what was going on right now. I talk to him nicely and he kept screaming at me, I stand up and started shouting back at him scolding him for screaming at me unreasonably. Immediatly my tears flow down again, I did nothing wrong and he kept provoking me. Fiona and other girls did saw what he had done to me, and they were even being chased away by B, it's totally horrible !! He thought he is the only one who knows how to shout and win. After the shouting session, he even pull giantic turtle shell's mate C into the whole situation and ask him to go out to giantic turtle shell and talk to C. He even ask C to rinse his mouth cleaner, does this mean threatening?

Read fiona's blog, and she mention about yellow ribbon project by the government, this not only reminds me of why Kings and Queens side the bad eggs instead of victims, also remains me of why Kings and Queens didnt catch those underage smokers and glue-sniffer? Well, glue-sniffer are good in acting skill by saying i am threatening him and make him cant rest for 3 days and nights. I thought glue-sniffers are always in a blur status? Oh now then i understand blur-status = good acting skills.

Well, today because i wanna peace, i had promised A that i will delete those entries with names mention, so i did it. But now all the left entries are 'NO NAME MENTION' and of course there were evidence to back all this up. I am really afraid to be 'stab' again, so now, i am very caution with my words. As for the glue-sniffer part, many people from forest had seen it outside before and he was a famous glue-prince in forest.

Got back my english overall marks, ah short of 2 points to B4. Wasted. And of course today after B had scream at me, and he had lectured the innocent C who just tell me what B threatened to do to me, B had also scolded my bestie yiling for being siding me and warn her not to be so 'kpo'. Omg that was simply too much, yiling side me because she knows who was right and wrong and being my witness doesnt mean she was 'kpo'. She was just stating the facts. And of course yiling cried, felt so guilty by getting yiling into the whole problem too. Others giantic turtle shell's people are also crowding around our giantic turtle shell to see what was going on. Once again, where is Kings and Queens? But it wasnt due to their neglect. Yes, indeed we didnt tell them about it because doesnt wanna rack the problem bigger. I just felt wronged and injustice, this is the problem between me, A and B, but why must B threaten my friends C and yiling and pulling them into the whole picture? Isnt it unfair to them? Seeing my bestie yiling cried, I cant do anything but just helplessly telling her not to cry, everthing was over. Yet i was crying myself, i was like so useless and helpless, cant help myself then cry and even got my friends into trouble. Feel like a jinx.

He had really drift away for me, no message nor reply receive from him. I felt crushed, not even a simply hello or what is mention.

Finally, i am ok with my mum. Yeah dont need to continue my hunger strike to prove that i was wronged.

2006-09-21T02:43:00.000-07:00

During POA lesson in giantic turtle shell today, B started to make me angry by gossiping about me. I tolerate it as my N level are coming soon and no matter what i say, if i confront queens or kings will say that it's my fault, if i dont care, nothing will happen. So i am not so stupid this time round, all i can say to my giantic turtle shell's mates is, 'BOMBING occurs in Thailiand again'. I guess my giantic turtle shell's mates are bright enough to know what i mean actually, just that i phrase what i want to say in a political manner. And of course talking about political matters in giantic turtle shell isnt anything wrong nor offensive.

King confronted me this morning, all she do in the first place was to pick at me and say that, 'Why do you need to say them back when they say you?' But why cant they dont say me in the first place, and nothing will to happen. No matter what, kings and queens will never harm their government's curfew properties as it is a nuisance to waste their time writing letter to their's PO or in-charge. King then claim that if we complain to her, she will to help out, she cant 24 hours looking at what happens between our class. Yes she wasnt the one in fault but she didnt think for us, if we will to complain to her, A and B will to threaten us again and saying that we are HUMJI while we are walking home. Can anyone tolerate this? I can say not even the kings or queens can tolerate this. Is it the one who complain the matter first then will be the right one? Why did i got my punishment by calling family's member and they went scot-free? Doesnt this shows bias towards them? There are many people in giantic turtle shell who are bullied by A and B, but they dare not to complain as they might face the consequences of being threaten or stirring up troubles. How can kings or queens expect them to complain? Ya, king and queen did say that they didnt side either of each side, but it is obviously they side A and B by letting them scot-free, not even calling their parents. King and Queen will always think that i am the wrong one, because i had provoked the so called 'cant be provoked' aliens. But they are the one who provoked me first, why should i not pursus the matter when i was being called a 'chicken' which was very disgraceful just because they are the so called 'cant be provoked'? They are just some empty-shell 'cant be provoked' aliens as it was obviously shown to my giantic turtle shell's mates. They wanted to threaten me and bully me, yet they use underhand methods to twist the fact and say that i bully them. Complained to queen before me then they win, using the advantages that they are government's curfew properties, king will not get them into trouble and let them scot-free.

To fiona : Thanks for your comments, thanks for understand how i feel now. No matter what i say or do, they are always the winners, i can do nothing. Yes, i did have my fault by bringing in the third party, but didnt they? They did bring in the third, forth and even fifth parties and even bring in the 'gangsters of the whole west side of singapore'. Why didnt king or quuen blame them for bringing in more parties? King and queen will never understand how we giantic turtle shell's mates feel, for example me, being bullied, yet the fact was twisted. I threw away the MOS namecard and he picked it up and haolian around, saying that he did go clubbing and bringing umbrella to beat people, how childish it that and rubbish-picker i can say. This kinda people are the one who spoilt the clubbers imagine by using violent but actually clubbers nowadays are very peaceful and educated. And as a government's curfew property, B lied that he went to club, which spoilt the clubbers imagine further more. Disgracement and being a mountain-turtle by saying that he is bringing an umbrella to there and fight is all i can said. Somebody thought he was still in the 70s, i didnt have the rights to say this, but at least i dont do this. Further more A and B's names wasnt mention here. Why am i so alert with what i say now? Because once bitten, twices shy. I was afraid of being stab on my back again. It's totally sucks !!

Message-ed adrian chan, but there isnt any reply at all. Does he feel that i am troublesome? If he think so, i has nothing to say, but all i can do is to not getting him involve. I will bear it, and I did nothing wrong. He seems to drift farer and farer away from me. Anyway, he wasnt my BF and i dont have the right to even nag about this. hais..

All i need, is trust from my mum, not pushing all the blames to me. I didnt do anything wrong, and i will not give in and I will have the backbone!! My mum call me a chicken too just because i went to club and she was siding A and B, i didnt do anything wrong and i am not willing to accept her humiliation, she had humiliated me and evetually i lost faith in her. Instead of trusting her own daughter, she side others and humiliated me, no way man. I did club, but i know when to club, when not, i didnt learn anything bad from clubbing as it wasnt that complicated as what adults think. I didnt go clubbing when my exams are around the corner. But all i have now is disappointment.

Unlucky's things have being happening since then. My calculator gone missing out of sudden, no pocket money and bag spoilt. Wtf, must rack my brain and think of how to earn money now, no calculator = fail maths paper 2, bag spoilt= find money to buy a bag. Finally, love, school, studies, friendship, freedom, financial, health and family problems all come at one time. I had lost everythings, but not my bestie yiling and the support from my classmates especially fiona and angeline. This makes me see more clearly who are my true friends around me when i am in deep shit.

2006-09-20T03:14:00.000-07:00

NOTICE : FROM TODAY ONWARDS, I WILL TYPE MY BLOG USING ENGLISH BUT NOT TWITS LAUGUAGE *

today in 'forest', B ( shall not mention names ) approached me during morning assembly. he told me to come to him and he was going to scold me, of course i am not that stupid. i ignored him and he scolded me HUMJI and he wanted to find my problem. [ 1st problem, he is the one who started it again, not me ]and he show hand sign which means come and fight. still i ignored him. [ 2nd show that i am really tolerating him ] we went back to class, and A ( the younger brother ) told me that adrian chan was a GOLDEN HAIR AQUA, still i ignored him [ 3rd point, i am really trying not to get people into trouble ] and then B came over to my place came over to my place, and threathen that he is going to ask those big gangsters to find my friends and family's member, and beat them up. [ 4th point, he was threatening me ] and then, i had a friend who wanted to discuss with them PEACEFULLY about the problems between us and try to solve it as mention in the sms. [ 5th point we were trying to solve the problem in a peacefully manner ] but B refused and shouted at me which the whole 'giantic turtle shell' had heard. [ 6th point, he refuse to solve the problem peacefully ] during maths lesson, B complain to 'queen' and say that i was bullying him. [ 7th point, i wasnt bullying him, er ren xian gao zhung ] after that 'queen' called my brother and friend.

just to voice out my unhappiness, i simply just felt rather unfair. firstly, A was the one who called me a chicken. normally anyone would just reacted angrily but not calmly. and i called him back a small fry. anyone also can judge properly being called a chicken is more insulting? or being called a small fry? obviously i chicken right? A then say that he is afraid of no one and he say that he wanted to make adrian and my own brother die. isnt tis boosting and rather insulting? after that he even say that he wanted to make me die in 'forest' and then B joined in. B shouted me infront of the whole 'giantic turtle shell' and scolded me for bullying his brother, A. anyone who either has a pair of eyes or ear could also understand who is the one who is bullying who? after that i dont know how my family's member know about it and they just advice me to seek for queen, king's help and i got a scolding. the next day i went to school, which was today, everything about on paragraph 1 happened. i just feel unfair as why queen call my family's member, but nt A and B's? they are the one who bully me, yet say that i bully them, that isnt fair even though the whole group of people in 'giantic turtle shell' can be my witness, but queen didnt ask them about it and i bear the whole consequences. they were the one who wanted to start it, end it, start it again and complain me by backstabbing. what the hell did i done wrong? i just follow what they want. and yet B tell queen that he cant rest well for 3 days just because i am disturbing him. but according to my handphone record and my friend, B was the one who keep calling my friend to pestering and talk to him and was the one who call me. i was wondering, who is really the one who cant rest and felt threaten for 3 days, i guess is me. B even threaten to find a girl to beat me up, and he told aloysius that he is calling the whole west side's singapore's gangster to beat me up. should i be the one who felt threaten instead of him? he thought 'xi jie shao nian'? sorry, this is not a drama show for him to act in. but i just cant understand, even my mates in 'giantic turtle shell' also can see that queen was siding him. if it because he was a 'so called gangster' that why queen side him? i doesnt know and what i say is not meant to be offensive. he called me a chicken, as what mrs tai say, if i am a girl i should shut his mouth up and not to lower my dinity, but i just call him a small fry and teacher say it was my fault. queen say that if i didnt call him a small fry, nothing will happen, but why cant queen think another way round? if he dont call me a chicken, nothing will happen. now then i understand, queens and kings are meant to help this kinda people who create trouble and stab other from the back, yet they didnt look at the victims. i am not the only victim in 'giantic turtle shell', jianming was once bullied by A and B, but did queen or king help him? yiling was scolded by B for nothing, did queen or king help her? B always smoke in the toilet, but did all queens and kings who smell it catch him? A and B went around the forest to threaten mates like me, but did queen and kings help them? all the kings and queens will say, if you didnt provoke them, they wouldnt, so it's your fault. why dont they say when A and B smoke, it's the cir fault for being letting them to put into their mouth and smoke? seriously, just anyone in 'giantic turtle shell', can also see who is threatening and bully who, yet in the end, the victim is still me. isnt this unfair? the problem was settled by queen, i got what i deserve, and they didnt. just feel so uneasy, bullies are often scot- free and victims were always getting more.

this is meant for queens, kings and the mates in 'giantic turtle shell' to understand what happened and to voice out my thoughts, no offensive materials and names are not mention.

2006-09-14T05:54:00.000-07:00

t0dae p0a was t0ugh.. as i m failing p0a all da way.. tried m0ii best 2 d0 n pr0ceed wib sleeping.. after slping, mi n yiling pei stacey g0 canteen.. den met sum1.. 2 mii, 1 of them is kinda ha0lian.. hu d0 she tink she is huh? da jie da? pls lars.. euu h0w old le still wanna act lian.. hahas i c th0se pretty gals act lian still oki, but wat r euu? omg a ugly shit.. jus childish.. pls l0rs da canteen is nt yrs n i d0ubt euu hab da ability 2 buy da canteen, euu hab n0 right 2 ask mii 2 g0 at all.. hu d0 euu tink euu r huh? useless bum.. i sae b4, euu can eat mi in da PAST but NOT NOW.. omg i guess she th0ught tat she is hillgrove sec sch t0p fighter.. omg t0p fighter i m sh0 scare, pls d0n use yr pig leg 2 kick mi or use yr small fist 2 hit mii.. i m damn bl0ody scare man.. yucks !! ccb pls lars d0n step yi ge..

en0ugh of tis.. den after tat we went fer a movie.. hahas 'gig0lo wannabe'.. was quite a touching sh0w.. th0se guys were trying 2 help a gal 2 cure her sickness by being h0st n earn 10 milli0n yen fer da gal.. n dey gt c0nned.. after tat mit wendy g0 sh0pping n buy ear pirece den hm swit hm..

hais didnt c him online all dae.. i felt sh0 left out as if he ish av0iding mii.. wat shd i d0? hahas flirt ard? or g0 find gig0lo?

btw ccb if euu nt hapi wib wat i sae euu, g0 ahead n spam m0ii tag b0x.. euu r m0st welc0me 2 d0 sh0 man.. lyk i sae euu hab n0 rights 2 ask mi 2 leave da canteen, hu d0 euu tink euu r? queen? omg i hab neber c such an ugly queen b4.. it's euu r wr0ng in da 1st place, d0n 4gt bitch..

2006-09-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

jus log in 2 m0ii old bl0g http://mishhie-dollies.blogspot.com/ n listen 2 da s0ng.. kinda sad.. hmm but its all m0ii pass le.. isnt it? it was hmm if nt wr0ng m0ii sec 1 or sec 2 bl0g ba? da tym wen i was wib jiekai n jus br0ke up.. hahas l0ok back 2 da past i was actualli quite childish.. but cant blame.. 14 yr old gal ma.. tink back all da relati0nship which i went th0ugh.. maybe i hab reali change al0t al0t? take relati0nship m0re seri0us n take tings harder.. but guess tat isnt gd.. prefer last tym de flirty life onli if i hab n0 1 in m0ii heart.. but n0w i l0ok back, sh0 mani guys passby m0ii life.. onli 2 guys i reali l0ve.. 1 ish zhengjie, an0ther ish adrian chan? but n0w zhengjie ish alreadi da past.. but still a gd fren 2 mii, a gd fren hu will stay by mii wen ever i m sad n cry.. hahas still rmb on sept 1, da krunk tickets dia0 at m0ii side, i was scare n called him.. n he kip helping mii 2 find ppl buy.. hahas 2 him maybe i was lyk a little br0ther? c0z i m kinda b0yish.. =)

hmm m0ndae hab maths paper, paper 1 n0 kick.. but paper 2 was a bit t0ugh.. fer ge0 paper ahhh !! 4 questi0n ch0ose 2 qns, i t0opid g0 ch0ose 3 qns.. wtf waste m0ii tym!! den fer t0dae de sci.. hahas physics paper 1 still oki lars, physics paper 2 i gt da c0nfidence 2 gt ard full marks =) over-c0nfidence? lols.. l0ok f0rward 2 h0w i fail m0ii p0a paper tml since i hab neber pass p0a b4 onli da 1st class test in sec 3, i gt a full mark.. lols.. study!!

tis few daes i was busy wib m0ii exam, n m0ii r0om was super messy.. tried 2 t0k 2 him, but it seems lyk he was ign0ring mii? n0 reply? nth at all.. jus feel sumting lyk sum1 was poking while tickling m0ii heart.. d0n understand y.. but all i n0 ish tat i reali l0ve him.. but i seems 2 gt tired.. i m os0 a human, i os0 nid sum1 2 d0te, i wanna sh0w m0ii l0ve 1 2 da public.. but can i? hais lets c after tml exam..

2006-09-10T03:55:00.000-07:00

erm on 10 oct which is da dae after n lvl dere will b a underage party fer 16 n ab0ve.. at bumble beez @ b0at quay.. 8pm till late night.. $16 pre sales n $20 d0or.. entitle woth 1 free drink..

imf0rmati0n of da club :

300 pax

playing rnb, eur0 & techn0 2 attract b0th rnb n techn0 l0vers

dere will be l0ads of babes n hunks

th0se hu interested c0ntact me fer further imf0rmati0n..

i m h0lding on 2 100 tixs..

msn ; piyo_piyo_1991@hotmail.com

2006-09-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

ah !! wtf i jus posted m0ii post n it was g0ne.. p0st again -.- ytd went 2 gas haus wib bagay, steve, chunyi, youxing, weisheng, ma0ma0, weiqiang.. at 1st da place was sux c0z gt a sucky scratching DJ hu scratch till damn sux.. even da shitting s0und of bagay shd b nicer den his scratching.. den we c0mplain 2 da organiser n he pr0mised 2 change DJ in 5mins tym.. finalli all rnb n techn0.. was quite fun n every1 was dancing ard.. drank abit onli, tequilia sh0ck, tequilia p0p n aga a glass of beer.. n0 kick.. lols.. den after tat went 2 steve hs dere 2 slack n g0ssip den hm swit hm..

tis m0rning da organiser smsed mii n ask mi 2 help him 2 organise parties.. n he will pay mii.. s0ngb0.. but i tell him 2 organise after examm.. best ish at places lyk club momo, music undergr0und, devils bar, double o, baby face or B1 n play b0th techn0 n rnb.. sure attract l0ts of ppl.. yeah tat great..

msged adrian tis morning in msn, but didnt reply.. hais..

mii n chunyi in gas haus..

again.. lols..

y0uxing n mii..

mii n bagay

he l0ok lyk a drunkard.. =)

2006-09-08T05:16:00.000-07:00

i MISS you

i LOVE you

i NEED you

chat wib him in msn in da afternoon.. he told him he didnt hab a gf at all.. abt da momo i was really sorry boy.. but you no i was waiting fer euu 2 tell mi nt 2 g0.. but instead euu tell mi 2 enj0y.. euu r h0lding on 2 da rights alwaes, jus tat euu d0n wan it n d0n wan mii.. but at least t0dae euu make mii n0 tat i still hab a place in yr heart.. pls tell mii da reas0n as euu sae euu will tell mii next tym.. d0n b stress.. euu makes m0ii heart fly n os0 sink.. * AC ~

2006-09-07T21:57:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 club momo.. den mit ah xing n ya0ming's sis at l0t 1.. ah xing went 2 x square play game, den i went in 2 find him.. of course peeping at da same tym.. lols.. c him i damn happi, reali hapi.. den after tat we plan 2 go eat, but b4 tat, toilet break.. n he msged mii.. he told mii 2 enjoy.. hais.. den i told him i would be more hapi if he tell mi nt 2 enjoy.. but he reply sae i crazy n ask mii 2 go.. well, i take his words.. i m beri serious wib wat he sae.. super serious.. jus sad.. but wat can i d0? ppl gt sh0 mani gals ard him, n still take pic wib him n uploaded in his friendster.. i don even hab da farking right 2 sae aniting rite? oki enough abt tis, den we went 2 eat l0ng j0hn n went 2 club momo.. on da way dere, ya0ming's sis sae she 4gt 2 bring ic, sh0 we acc her g0 hm take n cab dere..

reached club momo, saw lots of frens.. was damn crowded, but fun.. den started dancing n ya0ming's sis dance wib ah chang n lionel.. c0ol.. den kip dancing n i kip learning.. but was quite hard c0z nt much space.. den after tat gt 2 guys cum dance wib mii n ya0ming's sis.. usualli i will walk away.. but since he tell mii 2 enj0y, den y nt.. i will sh0w tat i m REALLY ENJOYING.. dance wib da guys, den we play games n rest near da bar t0p.. lols den 1 by 1, we went up 2 dance p0le dance.. lols i went up a few round 2 dance p0le dance.. as i jus learn 2 dance, n d0n n0 much dance step or pattern.. guess i didnt dance well? but was reali fun.. i g0nna g0 pick up p0le dancing s0on.. i was waiting fer a s0ng 'if i cant have you' which he use 2 listen 2 in da past.. wen it was played, i was lyk sh0 hyper active.. kip dancing n even went up 2 da bar t0p again 2 dance p0le dance.. dere was a guy in momo hu ish wearing green can shake alot.. real hard.. n wen he saw us playing wib da bar t0p p0le, he went up n dance t0o.. but d0n n0 y he was chase d0wn by da crew inside.. lols.. maybe c0z he shakes t0o hard tat y da crew ask him down.. after momo we follow da 2 new frens 2 mac n eat.. ask i drank a jug n 3 cups of c0ke le, lols was bloated up, sh0 nt eating.. den morning 1st train h0me swit h0me.. =)

a ENJOYABLE night, y cant he understand?

we !!

smile !!

ah xing n mii..

smart?

we we we

ah xing de ic..

ya0ming's sis n mii in momo..

golden toilet bowl

ali baba?

she is mine tonight

disgusting acts..

come on baby, let mii eat it..

mii n chun yi

st0p staring at her breast

you wanna lick where?

2006-09-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

t0dae went 2 lot 1 to watch 'm0nster hs' wib stacey.. nice n touching show.. wen we watch up 2 da cinema, i saw him.. n is obviously he saw mii.. normally ppl even saw fren will sae hi 2 them or msg them.. but he didnt.. didnt at all.. obviously he is avoiding mii.. hais sad.. den after movie went 2 buy belly stub n needle, den head t0wards triumph n chat wib moii work fren.. after tat went 2 mit meijuan n jonathan.. den jonathan help mii pirece moii belly, a little bit pain onli coz da needle n stub in da middle of moii belly lost connection.. lols but fun.. yeah more more.. den lionel cab down 2 take momo de tickets money from mii.. after tat went hm.. lols todae entry short n swit.. jus kinda upset =(

belly pirecing, credit 2 ah j0hn..

2006-09-05T06:11:00.000-07:00

t0dae was t0tally sux !! 8am listening c0mpre.. den fr0m 9am studi all da way till 2pm in sch fer social studies lyk mad.. every1 sae merger n separati0n will nt cum out sh0 didnt studi.. i studi lyk hell fer other chapters yet knn cum out merger.. cb i neber learn lars, but lucki still rmb m0st of it.. hees ~

reached hm use c0m awhile, c his msn nick gt 'g0d b0ught euu 2 mii'.. maybe he gt a new gf le? c0ngrat ~ i m nt feeling gd, but i cant d0 aniting.. den went 2 mit wendi.. her m0od wasnt gd t0dae t0o.. c0z her t0oth hurt her.. t0ld her abt his msn nick n she t0ld mii in a beri direct way saying tat if he ish t0ying mii = d0n l0ve mii, den d0 zi zhuo duo qing.. well, maybe i shd listen 2 her.. gib him all da bless, i d0n wanna b a t0y anim0re, i m tired, i os0 wanna b pampered.. i hab en0ugh of it le.. FULLSTOP.. since he neber cum find mi or msg mi = av0id mii ba? maybe i deserve it.. hu ask mii 2 thr0w m0iiself 2 him n believe him fr0m da start.. l0ve him, but guess everyting was t0o late..

2006-09-04T07:51:00.000-07:00

it was saddening.. rushed moii social studies till eyes pain.. n den xinchang n lionel told mii abt tml de zouk party n thrus de club momo party.. cant gt da tickets fer zouk, sho g0 fer club momo.. sms ask him whether wanna go ma? he replied 'sorry... i don go those place club one enjoy.'SHAG* he ask mi 2 enj0y? wanna mit him, he os0 nt free.. well, guess i shd reali 'enj0y' m0iiself while clubbing..

d0 euu n0 y gals g0 clubbing? dere r l0ts of reas0n behind it.. at 1st i g0 clubbing c0z it was fun n fresh 2 mii, but s0on, its nt.. sh0 y d0 i g0 clubbing? s0metym i jus simply feel lyk a spare tyre.. he contact mii ask n wen he lyk, depend on his m0od.. n wen he sae 'enj0y' i d0esnt n0 whether he mean it or nt.. but it makes mii feel lyk he wan mii 2 g0 clubbing n flirt ard wib guys.. he d0esnt care.. i g0 clubbing coz i felt aband0n n sumtym i m reali tired, jus wanna rest n let ppl pamper mii jus lyk other gals gt.. but can i? th0se ppl hu pamper mii r th0se flirt guys, but i jus simply l0ve him n he d0esnt pamper mii at all.. wen i was wib him, i felt sh0 secure, as if i own da wh0le w0rld.. but wen he wasnt ard mii i was scare.. scare tat he will leave? d0es he reali l0ve mi? y ish dere sh0 mani gals ard him? is g0ing pubbing m0re 'healthy' den clubbing? y d0es he wanna take number fr0m yanling during his bdae n he t0talli 4g0tten abt mii, t0talli.. y d0es he wan j0ycelyn number t0o? where did he g0 wen he sae he ish nt free? y d0es he treat mii sh0 c0ldly while sh0 gd 2 other gals?

i reali wanna ask him all tis.. but i nt dare.. i scare tat he will b frightened away by mii.. wh0 da hell m i 2 questi0n him all tis? d0 i even hab da t0opid right 2 tink of tis? n0non0 at all.. but i jus cant help.. d0es he ever spare a th0ught fer mi? maybe 2 him i m jus a fling or w0rst a junk.. i jus feel sh0 helpless right n0w.. i m n0 l0ng da flirtly mii anim0re, but wat abt him?

2006-09-04T02:48:00.000-07:00

t0dae went 2 sch fer n lvl chi.. kan ta ma de hard sia.. c0z i d0n rec0gnise w0rds, sh0 m0st of da w0rds in da fr0nt p0rti0n alm0st all wr0ng ba? back i m confident wib da back p0rti0n which ish c0mprehensi0n.. c0nfident 2 gt alm0st full marks fer all c0mprehensi0n..

went hm n slp.. slp fer m0re den 6hrs.. tired.. n0w wakeup le.. lata bath le mux start preparing m0ii s0cial studies le.. damn w0rried fer m0ii s0cial studies.. studi till midnight de.. i believe i can.. n tml i sure complain 2 da teachers sae da fan kip bl0wing m0ii papers n even ic, pens away.. wtf i wasnt d0ing paper dere but trying 2 h0ld on 2 m0ii stuff..

jiayou !!!!!!!!!

feeling kinda lonely and bored now.. he didnt contact mii since fridae.. tml after exams i will contact him again.. maybe go clubbing or wat since exams fer tis month ish over 2 relax m0iiself.. after all exams i g0nna g0 learn pole dance in studi0, muai thai n w0rk.. maybe back 2 triumph, maybe other j0bs..

2006-09-02T20:34:00.000-07:00

jus waken up by m0ii br0.. received a bad new... dad was admitted to a h0spital.. his asthma relapse.. i was w0rried sick right n0w.. tml ish m0ii n level examinati0n n right n0w everyting r sh0 messy.. i m scare.. wat shd i d0? lata g0nna rush 2 h0spital wen mum call.. n g0nna studi t0o.. acc0rding 2 m0ii da sa0, dad asthma relapse wen he was nearby our hs, n kind hearted passerby called ambulance fer him n came up 2 m0ii hs 2 inf0rm mummy.. dad was send 2 h0spital by an ambulance, sense of urgency.. h0pe he ish alright.. i felt sh0 l0nely, y d0esnt he reply 2 ani of m0ii msg still fridae night? m i tat detestable? wat wr0ng hab i d0ne?

2006-09-02T03:44:00.000-07:00

jus wake up.. ytd de krunk @ sent0sa was super duper fun !! reali hab enj0yed m0iiself, g0ne wib ya0ming's sis, jas0n, shawn n mac.. met l0ts of frens dere too lyk yanling, shufang, huini's fren, andrew, kailin, jeremy, felix, kai tuck, kaixin, pearl, xinchang, li0nel, n mani m0re.. =)

1st i met up wib ya0ming's sis den went 2 hab0urfr0nt n mit jas0n n mac den we sell tickets dere.. after tat we went 2 sent0sa krunk n shawn j0in us lata.. ask helmet n f0od r nt all0w in ( dangerous items), we hab da privellage 2 kip our stuffs at da 'baggage' even dere isnt ani space anim0re.. den went in 2 enj0y.. at 1st kip we dance in a gr0up, but sl0wli we splited up c0z dey wanna n0 gals ma.. den dey 1 gr0up we gals 1 gr0up.. end up dey sit dere n l0ok at gals.. real fun i can sae, 1st tym i can dance fer sh0 l0ng, mani c0z nt sians? lols.. den learn a new pattern by sl0wli m0ving m0ii b0di d0wnwards, thanks 2 felix n andrew fer teaching us.. * clap * n b0th felix n andrew were dancing tgt lyk gay.. lols.. n its obvi0us felix hand kip m0ving 2 andrew's sum part*.. hahas guess felix mux hab enj0y.. he g0 fer guys n gay, but nt gals.. den mi n ya0ming's sis went 2 find yanling n dance wib her.. while mii n ya0ming's sis were dancing, tw0 an0ym0us guys stand beside us n dance wib us.. immediatly we change place 2 dance n it happens again.. fer an average of abt every 5mins we change places c0z of th0se tik0 guys.. n we kip walking r0und n r0und da field.. n we spotted 2 gals dance till dance fucking nice, their b0di r simply sh0 flexible n kip twisting n turning abt.. w0oah wat's m0re is a pair of chi0 bu.. den went 2 dance wib shufang, it was damn fun c0z shufang was damn friendli n we l0ng tym didnt c each other le..

at da start of da party, dere were sum entertaining pr0gram lyk they ch0oses 3 pairs of c0uple up 2 stage n dey p0ur creams on da guy's b0di n make da gal 2 lick up.. w0oah c0ol man.. cant drink inside krunk c0z dere ish a restricted area fer 18 n ab0ve 2 g0 in n drink, but i m nt.. sh0 went out awhile 2 buy barcardi n drink.. da percentage was l0w, but m0ii face turned red as wat ya0ming's sis sae.. guess i cant h0ld liq0ur well ba.. dere r os0 straits times ph0tographer dere 2 help us 2 take pics.. n dey help mii 2 take tw0 pics.. 1 is i wib ya0ming's sis, an0ther ish i wib ya0ming's sis, jas0n n mac.. fun !! da pers0n ask mi 2 g0 check at straits time website.. but i 4gt wat da url le.. g0d damn shit..

at da end of da party 6am every1 was t0tally tired n we went 2 hab0urfr0nt 2 eat n all g0 hm n slp.. i was a super pig, fr0m ard 7 plus slp till 6+pm.. lols..

da wh0le party was fun, but it will be better if he ish dere t0o.. but t0o bad he d0n lyk 2 g0 tis kinda place.. he didnt even reply m0ii msg even i send him twice.. sad* went fer tar0t reading in sent0sa t0o.. damn zun.. i didnt tell da pers0n wat happen, yet she can predict it.. she t0ld mii tat da old guy (adrian chan) was a stable n independant guy, h0wever he tend 2 neglect mii m0st of da tym.. but sumtym he will b cl0se 2 mii.. he ish sum1 hu i will wait fer his call wen dere he mit mii, n even he didnt turn up or call, i will still wait.. (his bdae) den he was sum1 hu makes mii l0ve sh0 much, n os0 hurt sh0 much.. everytym wen i was wib him, he makes mii feel secure, but wen everytym he wasnt wib mi, d0ubts will b p0pping out.. i m w0ri tat he gt other gals or wat ever but didnt dare 2 sae it out c0z wen i v0ice m0ii th0ughts out, he might leave mii.. (yeah tis happens b4) n dere ish a new guy in m0ii life n0w.. (shall nt menti0n name) wh0 ish unstable, but wanna show mii tat he was stable.. he wanted 2 tie mii d0wn tightly, but m0ii hart ish wib da old guy.. (yeah agree) n finalli dere will be a 3rd guy c0ming t0o.. (i d0n wan)..

well everyting she says bing0.. t0ld shawn dey all 2 try it t0o, but dey refuse.. lols.. da old guy was a gd ch0ice.. i shd learn 2 gib in n understand m0re abt him.. =) i gt her name card.. she was cindy tan, cindy.aedenz@gmail.com... wanna learn m0re abt yr life can try her..

b4 setting off 2 krunk !!

mii n ya0ming's sis

mii n jas0n

mii n mac

smiling lyk an id0it..

in krunk

c da number of ppl in krunk?

shawn, mii, jas0n..

2006-08-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 l0ok fer adrian n watch da vampire's sh0w at his hs.. damn funi.. n he was lyk sick n tired.. wen he finished his exams he msged mii, sh0 hapi !! misses him..

t0dae went out wib meijuan 2 t0wn 2 gt krunk tickets fr0m andrew.. den andrew's fren drive us 2 bugis 2 pass tickets n c0llect m0ni fr0m huikeng dey all.. wen we reached bugis n c0llected m0ni, instead of rushing back 2 andrew, we went 2 da 2nd fl0or n l0ok fer ah j0y.. den meijuan b0ught 2 t0ps n i b0ught 1 dress.. thanks ah j0y fer da disc0unt.. =) hahas den after tat g0 back pass m0ni 2 andrew n we went back 2 bugis n c0ntinue sh0p.. i simple l0ve tat dress c0z its l0ok mature n swit.. it's in green c0lour.. den pei ah j0y g0 d0wnstair 2 wait fer huikeng 2 finish w0rk.. while waiting, ah j0y de fren yanling came.. den dey t0k abt destiny pub n she t0ld mii tat tym adrian wanna take her number n she neber gib.. shag =( but maybe its play play onli? [ i m c0ns0lling myself ] den after tat mi n meijuan went straight h0me n meijuan cum m0ii hs t0n.. she ish lying on m0ii bed right n0w chatting wib mii =) jus cant understand y da 1 hu i reali l0ve n wanna treasure, i cant make him stay.. shd i g0 fer surgery 2 make m0iiself pretty? hais.. i m reali seri0us, but y cant he understand.. actualli t0dae wanna mit him de, end up didnt c0z he d0n wanna cum out.. it seems sh0 t0rturing without seeing him n hearding rum0urs abt him.. but even he ish reali tat kinda pers0n, i believe a human d0es change.. g0nna cut fat 2 prepare fer tml de krunk !! hais d0n feel lyk g0ing n0w le, feel lyk meeting him.. but guess he w0uldnt wanna mit mii.. den jus n0w wen we reaches g0mbak i saw ms jamie t0h !! i shouted beri l0ud, 'ms t0h'.. expected 2 c her sc0lding mii 'y sh0 late haben g0 hm'.. yet she sae 'hi' n s0unds friendli.. =) meijuan ish n0w s0undli aslp..

da dress which i b0ught =)

mii *

2006-08-29T03:21:00.000-07:00

ytd nite went 2 find ah chang 2 pass him sent0sa party de tickets.. 13 pieces, he wan 2 m0re.. at nite reach hm den slp at 11+pm c0z of tiredness.. d0n n0 y m0ii head super pain.. msged him a gd nite msg den went 2 slp.. h0pe fer a reply.. but dere isnt 1.. =( den slp till 3+am suddenli feel beri c0ld n a f0rce pushing d0wn ont0 mii.. dare nt 2 open m0ii eyes, but jus kip shivering in m0ii blanket.. beri scary experience, tis ish da 2nd tym i experience it le.. it da m0rning i w0ke up n m0ii wh0le b0di ish aching.. m0ii eyes, ears, thr0at, leg, arms, back n everyting.. maybe c0z of wr0ng slping p0siti0n? or others? last tym i used 2 envy ppl hu hab their own bedr0om, but n0w after i hab, i regretted.. i w0uld rather wanna hab a r0om mate wib mii.. as i m a 'scary cat'.. scare of everyting..

went 2 sch t0dae, but didnt gt back ani of m0ii papers.. all i n0 tat ish m0ii head spinning.. spinning furi0usly.. even i walk ard da sch os0 lyk japanese w0men, beri small steps c0z i might fall anitym.. den during chinese less0n i slept c0z m0ii brain reali cant take it le.. mdm kh0ng c it but she didnt sc0ld, jus tap mii 2 wake mii up.. n she started telling st0ri.. sh0 i w0uldnt feel sh0 tiring.. in class i os0 taken m0ii temperature, i was running a fever.. wtf a few daes b4 i th0ught i w0uld rec0ver fr0m flu, den n0w da c0nditi0n w0rsen..

feel lyk g0ing out 2 catch a m0vie or studi.. t0o weak 2 m0ve ard, but t0o anxi0us fer everyting..

i miss him.. b0y..

sent0sa party's tickets..

2006-08-28T05:23:00.000-07:00

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW 8:18PM

2006-08-28T00:45:00.000-07:00

ytd mit jas0n.. c0z he wanna drive mii 2 gt sent0sa tickets fr0m andrew.. lols finalli i learn h0w 2 use m0ii lap 2 h0ld on 2 da rider even wen jas0n drive till da fastest but jas0n pls d0n drive half way da bike den brake n c0ntinue!! i will fly de.. den end up andrew was outside.. sh0 jas0n drive mii 2 g0 find his fren frankie.. asked frankie 2 g0 sent0sa party tgt t0o.. lols.. den after tat g0 bugis n buy their bike sticker.. den slack awhile n jas0n drive mii back 2 bat0k 2 gt tickets fr0m andrew n drive mii hm.. lols a gd driver.. lols 'ba0 shan ba0 hai'.. btw he dr0ve real faster, i was sh0 scare tat i use m0ii lap 2 h0ld on 2 him tightly c0z i sae i will nt use hand 2 h0ld de.. lols wind drew vi0lently n i hide m0iiself behind him.. aniway THANKS YOU JASON !! - requested by jas0n..
t0dae went 2 sch.. n gt back m0ii prelim papers.. gt back chinese n social studies de sbq onli.. gt a B3 fer chinese, but gt 11/25 fer sbq.. sad.. c0z i usualli weak in s0cial studies sbq but str0ng in seq.. guess tis tym r0und m0ii seq will os0 flunk ba? c0z i studi de chapter neber cum out at all.. in sch i saw huiping.. lols den ask her wat happen her between her n d0rothy?

reach hm n read d0rothy's bl0g.. her sept26 de entry was da m0st impressive de.. abt 2 gd fren, huiping n ruiying.. i hab n0 c0mments abt it.. but all i n0 ish tat ruiying hab backstabbed d0rothy's gr0up.. n huiping they all sided ruiying all al0ng.. 1 dae ruiying t0ld d0rothy's gr0up tat she met xianya0 n huiping at 1pm, but actualli ish 12, jus tat huiping lie 2 her.. sh0 xianya0 was angry wib ruiying, n ruiying was angry wib huiping.. d0n n0 which side ish lying, but jus w0ndering y 'frens r killing each other'.. sh0 wat da p0int 2 b fren?

den jus l0g in friendster.. saw him viewed m0ii pr0file.. hapi.. but y tis few daes he didnt reply m0ii msg regardless of mii sending fews msg 2 him? n he didnt online.. ish he avoiding mii? or still busi wib his exams? hais.. guess i tink t0o much.. but jus feel kinda scare.. i d0n wan t0o much fr0m him, but 2 c him, i will b cheer up automaticalli.. hais life ish terrible.. 'guess he will use plaster 2 plaster up his neck' - onli he n0 wat i mean =( i believe in wat euu sae, c0z euu d0esnt seems 2 lie 2 mii b4.. i still l0ve euu..

2006-08-26T19:44:00.000-07:00

on fri went 2 slack wib wendy, shawn, ah guan, jas0n awhile.. den wendy n jas0n r g0ne, 2 'tian mi mi' r0unding wib jas0n bel0ved huiping.. den mii n shawn n ah guan plan where shd we g0.. at 1st plan g0 pub drink, den kip dragging till nt much tym.. den dey sae drink at bat0k.. i sae if drink at bat0k beri l0w class lyk bangala.. den end up drinking at w0odlands jetty.. da scenery dere damn nice.. lols end up i didnt drink c0z nt feeling well.. n dey l0ok lyk bangala drinking at jetty.. i felt sh0 bad.. den after tat jas0n cum find us n drive us out fer cab 1 by 1..

ytd mean sat went 2 find wendy, jas0n ya0ming slack awhile.. g0nna studi le.. den later tat adrian c0r.. went 2 his hs 2 watch all da 'yin yang lu'.. nice sh0w.. especialli da party 'h0ng dang dang'.. damn funni.. MARKS of love.. yeah btw i finalli gt da s0ng i lyk.. bits of disapp0intment but largely c0nsist of happiness.. at least can v0ice m0ii hidden th0ughts out.. 'MIRAME'

nice scenery of jetty..

mii n jas0n.. he l0oks thin..

mii n wendy..

mii n shawn..

mii

tis l0ok sh0 nerd..

smiling lyk a child?

act thin..

2006-08-24T07:44:00.000-07:00

t0dae went 2 sch.. den during p0a less0n m0ii hp kip receiving prank calls.. cried.. but luckily it was d0ne m0ii buddies.. i was scare n frightened d0n n0 y.. n0wadaes i hab being sh0 stressful n paran0id.. didnt n0 wat da hell i m d0ing.. out of c0ncern m0ii classmates ask mii fer da number which prank calls mii, n mrs tai sc0lded mii saying wat 'can euu hab sum dinity of being a gal?'.. ccb lars.. wat wr0ng wib ppl prank calls mii? it nt m0ii farking fault l0rs.. ppl kip calling, m0ii hp kip vibrating, euu th0ught i lyk 2 use vibrat0r ar? knn.. ppl kip calling wat can i d0? by giving m0ii classmate da prank callers number ish it sumting wr0ng wib m0ii dinity of being a gal? pls lars, i m gibing prank caller's number nt h0oking k !! put yr m0uth clean abit lars.. c0z of wat mrs tai sae, i felt tat wat ever i d0 even ish c0rrect she will tink in da negative sides onli.. wth.. den i jus burst int0 tears infr0nt of her.. cb lars did i d0 ani ting wr0ng or nt? wat rite d0 euu hab 2 sae i did save m0ii own dinity? i jus feeling sh0 fark up n stress !!

after sch, chi supplymentary.. tat tym i ask mdm k0ng buy pizza gib us eat after chi n lvl prelim.. she reali buy sia.. $57.80.. but i onli eat 1 piece of hawaiian pizza c0z tat da onli fav0ur i dare 2 eat.. den every1 finish up hawaiian pizza le.. enj0y eating hawaiian pizza wib yiling n we pour all da cheese on our pizza.. yummy !!

reached hm, waiting fer him 2 online.. finalli at nite he online, but chat awhile den he busi le.. sians.. hais kinda miss him.. but hu knows?

2006-08-22T22:40:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 bugis wib huikeng n ah j0y.. went 2 eat den i kip t0uching b0th of them de eyelashes.. lols wen i 1st mit huikeng, i tell her 'yr eyelashes fake 1 ar?' den she sae 'aiy0 d0n sae sh0 l0ud, shhhh'. i simply l0ve their eyelashes sia.. den went 2 ah j0y de sh0p den mi n huikeng g0 buy glue n fake eyelashes.. c0z i os0 wanna put ma.. den huikeng help mii 2 put on.. da fake eyelashes makes mii l0ok lyk m0nster running out fr0m jungle.. ahhh scare mii 2 death.. den chat at ah j0y de sh0p fr0m 2+ all da way t0 5+.. omg l0ts of tings 2 t0k.. den sae till m0ii 'sang xin' de ting.. abt adrian chan de n os0 0ng.. i m jus sh0 farking scare of 0ng, i scare tat he might turn up 1 dae.. he ish scary.. den os0 t0ld ah j0y abt h0w disapp0inted i m on adrian chan de bdae tat dae.. prepare till nice nice, yet r0t in other pub, walk till destiny de d0or, yet didnt g0 in n c him.. unwelc0me.. den after tat g0 take ne0print wib huikeng.. l0ts of p0se sia.. fun.. huikeng ish super friendli sia.. c0z she lyk 2 wack ppl butt.. den after tat back 2 bat0k n slack at hm.. super sick, difficulty in breathing.. den online msn n wait fer him 2 online.. i wait n wait n wait.. finalli he online.. tell him hal0s, he reply ya.. den nth le.. haiS y he alwaes reply sh0 c0ldly n sh0rt de? but 2 other gals guess he ish nt?

tis m0rning g0 back sch take n lvl eng prelim.. fer paper 1, i ch0ose 'wat r da advantages n disadvantages of student having part time j0b'.. den i listed out all da gd n back.. tink tis c0mp0 i rite till nt bad sia *buay ba*.. den m0ii st0mach start 2 pain.. m0ii head os0 started spinning.. but i wanna take eng paper 2, sh0 didnt g0 hm.. lucki neber g0 back hm sia.. c0z paper 2 gt interesting st0ri !! BERMUDA TRIANGLE!! m0ii fav0urite.. wen i c tis t0pic, i smile slightli c0z i hab d0ne al0t of research on it out of interest.. gt backgr0und kn0wledge ma.. den after exam adeline dey all tell mii sae wen dey c 'bermuda triangle' dey tink of mii.. c0z i alwaes in class t0k abt bermuda triangle ma.. c reseaching abt bermuda triangle ish nt a bad ting k.. d0n n0 y tis tym r0und i tink da paper ish even much easier den mid yr paper.. *winks* den n0w at hm.. feeling sh0 sick yet feel lyk g0ing out.. actualli j0ycelyn ji0 mi g0 escape theme park 2 play wib yiling n her de c0z she gt free tickets.. but t0o back i n0w sick cant play th0se tings.. waiting fer ppl 2 ji0 mi out *buay ba*..

guess i was disturbed by ppl in tag b0x de ba.. gt 1 pers0n tag as 'GoD' sae wat i l0ve euu, caring fer euu.. d0n n0 hu lai de.. h0w i h0pe da pers0n ish adrian chan, but guess its imp0ssible.. he w0uldnt hab ann0unce it 2 public [m0ii bl0g] n thr0w his face.. hais guess it a prank onli.. but haters n prankers pls d0 nt disturb m0ii tag b0x k.. =]

AIM ; NOT TO USE 'LOLS' N 'HAHAS' ANIMORE !! B MORE MATURE

mii n huikeng

2006-08-20T08:39:00.000-07:00

i ask abt his msn nick..

n gt a reply, 's0'

it meant sh0 much 2 mii..

wat a 'heavy' word used..

2006-08-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 mac 2 midnite studi till 3+am den reach hm.. studi chi n s0cial studies.. den wendi, ya0ming, jas0n, jiaye n a white shirt guy came 2 acc mii study while dey chatting.. i f0cus in m0ii studi by sitting al0ne n summarizing n0tes n testing m0iiself..

but i still felt uneasy as if a big st0ne was pressurizing my heart c0z of wat happened on fri.. i simply feels lyk a pest.. maybe i d0n even qualify 2 be a pest.. t0dae he t0k in mii in msn n ask mi 2 help him 2 check tings.. jus feel kinda sad.. he didnt notice at all.. clearly f0rg0tten or didnt n0 at all.. i m nth.. tears gushed out, ouch i was hurt indirectly.. i cant hold back my tears, didnt wan wendy dey all 2 be w0rried again.. sh0 sitting al0ne 2 self studi ish da best.. refer 2 previ0us entry.. jus kinda disapp0inted.. n m0ii internet c0nnecti0n was alright le.. sh0 i shall p0st pics abt da previ0us entry..

bef0re setting off 2 b0atquay.. c jas0n sh0ck face?

big butt alien n big ears alien

mii zilian

hahas i m g0ing 2 squeeze ya0ming head

waiting in vain

DISAPPOINTMENT

mii n ya0ming..

2006-08-19T00:27:00.000-07:00

h0pes r dashed =(

ytd i waited n waited.. waiting in vain.. jus waiting fer his f0ne call or sms.. but its d0esnt appear s0meh0w.. feeling disapp0inted, i went out wib jas0n n ya0ming 2 b0atquay.. heading blue blaze.. but suddenli sumting happens, b0th of them nid 2 st0p at bugis 2 d0 sumting b4 dey can cum n find mii.. sh0 i went int0 blue blaze n l0ok fer linyin.. drinks, n gt a little tipsy onli.. met 2 new frens, jas0n n an0ther guy.. after tat guess i was t0o tired or wat, m0ii headache.. jas0n n ya0ming came 2 fetch mii back.. went 2 destiny outside n mit them.. suddenli i feel kinda sad.. jus wish 2 c him 1 eye n leave, sh0 i ji0 ya0ming n jas0n 2 g0 in destiny 2 drink.. dey refused, n we went back 2 bat0k 2 mit wendy.. finalli, i cant h0ld m0ii tears anim0re n started crying lyk water tap.. i b0ught new t0p, dressed up nicely n d0ll up, make m0ii hair till nice nice n mature mature den g0.. but cant gt 2 c him.. kinda disappointed.. if he d0esnt 1 mi 2 g0, y d0es he ask mii in da 1st place? y d0esnt 2 msg mii? 'yi chang hun xi, yi chang k0ng' i put in eff0rts n gt shit.. tis m0rning, m0ii fren smsed mii, n she t0ld mii tat last nite she went 2 blue blaze t0o.. she saw him t0o, n she t0ld mii tat he n his fren were disturbing her fren.. wat m i? ppl at dere hapi h0nging, i at dere sad.. shdnt i jus smile n feel hapi fer them tat dey r h0nging gals happily? guess he wouldnt enter m0ii bl0g anim0re n c tis t0opid entry.. i jus simply felt sh0 disapp0inted.. m0ii feelings was t0yed.. 2 m0re daes 2 m0ii prelim.. tat da m0st c0nfident subject, i shall sc0re!!

2006-08-17T23:22:00.000-07:00

ytd m0ii m0od wasnt tat gd, sh0 s0rri 2 all m0ii frens =(

hahas i bought a new t0p at osm0se ytd fer $30 prepare 2 adrian bdae tonight since he ask mii wanna pei him spend or nt if drink he drunk who wan take care of him.. lols but i was waiting fer his call or msg 2 remind mii of todae.. guess he hab 4gt? hahas oso nvm ba stay al0ne n relax.. i m alwaes a pea in his eyes onli =)

2006-08-17T09:34:00.000-07:00

I M PISSED OF BY YANGYA0MING !!

deleted mii fr0m yr friendster acc, delete l0rs, i d0n gib a damn..

if euu neber suan mii, i will neber suan back de l0rs..

euu angry den angry l0rs i d0n care !!

ya right wen i bl0g i d0n tink fer others feelings.. after tis entry, yr name will neber ever appear in m0ii bl0g or m0ii life AGAIN !!

PISS PISS PISS

btw happy bdae 2 adrian chan =)

2006-08-16T03:51:00.000-07:00

hmm todae lots of tins happen.. maybe sad 2 yaoming but it a relieve 2 every1, isnt it right? didnt mean 2 make euu shag or wat.. s0rry..hahas but it can os0 c0unted as a happy ending? lols he ish back 2 his ex shenica.. c0ngrats.. 2 mii, euu r a gd fren * well, fer an0ther side, i t0dae msged him n t0ld him tat i will be waiting.. h0pe 2 n0 wat tat mean, n0t onli mean fer g0ing out..

lata maybe g0ing out 2 bugis 2 make m0ii eyebr0w? den g0 mit wendy.. tired.. slp m0re 1st.. lols..

mrs tai whack m0ii arm jus 2 wake mii up.. c da red fingers marks? lols..

mii n da gal hu i menti0n 'p0ka wawa panty'.. lols.. it a waste i onli c her poka wawa on her panty at da back, didnt gt 2 c her hair.. lols..

2006-08-15T06:25:00.000-07:00

todae went 2 sch, help jas0n 2 gt huiping de number.. lols i gt it.. sh0 jas0n euu own mii 2 'ren qing'.. 1st ish sept1 de sent0sa party, 2nd ish 2 telling mii yr 'spy inf0rmati0n'.. bahahas.. den after sch went 2 admiralty 2 study wib ya0ming, lols eating.. in class, m0ii classmate, wenhui taught mii sumting.. lols guess wat? ish h0w 2 c h0w l0ng n thick a guy dick can b by bending his middle finger int0 half den measure fr0m da tip 2 wrist.. lols d0n n0 ish it c0rrect or nt, but jianming hand ish 'big' n benjamin's hand ish 'small'.. lols.. ya0ming leave his hp wib mii 2 take gd care of c0z he ish g0ing back 2 h0stel.. lols i used da same trick which wenhui taught mii 2 make fun of ya0ming.. lols ya0ming's hand ish 'sort of small'american small dick'.. lols jus kidding nia.. d0n n0 tis ish true or nt, but guys euu can try 2 c whether it true? lols..

t0dae os0 learnt 6 new english v0cabularys ;

scheming - cunning, backstabbing

manipulating - taking advantages of others

intruding - stepping int0

jilted - dump

ousted - eliminate, push out

unbashedly - without shame

well, t0dae heard sum c0mments fr0m frens [ shall nt menti0n hu ], t0ld mii tat ya0ming ish getting a hell of tym trying 2 win m0ii hart.. if i tink tat i wouldnt end up wib him, or made him wait, y nt i just tell him harshly tat i wan him 2 leave.. i tried n t0ld ya0ming tat y nt he gib up on mii since i wouldnt end up wib him, n it a waste of tym waiting fer mi.. m0ii heart hab drifted 2 da adrian, nt ya0ming.. but in da end ya0ming refused 2 gib up.. hais, dere ish l0ts of fact0rs tat i cant b wib ya0ming.. i scare tat i will be t0ying him, i d0n wanna be jilted, ph0bia of being hurt, i prefer old den new, i d0n lyk h0t-tempered guy hu will pr0bably sh0ut or sc0ld gals.. i m m0re 2 guy hu r stable, tink mature [ as in n0 h0w 2 w0rk hard, play hard n studi hard ] n os0 gd temper c0z seld0m guys can t0lerate m0ii crazy behavi0us.. i d0n lyk guys hu hab l0ts of gals ard him c0z its made mii feel insecure.. i l0ve 2 g0 clubbing, slacking n d0ing crazy stuffs which seld0m guys can stand it..

exams r c0ming s0oner n s0oner.. i mux faster study.. i m w0rried, w0rried fer m0ii studies.. i hab c0nfident 2 study n gt As fer m0ii humanties n maths.. chinese pr0bably a B.. i m w0rried fer english, sciences n POA.. POA ish a c0mfirm fail, sciences n english ish either a borderline pass r fail.. well its tym i shd put in sum eff0rts.. yeah tml getting m0ii pay le, but its onli ard 60 bucks c0z last m0nth i w0rk fer 3 daes onli n 1 of da daes, i was late fer alm0st 2 hrs..

sumtym i w0nder y i l0ves being al0ne, slping at hm d0ing nth.. but sumtyms i l0ve hanging out wib frens.. i m satisfated in m0ii friendships, studies n health.. but i simply jus hab sum pr0blems wib m0ii ec0nomic n love life.. n0wadaes exams r c0ming, n0 tym w0rk n n0 inc0me.. shag.. while m0ii l0ve life ish in a mess.. sumtym i w0nder wat wendy t0ld mii, i find it sensible, she t0ld mii ' euu still y0ung, n0 relati0nship will last l0ng, LOves n LIKES r diff..' well, m0ii life didnt g0es sm0othly, stress.. seeing him online, yet i d0n hab da 'y0ngqi' 2 chat wib him.. even i sae 'hal0s' 2 him, he might ign0re t0o..

2006-08-14T08:24:00.000-07:00

t0dae i was late fer sch again !! jus HATE being late fer sch =X ran 3 rounds ard da field wib j0ey c0z she os0 late.. lols.. it nt we student late l0rs, ish da c0nsellor cl0se da gate earlier n da t0opid 945 bus ish alwaes LATE !! while waiting fer m0ii turn 2 be rec0rded d0wn, saw a cb kia beside mii.. knn jus hate being late c0z will c th0se cb kia ard.. euu th0ught euu pretty? everydae open mp3 walking ard sch 2 act c0ol? pls lars m0ii fren m0st of them t0ld mii b4 dat dey d0n lyk euu, small head alien.. kkz lars d0n b sh0 bad kip criticizing th0se scheming ppl.. den after sch went 2 mit ya0ming 2 study, den he went 2 jas0n hs 2 gt his tings.. while walking back 2 da mrt stati0n, we hab a bit of conflicts, jus a bit..

well, i sae b4 i nid tym..

fer examples s0metym wen a fruit ish nt ripe yet, i cant pluck it d0wn 2 eat, if euu f0rce 2 d0 sh0, da f0od will either taste awful or worst caused f0od pois0ning..

same g0es the other way r0und, euu cant let a 'fruit' wait t0o l0ng t0o.. it might fall n be rotton, euu will neber gt 2 eat it..

played a bit of mind game wib ya0ming, lols in da end i win.. but t0dae i wear m0ii br0wn farking heels out n it hurts m0ii toes.. m0ii t0es were all red n sw0llen by n0w.. den he msged mii ask mi wat m i d0ing, den blar blar blar.. n he finalli did reply, sad =X

2006-08-13T09:42:00.000-07:00

yeah part of da jealousy in m0ii mind ish g0ne.. he t0ld mii tat da gal in his friendster pic ish his l0ngest fren =] but still dere r sum left c0z gt mani mani gals f0to.. lols d0es he hab da same feeling t0o wen he c m0ii friendster pics? =P jus measure m0ii weight.. lols m0ii weight g0ne d0wn by 3kg den n0w back 2 40kg le.. lols.. i th0ught i w0uld hab fatten c0z recently i eat al0t, kip eating n eating lyk a m0ther pig.. maybe c0z lack of slp makes m0ii weight g0ne d0wn.. but still m0ii head l0ok lyk a ball -.-

2006-08-13T08:10:00.000-07:00

a mixture of feelings strikes mii.. feel lyk being a lesbian? but nt dare.. lols cant imagine mii kissing wib a lesbian, having sex wib lesbian by using sex toys.. i m alwaes waiting, wat abt euu? euu nid tym, h0w l0ng d0 euu nid? i hab being waiting since 29/4/06 wen euu told mii euu nid tym 2 c0ol d0wn.. its abt going 4th month le.. i h0pe wen finally i heard da answer fr0m euu, ish a 'yes, i m willing 2 be wib euu again'.. but m i dreaming? or wat? still rmb da tym euu d0 tat0o fer mii.. a patience tat0o artist hu let mii pause fer every few mins.. sumtym ish nt tat i cant c0mmunicate wib euu, but ish tat i hab saw euu losing yr temper b4.. but indeed euu r a thoughtful guy.. fr0m n0w on i will change m0ii dress c0de m0stly 2 decent decent 1.. hahas h0pe tat after m0ii n lvl, i still gt da 'r0ngxin' 2 drink wib euu, but nt tat much lyk last tym.. euu r da 1 hu stay by wib mii wen i m drunk n take care of mii.. thankful * misses you

2006-08-13T07:56:00.000-07:00

gah !! i still love adrian chan.. my heart is filled with jealousy when i saw yr friendster pic.. =( i knew you read my blog, that why i purposely post this just wanna let you know that i am always waiting for your answer.

lols.. sexy boy

2006-08-13T04:24:00.000-07:00

sians.. tml nite study start le.. after sch ish 1:40pm.. den g0 hm n rest till 3pm wake up den prepare.. 3.30pm g0 mac or library studi wib ya0ming den by 7 he reach h0stel i reach sch fer nite study.. 9pm den release den hm swit hm 2 slp.. n0t much tym left.. jiay0u !! all da way chi0ng past m0ii n lvl !!

btw frens hu r interested in wat tat cb 1a2 gal did 2 mii, pls refer 2 m0ii entries on august 10 =] i ta0yan her man.. she wat 'ma0' lai de, wanna make mii wait 100 yrs lata ba.. btw she ish shirley de d0g..

2006-08-12T20:17:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 watch firework wib jason n yaoming.. lols went jason hs 1st coz he gt 2 bath all tis.. den after tat jason came downstair but ish abt 8+pm le too late fer firework, sho we cab down 2 esplanade dere.. lols da uncle stopped us in da expressway n kip rushing us saying 'quick lars sh0 sl0w, faster, faster'.. lols he was onli scare of traffic police.. lols.. after tat we find a nice position 2 settle down n watched fireworks.. kinda nice, n touching.. thanks frens fer being wib mii 2 c da firework.. took lots of pics.. on da way 2 marina square we os0 t0ok l0ts of pics n posing.. lols.. den while walking 2 marina square, we saw j0ey n her frens.. i h0oked jas0n hand.. den after tat j0ey msg mii 2 ask is it jas0n ish m0ii stead.. lols i t0ld her yes, help mi 2 watch out whether gt ani 'gal' lyk him.. lols jas0n den t0ld mii 'wa lyk tat if i wanna jio gal i oso n0 chance'.. lols i spotted him.. lols jas0n da big butt alien.. lols.. den mi, jas0n n ya0ming met ya0ming de frens awhile.. den we actualli plan 2 g0 geylang, changi.. lols in da end watch m0vie c0z actualli dey plan 2 g0 devils bar, but i m da onli underage.. lols.. sh0 dey pei mi watch 'the gh0st game'.. lols a scary m0vie indeed.. wenhui i believe in yr taste.. lols.. i kip screaming in da movie theathe c0z it reali t0o damn farking scary.. after da m0vie we went 2 eat fried rice beside DXO den slacked at esplanade n i fall aslp.. da fried rice taste damn nice, reali great !!! lols.. dey wake mii up n i decided 2 take NR8 hm.. went 2 da bus st0p, left last bus.. c0z waiting fer mi 2 b0ard NR8, dey missed NR2 n cant g0 hm.. i felt sh0 bad by pangseh them two n i g0 hm.. c0z of mi, dey didnt g0 club, but c0z of mii again left da two of them missed their bus n da0 at esplanade dere.. awaiting 1st sept de party at sent0sa.. lols.. ya0ming seems 2 hab lots of troubles in his mind, ytd saw him toking on fone abt his ex gf's stuffs.. well, i hab nth 2 sae c0z i m a outsider n i onli heard 1 sided story, no right 2 judge.. lols.. den i msg him a cute msg n he reply 'nite i miss you'.. kinda touching, was quite a period of tym didnt c him msg mii wib 'i miss you'.. but ask i sae, i don wish 2 hurt both side.. n i oso wish 2 toy wib them.. i nid 2 make a damn serious decision.. i waiting fer his ans, n yaoming waiting fer m0ii ans.. i m scared, scare in every relationships.. i hab phobia tat dey might leave mii 1 dae, but all m0ii phobia came truth.. but lucki fer sum of da guys, i didnt put m0ii hart in n didnt fall too deep..

beautiful fireworks.. m0ii favourite 1 ish da 1 sh0tting red firew0rk n spreaded

three aliens..

big butt alien, me, big ears alien..

two aliens r trying 2 act c0ol..

jas0n n mii..

crowded city hall..

nice scenery..

2006-08-11T20:17:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 studi n slack wib wendy, jas0n, shawn n ya0ming.. eatten our dinner at west mall 1st.. den ya0ming face black black c0z he read m0ii bl0g t0o.. well, ya0ming i didnt use euu as a t0ol 2 seek his attenti0n.. i jus take pics wib all s0rt of guys.. den ya0ming wanna kinda angry n even sae he d0n wanna c mii anim0re.. fine.. den were 2 wait fer jas0n 2 'eat snake' n slack wib us.. while slackng, i studied.. ya0ming b0rr0w jas0n m0t0r 2 ride n he 'buang'.. he injured his knees n os0 ankle.. i felt kinda guilty but i can d0 nth.. argh it was lyk sh0 c0nfusing.. but i h0pe i will make a gd ch0ice.. paranoid * after tat i gib jas0n a nick name.. lols.. 'big butt alien'.. lols.. kip making fun of him.. 'big butt alien, big butt alien, big butt alien'.. lols.. den after jas0n w0rk, we mit jeslin n shawn den went 2 nearby wendy hs slack awhile.. lols.. on da way 2 wendy hs, jeslin aka p0ka wawa kip trying 2 squeeze inbetween wendy n shawn.. den i t0ld pic of her squeezing inbetween them.. lols was damn fun.. den slack awhile jas0n n ya0ming cab mi hm le.. t0dae was suppose 2 g0 swimming.. but till n0w 11:28am ya0ming n jas0n r still slping.. argh faster wake up !! lols btw ytd ya0ming sh0 bad.. lols he kip suaning jeslin.. den we kip making fun tat jeslin neber shave her armpit hair.. lols..

2006-08-10T22:26:00.000-07:00

t0dae went 2 sch as n0rmal, den bus late.. i was late.. wen i was at da entrance of da sch gate, shirley purp0sely thr0w b0ttle n bl0cked m0ii way in.. fine.. her gd fren 'fi0na' da bytch laughed.. knn wat dere funi 2 laugh huh? euu onli sec 1, euu wat hair lai de.. knn black, dirty pussy !! if i can, i h0pe 2 pluck off all yr cb hair n stick it on yr f0rehead as yr fridge !! farking cb.. nvm euu wanna play, i shall play it out wib euu.. ccb i will sae euu till euu d0n even w0rth a cent.. knn pua l0ck kuay lars, n0 w0nder junye n wenhui d0n 1 euu.. euu deserve it man.. if i were them, i will pinch yr black, dirty, en0rm0us nipples out n twist it n make it reb0unce.. hu d0 euu tink euu r huh, c mi al0ne late den make mii, fine, euu watch yr ass bytch.. den last peri0d math, take back m0ii paper.. 47/60.. argh m0ii result dr0p.. argh 1 m0re week 2 prelim, i mux w0rk hard !! yeah den sept 1 sent0sa party..

since euu hab read m0ii bl0g, i shall sae it here, nt 2 menti0n hu as euu sae b4 euu d0n 1 ani1 2 n0.. still rmb i asked euu a questi0n b4? d0 euu reali l0ve mii?

euu t0ld mi tat 'look at the way u dress now sry it too extreme to mi if it some 1 i care ..if u r no 1 to mi im ok to it..more than happi to c..but..no..nvm it fine with mi now already..tak it as i nv say anything...i saw your blog don wry i'll nv interfere your life..the door is still open for your new guy..go ahead..don neeeda reply mi..tat alll.. take care'

it i m sum1 euu care, euu w0uldnt hab leave mii.. yes euu sae b4 tat euu nid tym 2 c0ol d0wn.. but d0n euu tink tat ish t0o l0ng? its ard 3-4 mths.. even if euu open da 'd0or', i hab decided 2 cl0se da d0or.. n l0ck it.. i wan euu 2 b da onli 1 wib da key.. euu sae tat it fine wib euu n0w.. mean tat euu d0n l0ve mii anim0re, or neber ever l0ve mi.. well, i hab thicken m0ii skin 2 sae all tis.. if euu were 2 open m0uth n sae, i can wear short n t-shirt everydae.. i did sh0 much lyk taking pics wib guys, g0 clubbing, changing m0ii msn nick n mani jus 2 gt yr attenti0n.. but wat did euu d0? euu either ign0red it, or euu make mii felt lyk i was a pest.. a detestable pest.. i can change, change till everyting euu lyk, but hab euu given mii ani chance? nt even a single chance.. i m a attenti0n seeker, but i wan yr attenti0n onli.. n0 1 can b c0mpare 2 euu.. everytym i c euu online, i will be sh0 excited, wanted 2 t0k 2 euu.. but m0st of da tym was i waited yr reply fer vain.. everytym i received yr sms, i was lyk g0d damn hapi, but 2 euu, maybe i m pestering euu onli.. euu hab given up on mii, but i didnt.. i h0pe euu can understand wat i mean.. y d0es yr reply alwaes s0unds sh0 cruel..

2006-08-10T10:35:00.000-07:00

i m feeling sh0 messy rite now !!!! y? y alwaes mii? in wat way did i change? y d0 euu feel uneasy wen euu c m0ii friendster pic? y y y ???? h0w i m diff fr0m da tym i n0 euu? i m still da same.. excuses.. i m ch0osing da way i wan n0w, but euu forbid mii.. shd i walk t0wards euu, or take an0ther path?

2006-08-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

wo yi ran hai zai deng dai `

ytd went 2 esplanade wib ya0ming, wendi n shawn.. den went 2 eat n back 2 maj0ng den i watch gh0st vcd.. was kinda fun slacking.. plan 2 g0 swimming wib them on sat.. lols den back 2 bat0k mit jeslin.. lols sumting happens.. we saw her wearing aqua c0lour de panty.. lols den we kip laughing.. den we sit down n wait fer jas0n 2 finish w0rk.. lols i saw a 'xia0 qiang' den ya0ming help mii 2 chase it away.. it went 2 wendy dere, lols den shawn help her 2 chase it away, den it went 2 jeslin den n01 help.. lols.. den jeslin gt her retribution, kip kanna scold by wendy.. lols den wen playing maj0ng she cant find her hp, she l0oked at wendy n let wendy sc0ld, in da end she f0und her hp in bag.. wahahas.. den i helped ya0ming makeup n dey pei mi g0 back gombak slack den i g0 hm..

to ya0ming ;

euu hab gt da key n open da d0or.. euu jus nid 2 push open da d0or n euu can gt in.. but t0dae i received a msg fr0m sum1, tat da strength which slammed da d0or cl0se again.. maybe euu hab l0st da key, or da strength ish t0o str0ng fer euu 2 overc0me.. all i tink of ish wat wendi named 'big nose alien'.. big nose alien hab slammed da d0or hard... i still love him..

ya0ming n mii

d0g piggyback cat !! frens pls do nt misunderstand

twist !!

wendy n mii..

smiles hippo

dress code..

2006-08-08T17:05:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!

hmm jus reach hm tis m0rning jus 2 update m0ii bl0g.. ytd m0rning went 2 sch fer national dae celebration.. hahas went 2 b0tanic garden fer a picnic.. lols den mama c0oked bee h0on n p0pianS fer mii 2 share wib m0ii classmates.. lols p0pianS all g0ne left abit of bee h0on.. den t0ok l0ts of pics wib m0ii classmates n os0 sum teachers.. hahas den mr bambung kip calling mii 'p0ker d0ts gal' [OOO] lols.. after sch plan 2 g0 c0unt d0wn.. hahas den mit wendi n ya0ming n jas0n.. slack all da way.. lols went 2 bugis sh0pping.. wendy hp l0st.. hmm can c tat she was beri sad but didnt cry out, yet kip smiling at us n acting happy.. kinda brave.. den after tat mi n wendi g0 n mit ya0ming 1st.. hahas eat at m0s burger den wendy sae sumting abt mii n ya0ming de ting 2 ya0ming.. den ya0ming face suddenli turn black n em0.. well, i was lyk a ham in da sandwich, d0n n0 wat 2 d0.. s0metyms tings might nid 2 take up sumtyms.. but his sincere hab touched m0ii heart.. hahas but n0w ish nt da right tym.. if ya0ming were 2 been here n c tis, h0pe he w0uldnt tink tat i bluff him or wat, c0z wat wendi help mi 2 msg him, ish wat i wanna sae.. den after tat went 2 mit jas0n after his w0rk at pizza hut.. n during tat period of tym, sum1 msged mii.. [ish nt i d0n wanna mit euu, but ish tat i cant pangseh m0ii fren.. wen euu r b0red den will tink 2 mit mii, den wat abt mii? wat wendy dey all sae might be rite.. i shdnt stick 2 da ting which d0esnt bel0ngs 2 mii]

swan wib mii

fatty swan which wanna peck mii

nadia n mii

elephant huiyi..

mii wib strawberry

nadia wib strawberry

mii n nadia

mii n xia0qing

mii n syamilah

mii n fi0na kiss kiss

mii n huiyi raping fi0na..

adeline n mii

tis ish da ugliest pic of all, isnt it right? fi0na?

da gals..

mii n miss tan

mr bambung n mii

mii

2006-08-07T05:55:00.000-07:00

was kinda fun tis few daes.. on fri heard from wendy tat jeslin made her hp lost.. wendy was lyk kinda sad, at da same tym angry.. of course i m siding wendy.. coz i don no lyk jeslin at all.. still rmb tat wen i was young she used 2 bully mii, but now although i hate her, but don no y i jus cant gt angry wib her.. but she hab gt her retribution by being condemn by m0ii frens.. bad ppl d0 hab their retributi0n i believe.. lols wendy n i spotted her wearing 'poka wawa' de panty.. lol.. she 19 yrs old le, still wear th0se kiddy panty.. kinda shame.. den wendy saw tat she did shave her armpit hair and yet she wear sleeveless.. lols.. but i felt sho bad by laughing wib moii fren abt her.. sh0 she gt a new nick call 'wawa' lols..

last fri i went 2 slack ard wib wendy, jason, shawn n 'wawa'.. lols she lyk shawn sia.. wen shawn came, she refuse 2 g0 hm le.. lols..

on sat mi, wendy, yaoming, jason, shawn n wawa went 2 t0wn 2 watch midnite m0vie 'l0ng hu men'.. hmm quite a nice n funi m0vie.. den after tat cab hm.. lols b4 tat went 2 buy a levi jeans c0z gt disc0unt.. but, i doesnt lyk it tat much.. hmm den i kip making fun of wendy by saying 'wawa'.. lols.. in da aftern0on went 2 west mall 2 find ya0ming t0o.. lols help him d0nate flag dae n wait fer him 2 end den we pei wendy g0 buy panty.. lols he was kinda shy walking outside of da 'bra' boundary.. lols..

t0dae study, study, study, mock, mock, mock.. m0ii eye balls wanna dr0p le.. wahahas tml den can g0 gaigai le.. den at nite g0 c0unt d0wn nati0nal dae.. hapi bdae singap0re !!

da creation of m0ii classmates..

ya0ming da hush puppy..

lols tis ish da p0ka wawa which i m t0king abt on her panty.. lols..

2006-08-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

hmm da whole week go prefectly normal.. on last fridae went 2 slack wib wendi, jas0n n ya0ming.. lols eat n chat.. quite fun ba.. den on sat oso tgt slack at batok.. den sum1 i d0n lyk hu ish jeslin suddenli call mii n wanna mit.. den f0und out tat wendi ish her sec sch mate.. she ish still da same, lyk 2 'eat' ppl.. no y? at da coffee sh0p she t0ld mi tis ' ae g0 help mi buy drinks lehx, faster'. lols guess wat i d0? i turned m0ii head 2 wendi n started 2 t0k 2 wendi as she pick up 2 d0llars fr0m da fl0or n ask mi wanna drink wat she buy fer mii.. lols.. den after tat went 2 wendi hs fer maj0ng.. lols i d0n n0 h0w 2 play sh0 i neber play.. lols den c she gt sc0lded by wendi wen playing maj0ng c0z she d0n n0 h0w 2 play much.. den she kip saying 's0ri s0ri'.. serve her rite man.. lyk 2 bully mii in da past rite? n0w finalli met sum1 m0re firece 2 euu n euu scare lyk a d0g.. retributi0n.. sumtym treat ppl lyk jeslin gd n0 use de, c0z she will onli 'eat' euu m0re.. lols den i rmb last tym heard fr0m jasmine tat jeslin st0le kangwen's hp, jus kanna caught by kangwen.. c0me on man, steal yr own fren stuff, wat kinda fren ish tis man? den ytd chat wib grace online.. lols t0ld her tat i saw jeslin last sat n she cut sh0rt hair.. lols den started 2 chat wib grace abt jeslin.. lols den euu n0 wat grace sae abt jeslin? she t0ld mi tat jeslin lyk 2 'BIG HOLE'. lols meaning small ting can let her sae till beri big.. lols.. n0w i finalli believe tat bad ppl will gt their retributi0n 1 dae.. lols heard 1 m0re funi ting fr0m ya0ming man.. lols c0z tat dae i left wendi hs earlier, jeslin, ya0ming n jas0n take lift d0wn went g0ing hm, den jeslin ask them 'hey euu all wan m0ii number ma?' lols den ya0ming sae ' y shd i take yr number'? bahahas.. i laugh lyk mad..

well, jus gt m0ii ge0 m0ck paper on tues.. lols 37/50 !! A2.. 1/2 a marks will gt A1 le.. argh.. i mux w0rk hard man !!

2006-07-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

on fridae nite went 2 orchard den after tat rush.. lols den mit aar0n inside rush.. kinda fun, but g0 awhile den leave le.. after tat slack all da way wib sum games till m0rning den h0me swit h0me..

on m0ndae went 2 celebrate d0reen de bdae wib meijuan, linda, karen n j0anne.. lols celebrate it in k-b0x.. instead of singing, we r sh0uting.. lols even far outside da r0om can os0 hear our sh0uting.. hahas den kinda sing out all m0ii feelings.. 'matchstick heaven' n 'silu'.. sum of euu shd n0 y.. especially matchstick heaven.. left n n0 return.. den we supp0se 2 leave at 9pm but drag till 10+pm.. lols hab ice cream cake, but was still hungry.. sh0 after k-b0x went 2 west mall de m0s burger 2 l0ok fer f0od.. ah n0 m0re le.. went hm empty tummy..

rush wib fren de gf..

2006-07-19T03:56:00.000-07:00

jus n0w in class i sae tat i wanna d0 research on bermuda triangle.. gt s0me interesting reas0ns n tings abt bermuda triangle in da internet..

An Introduction To The Bermuda Triangle
Better known as ‘The Devil’s Sea’, the Bermuda Triangle is situated off the coast southeastern
Alantic coast of the United States. Countless theories have been made about the Triangle. In the
past, it had been strongly believed that the Bermuda Triangle was full of nautical mysteries.
Researchers wrote ferociously about ships and planes crashing in that area and never to be found. In
this present day, however, with the invention of new and advanced technology, some researchers are
arguing that the mysteries of the Bermuda Triangle can be accounted for.
It is a known fact that the Bermuda Triangle has caused numerous disasters. Many ships, planes and
people have gone missing in the Triangle. It is indeed bizarre that some ships, which took the same
routes of which the missing ones had taken, managed to travel back to their destination safely, unlike
those such as Flight 19, for instance.
This paper will firstly analyse four main causes of the disasters that happened in the Triangle.
Secondly, examples of current technology will be elaborated and lastly, this paper concludes with
arguments supporting the opinions listed.
A picture showing the location of the infamous Bermuda Triangle.

Causes Of Disasters
Studies have shown that there are numerous reasons to explain the causes of disasters in the
Triangle. In this section, this paper highlights seven main causes that attribute to the unique
characteristic of the Bermuda Triangle. The seven causes are; Black Hole or also known as Time
Warp, Static Electricity, Magnetic Compass, Spatial Disorientation, Environmental Factor, Human
Error and lastly, Density of the Water. Each of these points is elaborated below.
¨ Black Hole or Time Warp
Black Holes are stars that fall from the sky, and after some time, it will form a black hole that is
so powerful that even light cannot escape from it. It has been said that the black hole has the
ability to suck things in. The result of this theory is that some researchers believe that ships, or
even aircrafts, disappear mysteriously in the Triangle because they get sucked in to the Black
Hole. Below is a picture of the Black Hole.
¨ Static Electricity
Static Electricity is known as the silent killer in the Bermuda Triangle. Static Electricity is often
misconstrued as electricity that is static. However, scientists have argued that that is incorrect.
Static Electricity simply means charge imbalance, or in layman’s terms: high voltage.
¨ Magnetic Compass
The magnetic compass in the Triangle points not only towards true north, but also magnetic
north. The difference between the two is known as compass variation. The amount changes by
as much as 20 degrees as one circumnavigates the earth. Especially in the past, when ships

reached the region, their compass could not find the exact position of where they were, thus
causing the sailors to become confused and disorientated.
¨ Spatial Disorientation
Spatial disorientation occurs when the outside visual input is obscured. With no visual reference,
the probability of pilots, including experienced pilots, losing their orientation is high. This
disorientation results in pilots losing control over their aircraft.
It is also worth mentioning that many inexperienced pilots used to fly over the Triangle, and
being inexperienced; they did not know what to do in such a unique situation that lies within the
Triangle. They, thus, suffered from the condition Spatial Disorientation, without even realising
it. The result of this was that they eventually plunge to their death in a matter of seconds.
An example of a case of Spatial Disorientation is the crash of a Raytheon (Beech) King Air 200
aircraft (N81PF) near Strasburg, Colorado, on January 27, 2001. It was believed that the crash
was due to the pilot suffering from spatial disorientation as he had failed to maintain positive
manual control of the airplane with the available flight instrumentation. The aircraft was
destroyed, and there were no survivors. Below is a picture of the plane that crashed.
¨ Environmental Factor
Environmental factor here is mainly attributed to the abnormal weather patterns experienced in
the Triangle. An example is the Gulf Stream, which is known to be extremely swift and turbulent
and can quickly erase any evidence of a disaster. This explains the reason for ships disappearing
and in line with a previous point, the lost ship may be sucked in to the Black Hole.
Storms in the Triangle are known to occur suddenly without warning of any sort. Tornadoes,
hurricanes, tsunamis, earthquakes and immature tropical cyclones have also been cited to occur

at the Triangle with little signal and also known to dissipate quickly. In addition, the strong
currents over the many reefs in the Triangle cause the topography to be in a constant state of flux
in the triangle. Navigators may not be able to adjust to these hazards as swiftly, what more the
inexperienced ones.
¨ Human Error
Another cause of unfortunate incidents in the Bermuda Triangle is attributed largely to humans,
or incompetent navigators, to be more specific. Such navigators lack sufficient knowledge of the
Triangle’s hazards and as such, they would not be able to anticipate the devil’s play that lies
ahead.
Nonetheless, it is crucial to note that even the experienced navigators may not be able to react
swiftly to any of the unpredictable dangers. This is simply because such dangers are rarely seen
in other parts of the world. Thus, it is normal that panic sets in when the navigators use their
judgment incorrectly. But of course, they do have to pay for their bad judgement – their lives.
¨ Density of the Water
Coincidentally, the Triangle sits over an oceanic trench. Large amount of methane gas are
released to the surface that causes a vacuum-like effect and unstable waters that are unable to
support a ship. Along with the sudden storms described above, ships or planes may get sucked in
and this is one of the reasons for mysterious incidents. In 1981, a geochemist named Richard
McIver explained that the gas is present as the Triangle possesses the ideal conditions, the deep
sea floor and the temperature, for the formation of the gas.
It has been said that the water in the area is ‘foamy’ and it contains bubbles. As such, the water
in the area is less dense than water in other areas. This further aggravates the sinking of boats or
airplanes. With the water being less dense, ships or airplanes will actually sink at a much faster
rate, even in an instant. More importantly, more often than not, these ships are usually huge and
heavy. This adds on the descending rate, inevitably.

Some may argue that this scientific explanation is sufficient conclusion to the mystery. However,
some may contest that this theory further supports the legendary theories of ships being sucked
in to the Black Hole.

Justification for Fewer Incidents
It has been proven that fewer incidents take place at the Triangle now. While some argue that less
and less people go to that region, a more logical explanation is due to modern technology.
Modern days’ technologies are more advanced now which greatly attribute to the decreasing number
of accidents. These advanced technologies prevent accident from happening. Two such technologies
are highlighted below:
¨ Satellite Communication
Satellite communication allows ships the means to detect icebergs from the north region, know
their exact position as well as the weather condition at the Triangle. Pilots and sailors now have
the capability to avoid the Triangle as the satellite communication enables pilots and sailors to
identify their exact position. Respective control towers are also able to detect the ships and
airplanes.
With the advantage of knowing their exact position and the weather condition, ships and aircrafts
have the upper hand n preparing their crew for any danger that lies ahead.
In the event that the weather looks bleak, the ships and airplanes simply have to avoid the region.
As such, reducing the possibility of incidents taking place in the region now.
Shown below, are two pictures of satellites.
¨ Deep Submerged Rescue Vehicles(DSRV)
Another example of a current technology is The Deep Submergence Rescue Vehicles, which is
more commonly known as “DSRVs”, (rescues submerged, disabled submarines of the U.S Navy
or foreign navies.) As the name suggests, the DSRV is designed to rescue submarines quickly in

the event of an accident. This machine can be transported by truck, aircraft, ship or specially
configured attack submarines.
The DSRV dives, conducts a sonar search, and attaches to the disabled submarine’s hatch,
should an accident arise. Here, the DSRV is working with either a ‘mother’ ship or ‘mother’
submarine.
The DSRV has the capacity to hold 24 people to bring them up safely to the “mother” vessel.
The DSRV also has an arm to clear hatches on a disabled submarine and a combined gripper and
a cable cutter. The gripper is able to lift an astonishing weight of 1000 pound.
With the invention of the DSRV, number of deaths in the Triangle, inevitably, will decrease. The
DSRV ensures that people are found as well as airplanes that crash or ships that sink. Not
forgetting, the DSRV also contiribute to the decreasing number of mishaps in the Triangle as it
has the capacity to rescue people. This may result in less deaths.
Shown below, are two pictures of the mighty DSRV.

Conclusion – Myth or Fact?
In conclusion, this paper answers the one question that most have been wondering – Is the Bermuda
Triangle simply a myth or is it truly factual?
Based on the points presented in the earlier sections of this paper, it may be concluded that there are
indeed two sides of the story with regards to the Bermuda Triangle.
It may be a myth due to scientific reasons elaborated earlier. Human error based on bad judgment
causes accident to happen. Despite knowing that the Triangle has unpredictable weather conditions,
inexperienced navigators were still being despatched to sail through or fly through the area. Being
inexperienced, they did not realise the presence of the condition Spatial Disorientation. It has been
mentioned that they would lose their orientation within seconds, and when confusion set in, they
actually descended to the sea in a graveyard spin. They might also not be experienced enough to be
aware of the existence of the compass variation and thus, might not know how much to compensate
it for. Hence, it might be deduced that these navigators were the cause for their death and not the
unique characteristics of the Triangle.
In addition, in line with the fact that the density of the water in the Triangle is less dense, this clearly
explains why ships and airplanes sink quickly and within seconds, it seems as if no sinking has taken
place at all.
On the other hand, the mysteries of the Bermuda Triangle may truly exist. It has been argued that no
scientific reasons can explain for the fact that the density of water in the Triangle is lesser than
normal. Plus, the fact that there are some ships and airplanes that sink into the sea which could never
be found, further adds on to the mysteries of the Triangle. The Black Hole, for instance, is one
theory that one fears most. A hole which sucks things in and while researchers are still busy
investigating, people have the same question in mind – “If things are sucked in, where do they end
up?” As this question is still left unanswered, the Bermuda Triangle holds many dark secrets and
mysteries and thus, it is a fact that no sufficient evidence may prove that the Bermuda Triangle is
simply a myth and nothing more.
What is clear, however, is the fact that the Bermuda Triangle does exist and is indeed powerful.
Whether one thinks it is a myth or a fact, it is best to be aware of the hazards that lies in the Triangle
so that no accidents take place, or for some, it is simply best to avoid the place altogether.

m0st pr0bably i guess da reas0n shd b da 'black h0le' ba.. but i hab mani questi0n behind it.. h0w stars dr0p fr0m heaven? will da black h0le suck everyting in? where did da ting g0? will it suck da wh0le earth 1 dae? h0w d0es it l0ok lyk? wat ish inside it?

2006-07-19T02:12:00.000-07:00

hmm on m0ndae went 2 har paw ville wib yiling, kimchuan, gerald, sikai n elt0n.. hahas all i can sae ish fun.. i was lyk a m0untain turtle running happily int0 har paw ville.. lols den went 2 da 18th hell.. nt scary at all.. onli da mirr0r scary.. lols taken l0ads of pics..

on tuesdae sumting unhapi happen.. 'pigs r clever c0z wen weather h0t dey will r0ll in mud', 'c0w ish t0opid 2 kip w0rking even weather ish h0t'.. but 'c0w' might gt 2 w0rk on a field 1 dae wib full of grass fer it 2 eat.. [ onli m0ii class de ppl understand tis ] den at nite went 2 cine n watch 'recycle' wib andrew.. hahas i saw andrew crying in da m0vie theathe!! lols c0z da m0vie was t0o t0uching.. its abt a writer hu writes n created a w0rld call 'recycle' den she enter tat w0rld n met her ab0rted daughter.. well, da fr0nt part was scary c0z of da tall n l0ng hair lady which makes mi scream.. but at da ending was damn t0uching.. den b0ught a shining l0ose p0wer!! hahas i l0ve it!! n den hm swit hm..

t0dae was taking s0cial studies n math m0ck paper.. argh 6 peri0ds of m0ck papers!! den after sch gt GCE N level Chinese Oral Examination.. i tink i g0nna flunt in it.. da questi0n ish abt 'd0 euu tink singap0rean hab th0se gener0us spirit? gib sum examples.. '

i sae tat 'i tink tat m0st of da singap0rean r self centered.. dey will jus cut queue n in da mrt even dey c old ah ma was standing n g0ing 2 fall, dey jus cl0se their eyes n act 2 slp.. if dere ish a taxi infr0nt, dey jus gt in w/0 queueing up.. singap0re ish a racial harm0ny c0untry.. sumtym dey cut queue dere might but sum malays or indian behind.. if quarrel, tis might cause racial tensi0n n tis will w0rsen da relati0nship tat we build wib other races..' sia lars i sae sh0 sh0rt onli n da teacher t0ld mi 'euu r beri creative'.. i tink his creative mean 'out of p0int' die die le..

entry of har paw ville

ride on da sheep!!

nice backgr0und..

d0n d0 bad tings huh.. tat da c0nsequences.. fry euu alive..

m0ii pet.. lols..

kiss euu sexy c0w..

hey faster return mii m0ii m0ni lehx.. if nt i sell euu 2 changi..

yeah tat mii !!!!

2006-07-15T23:15:00.000-07:00

hmm tis week, a rather bad week.. 1st made yiling pissed off c0z of da vide0.. but she cried c0z sum1 sae her.. but i shall nt menti0n hu.. i was partly, or can sae maj0rity wr0ng.. she treat mii sh0 gd, i shdnt hab j0ke wib her in tis kinda manner..

den on fri i made him pissed off t0o.. by saying a beri insulting phrase.. lols he was sh0 pissed tat he bl0cked mii in msn.. acc0rding 2 j0ycelyn he was online.. felt sh0 bad..

den sat mit andrew, cheney n jeremy.. went 2 reb0nd m0ii hair at far east.. argh m0ii hair ish n0w sh0rter le.. but straight n sm0oth.. andrew n jeremy's c0mment was tat i suit m0ii twist perm m0re.. but sum other sae tat i suit reb0nd hair m0re.. well, aniting.. but i lyk m0ii reb0nd hair n0w.. lols c0z beri sm0oth 2 t0uch.. spent abt 4++hrs jus 2 reb0nd m0ii SHORT hair c0z m0ii hair was t0o hard fer them 2 s0ften d0wn.. lols.. den after tat abt 9+pm den finish reb0nding.. g0 d0wn stairs n b0ught a heels.. ch0ose fer quite l0ng c0z th0se nice nice de heels r hurting m0ii feets n i DON 1 heels which will HURT m0ii feets again.. after tat we went 2 esplanade watch bay beats.. was BORING 2 mii ONLI.. after tat went 2 b0at quay n insearch of blue blaze.. linyin hp was off, cant c0ntact her.. search fer abt half an hrs, we gave up.. went 2 a pub in clarke quay called 'the elephant'.. lols den dey drink beer, but c0z i m a gal, i scare i will hab beer belly, i d0n drink tat awful drink.. i ordered 'l0ng island'.. hmm can actualli makes ppl feel high but onli can taste da lime instead of da 'alc0h0l'.. after a glass of l0ng island den i take nr8 hm.. kinda getting higher c0z da alc0h0l inside started 2 reacte.. but i decided 2 slp in da bus.. reached m0ii hs nearby de bus st0p n i alight da bus.. m0ii head was kinda 'heavy' but i m clear wat i m d0ing.. walked hm, lols still can online.. den slp..

t0dae g0nna g0 buy sum cl0thes.. at bugis ba.. cheaper.. =]

b4 reb0nd

after reb0nd

mii, jeremy, andrew.. lols tis pic nt nice de..

mii n andrew..

cheney n mii

mii waiting fer nr8.. lols such a ha0lian l0ok..

drunkard l0ok? n0p haben drunk.. lols..

nth 2 d0 den take f0to of m0ii back view.. lols inverted V at da back of m0ii hair..

2006-07-10T03:36:00.000-07:00

t0dae went 2 sch.. n on da 3rd peri0d, sum1 pissed m0ii ass off !!!!!!!! argh !! well student cant sc0ld teacher or sae bad abt them, sh0 i shall sae sumting which ish fair.. wat wr0ng wib mii selling bra huh? y d0 euu kip picking on mii? did i d0 aniting wr0ng 2 euu? well, jus m0ii eng f0rmat wr0ng, tell mii n i shall sl0wli mem0rize da f0rmat n master it.. mux euu use m0ii j0b 2 suan mii? wat wr0ng wib selling bra huh? i sell bra ish use m0ii m0uth n hands 2 sell, nt stealing yr bra k.. i jus d0n understand y sum ppl lyk 2 l0ok d0wn on ppl.. euu r rich, sh0? euu r rich d0n mean tat euu can l0ok d0wn on p0ors n criticise them wib wat ever euu 1 k.. if ppl hab n0tice, i f0und tat tis few daes she hab being picking on mii, i m weak in eng, but sh0? i m trying 2 learn beri hard, but euu jus d0n gib mii a chance.. all euu n0 ish 2 sae ' y huh? busy selling yr bra ar? better kip yr hands 2 yrself huh..' pls l0rs i m nt desp0, n m0st of all i m nt interested in females k.. teachers r meant 2 b dere teaching students n making them pass, nt dere 2 try n curse their student fail.. n summ0re i seld0m w0rk n0wadays k.. i make sure i pass m0ii N lvl eng n c h0w euu l0ok d0wn on mii man.. n pls, did i sae ani pervertic tings in class n0wadays? n0 right? onli m0ii classmates d0, pls st0p slaudering mii !!

after tat actualli wanna g0 2 w0rk, but i f0und tat i l0st m0ii ic, omg.. sh0 went 2 make a rep0rt n f0und out it s actualli at hm.. lucki sia.. t0dae in class, i read da chi newspaper 2 practice m0ii chinese n yiling guide mii al0ng.. read a news abt 'liu h0ng mei'. 2 others, she ish p0or.. i tink sh0 t0o.. d0n n0 y she sh0 t0opid sia.. after habing sex wib an old ah pek n he spent $2060.40 fr0m her bank, she gt killed by him.. t0opid ah pek, deserve 2 die man.. 1st ish tik0, 2nd ish stealing a gal's m0ni.. 'eat s0ft rice sia'.. n 3rd kill a gal hu treat euu sh0 gd.. tis kinda ah pek faster die ish better.. save da w0rld natural res0uces.. fark sia he damn disgusting, cut da w0man's b0di int0 a few piece den thr0w here n dere.. heartless beast.. if i m da 'liu h0ng mei', i will cum back n haunt him..

hmm waiting fer sundae 2 gt m0ii pay, den reb0nd m0ii hair n sh0pping.. hmm i will miss m0ii perm hair.. g0nna slp awhile den wakeup 2 watch tv n os0 studi.. exams r 49 daes away.. jiay0u man !!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

hmm on fri wen 2 t0wn n watch m0vie n os0 walk walk.. tried a g0wn.. $135.45.. ah!!! i l0ve tat.. lols 1st tym can c i wear g0wn wear till lyk wedding c0z black g0wn d0n suit mi.. den went 2 lid0 wib kailin, jeremy, andrew n felix 2 watch mid nite sh0w.. hmm watched BOO!! n superman.. lols buy 1 m0vie, gt 1 m0vie free.. lols.. BOO!! was quite scary n disgusting.. lols after tat slack at t0wn till 1st train n take sum pics.. lols felix n andrew kiss!! lols..

ytd went 2 kailin hs slack.. den play blind mice at a c-saw.. lols.. fun.. after tat back 2 kailin hs n watch w0rld cup.. german wins.. expected.. den i slack n slp awhile.. lols saw kaixin was back 2 kailin hs.. g0ofy kissed her.. lols.. she was drunk.. n i c0ntinue slp till 6+am den cab hm..

i l0ve tis g0wn..

d0 i l0ok gd on it?

yeah..

mii n andrew at taka slacking..

felix n mii..

mii n kailin..

jeremy n kailin.. d0 dey l0ok lyk c0uple?

felix n andrew frenching..

jeremy n andrew kiss!!

2006-07-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

hmm last few entries n0 pic de.. but will update s0on.. on tuesdae which ish o4/o7/o6 GCE N Level English Oral Examination kills mii !! da passage, picture n c0nversati0n wasnt easi, hard den prelim al0t al0t!! lols i rmb sum funi questi0n da examiner asked mii n i ans him wib da fact, lols but guess nt a silly ans, c0z i hab tink th0ugh..

da examiner asked :

wat j0b w0uld euu lyk 2 hab in da future?

i sae :

i wanna b a nurse !!

examiner :

y?!

because being a nurse ish a beri hard task, but i can serve da ppl in da public n os0 i hab a stable inc0me n j0b.. onli wen i did sumting wr0ng, i will b fired, but if i d0 m0ii part, i w0uldnt b retrench. fer example, Osama c0me 2 singapore 1 dae n b0mb singap0re, th0se ppl in da t0urism industry will l0st their j0b, f0od p0is0ning or diseases, hawkers will l0st their j0b t0o but nth will affect m0ii j0b.. because in tis w0rld, dere r alwaes ppl dying, disease n sickness.. ( d0esnt it make sense? )

ytd wen i was abt 2 offline, chat wib him on msn awhile.. he asked a questi0n.. y did i treat him sh0 gd? i sae, fren ma.. den he asked,'euu still l0ve mi?' i was stunted at da m0ment.. but i ans him bravely, yeah.. n he kip telling mii s0ri n he t0ld mi tat he was nt hapi at all.. tis makes mii feel guilty alth0ugh he was da 1 hu left mii 1st.. but i felt m0re relieved le.. n os0 understand tat i nid 2 c0ncentrate on m0ii N level n0w, it wasnt tym fer mi 2 f0ol ard anim0re or gt int0 pr0blems tat ish getting mii c0nfuse n heartbreak.. but seri0usli, i 1 him back.. but it wasnt tym fer mi 2 ch0ose n0w anim0re.. m0st of all he w0n m0ni in w0rld cup.. c0ngrats..

GCE N Level Chinese Oral Examination ish c0ming in a few weeks tym, i shd start 2 read chinese n0w.. n0w i was listening 2 an old s0ng, 王心凌-当你.. hmm tis s0ng reminds mii al0t of da past.. da fun, frens, sadness, l0ve, stress, sch.. a mixture of mani feelings.. tinking back, i was quite childish in da past.. decided 2 reb0nd m0ii hair in july15 le.. but wasnt sure i wanna reb0nd fridge onli, or wh0le head.. c 1st.. tis few daes, i hab seen diff kinda ppl..

c tis vide0, damn funi..

2006-07-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

hmm tis week was quite enj0yable alth0ugh dere r l0ads of m0ck exams.. ytd went out wib andrew n his fren.. lols.. den wasnt a lucki dae.. went fer a m0vie.. den 1 of their fren, alex appear.. n they quarrel.. ma pussy! tat guy d0n n0 y t0k t0k den finger everyh0w p0int, p0int till mii.. argh.. wat they quarrel os0 nt m0ii business n tat guy shdnt everyh0w p0int ppl.. well, after tat f0llow them went 2 tampinese slack.. blind mice.. lols.. den pasir ris.. actualli wanna g0 in red hs, but end up didnt g0 in.. lols c0z every1 kip sensing tings ard, except fer mii -.- end up scaring m0iiself n went 2 mac eat, slack den h0me swit h0me.. was kinda hapi.. nt c0z of wat happen on da ab0ve.. but received msg fr0m him.. hmm his bdae ish c0ming..

well, at 1st was kinda sad n disapp0inted wib y he treat mii lyk tat.. but after listening 2 wat linyin t0ld mii, i felt tat he ish actualli quite a p0or b0y n shdnt b blame.. heard tat he was dumped by his gf on his last yr bdae, tat y n0w lyk tat.. reached hm den slp.. till 5+pm den wakeup.. online again.. he sent a msg 2 m0ii friendster.. a smile, n he t0ld mi nt 2 club sh0 much, nt a gd impressi0n fer gals n os0 2 studi hard.. den i replied, ' lols.. i h0lidae club fer fun nia.. n0 lars i will studi hard, aiming 2 b a nurse in nyp... =] =] =]'.. seri0usly his msg hab brighten up m0ii days.. but i cant afford 2 'gain' or 'lose' anim0re.. phobia..

tml GCE N level english oral examinati0n.. h0pe i can pass, m0ii v0ice didnt rec0ver fully yet.. may g0d bless mii.. lols..

2006-06-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

hmm yeah back 2 update bl0g le.. let c0ntinue fr0m last wed de DXO.. hmm last min den decide 2 g0 de.. by da tym i reach dere was quite late.. lols guess hu i bump int0? xinchang n li0nel dey all.. lols.. dere dey g0 again.. lols dey can dance n0ne st0p fer few hrs.. lols back 2 da main t0pic.. andrew dey all were late.. lols sh0 i waited den dey reach n i gt ticket fr0m andrew de fren.. lols i skinny guy name cheney.. den went in DXO.. 1st l0ok, was s0rt of lyk th0se tv advestisement de 'angm0h' pub.. but was lyk fun.. lols but i didnt dance c0z every1 was shaking well dere, sum were everyh0w shaking.. lols den i scare paiseh.. sat d0wn n watch n at da same tym os0 learn lars.. didnt c xinchang dey all at da dance fl0or.. lols guess dey shd b dancing in da centre part ba.. after g0ing in DXO awhile.. g0 2 eat at da c0ffee sh0p nearby.. back 2 DXO.. n i leave m0ii back at da 'l0cker' [ s0rt of lars ] den g0 drink wib them n chat.. lols but after 1 m0uth of drink, i st0pped c0z it taste awful.. den i was lyk omg m0ii bag ish still in DXO, went back wib m0ii 'savi0ur' andrew 2 gt m0ii bag.. lols.. den after tat mi n andrew walk ard marina square n i t0ok a pic of him.. lols 'peeping t0m' .. after tat his fren call him n ask him c0me back 7-11 faster c0z every1 ish rushing hm.. sh0 we reach dere n talk awhile.. lols den realise 1 of andrew's fren, da 'angm0h' was a gay.. lols den his parents actualli all0ws gal 2 t0n at his hs, but nt guy.. c0z dey scare b0th guys will b d0ing sumting funni.. after tat cab hm c0z next dae gt w0rk..

hmm den ytd went 2 watch 'slient hill' wib andrew n his fren.. lols scary.. while watching i was c0vering m0ii ears sum of da tym.. lols n m0st of all, disgusting.. lols.. den after tat ate at cine n g0 p0ol den hm..

t0dae sch reopen le cant play much le.. weekdays studi, weekend w0rk.. ah scary alm0st everydae m0ck exams.. i t0dae b0ught l0ads of f0olscape 2 prepare fer m0ck exams os0 studi.. lols cant aff0rd 2 fail man.. b0ught a new bag 2 sch, n guess wat kimchuan tell mi? he sae i was fr0m army.. argh t0opid kimkim.. wed ish sp0rt dae le.. yeah i m trying 2 escape fr0m all events jus 2 w0rk n studi.. lols yeah after sp0rt dae can g0 swimming le.. lols.. den reach hm, studi fer maths n physics m0ck exams.. lols p0or me.. tml gt english m0ck exam..

andrew peeping t0m at marina dere.. lols..

2006-06-21T00:48:00.000-07:00

lols tis week was fun.. on 18june i went 2 MOS.. lols was fun dancing inside alth0ugh i d0n n0 h0w 2 shake much.. gt 2 n0 a gal n 2 guys of m0ii age.. lols dey were rather friendly.. gib in 2 us gals.. den saw 2 15 yrs old gals in da t0ilet n dey ask us 2 lend them our 'wrist bend' 2 their underage fren sh0 tat dey can hi0ng in.. but w/0 da ch0p, guess dey cant gt in easily ba. lol..

on 20june went 2 club m0mo.. b4 g0in in we drink a bit of black cat.. n lucki i was onli abit tipsy, unlyk xinchang.. was quite small over dere.. but was fun.. lols i d0n n0 h0w 2 dance, yet was dancing wib m0ii frens on da centre stage.. after quite awhile of dance, i was tired, n decided 2 chill at da dance hall dere n at da p0le dance dere.. lols.. den after clubbing, heard sumting funni fr0m m0ii frens.. dey sae while dey r dancing on da centre stage jus n0w, gt 1 fat gal in red cl0thes c0me up n wanna 'seize their centre stage' lols.. dey sae da fat gal wanna shaking extremely hard n she b0unce on 1 of them, n dey nearli fall. in da end, all m0ii frens l0se 2 da fat gal, except fer li0nel hu ish still dancing on da stage.. lol den da fat gal tell li0nel, 'aiy0 sh0 kelian ar? 1 pers0n dancing here'. lols den guess wat li0nel sae? he sae tat c0z of euu lars, den all m0ii fren r dabcing d0wn dere.. lols den da fat gal smiles at him.. well, all of them r ly nt tired, shaking fer sh0 l0ng n d0esnt fel tired at all, i shake fer abt 5 mins den nid a rest.. lols c0z i d0n shakes well n argh m0ii back was aching.. well, n0w i trying 2 learn 2 dance better, sh0 tat i will nt l0se 2 mr LIONEL.. c0z i sae b4 i wanna make fun of him wen dancing.. lol..

yeah t0dae g0ing DXO.. still deciding wanna g0 yet ma.. lols.. c0me on baby, i wanna shake till i can shake well.. btw ytd i heard a beri familiar s0ng, 'if i cant hab euu'. such a meaningful s0ng 2 mii..

mii n marcus outside MOS..

mii n a gal fren in MOS..

crazy makeup 2 MOS..

MOS dance hall..

mii n xinchang outside m0mo..

mii wib xinchang frens..

mii outside m0mo..

mii in m0mo..

m0mo dance hall..

can euu c a pig slping? mr li0nel..

li0nel n mii outside m0mo..

2006-06-06T07:31:00.000-07:00

cant bear 2 c euu guys leave..

hmm tis few daes of w0rk made mii learnt mani tings.. h0w 2 b independent.. n m0st of all, i made al0t of fren while w0rking in da fair.. dey r great c0mpanies.. reali.. dey teaches mii da right way 2 g0.. w0rking in da fair hab fun n os0 hard.. m0ii triumph de 'big 1' will alwaes cum d0wn 2 sp0t check mii.. lols n da weather r h0t.. but wib tis great c0mpanies, time flys fast.. we hab being j0king n helping each other 2 c0ver up wen dey didnt stati0n at their part.. lols we will bluff sae dey g0 lunch n c0unt st0ck.. on their last dae of w0rk at da fair.. i required 2 take pics wib them.. hmm here onli part of it.. da 'family' pic ish wib jean perry..

mii n sell t0wel de auntie..

'jean perry' n mii..

mii n 'panda face'..

well n0w g0nna start t0king abt wat happen ytd.. thanks j0ycelyn.. reali a big big thank.. i asked j0ycelyn 2 help mii 2 add him in msn n ask him whether gt gf ma.. he lyk wanna sian j0ycelyn n t0ld her he ish nt attached.. wtf.. i was real sad.. tat was wat he treat mi as.. well, i m en0ugh of tis.. hab guessed tat da result will turn out 2 b tis.. but finalli, i c his true self.. guys r flirty.. i m nt angry, but jus disapp0inted.. i shd n0w use all m0ii energy in m0ii studies n w0rk den 4gt abt him.. heartless guy?! maybe n0p.. but jus a guy hu hab l0ts of gals ard him..

2006-05-31T09:06:00.000-07:00

MOS was fun..

lol l0ng tym neber update le. l0ads of tings 2 sae.. 1st ish abt m0ii j0b.. omg i h0pe g0d bless mii n let mii c0ntinue 2 w0rk in cck.. c0z gt 1 tym i was transfer out temp0rary fer 1 dae 2 sabawang fer help.. omg th0se aunties dere r scary.. dey serve da cust0mers as if dey r beggars.. c0z i was serving a cust0mer hu ish l0oking fer a B75 but she was fat.. sh0 1 of da auntie jus walk t0wards mii n sae y i gib her sh0 small. den she take out 1 C80 n thr0w at da cust0mer den tell her 'n0w euu g0 in dere n try'. omg wat dae cust0mer 1, even a smaller size i os0 mux gib ma.. euu th0ught m0ii eyes super ar can c she wat size.. den dey were slacking ard making mii d0 3-4 aunties de w0rk c0z dey sae i was y0ung n sh0 free.. den w0rst of all, by da end of da dae, da lady b0ss dere tell mii she h0pe can hired mii 2 c0ntinue w0rk at her her small sh0p which gt triumph fair but her sh0p ish nt triumph.. guess wat i tell her? i t0ld her ' o man, i pray i w0uldnt ever c0me 2 w0rk here anim0re, erm 9.30 le i gt 2 g0 hm, 'zai jian', oh s0ri ish 'bu jian'. den da lady was was dia0 n she t0ld mi n help 2 pack up n carry th0se heavy stuff, den i tell her i m a part-timer, n0 OT n summ0re m0ii HR tell mii w0rk till 9.30 onli, i w0uldnt w0rk xtra.. den dey let mii g0.. tiring n terrible dae wib th0se ols auntie.. summ0re dey crack de j0ke ish even sh0 much dirtier.. dey make fun of a cust0mer jus bc0z her surname ish 'fark'. omg n0wadaes i tink auntie de w0rking attitube r w0rst den student..

den on 30th may which ish ytd, i went 2 m0s wib huini n her fren n marcus.. but marcus didnt bring ic sh0 didnt manage 2 gt in.. i didnt dance much lyk dey c0z i m still new.. lols.. it was damn cr0wded n squeeze, i nid 2 h0ld their hands as i was sh0rt n will g0ne missing easily.. lols.. fun dere c0z i finalli dance.. lols..

mii n tis pretty, omg i l0ok lyk a turtle..

after makeup..

taken in m0s t0ilet..

den t0dae ms t0h n mrs tai sit d0wn n t0k 2 mii abt m0re den an hr.. hmm i abs0rb al0t but jus n0w n0 wat 2 sae n reply.. well, i m nt tat pervertic as euu guy tink oki.. i did try 2 studi fer m0ii p0a.. studi beri hard fer mid yr, yet m0ii result was sux.. c0z of mid yr, i didnt g0 out fer tw0 weeks jus 2 studi.. did ani1 n0 tat? i guess every1 will th0ught tat i was having fun during da tw0 weeks.. but i m nt.. well maybe its tym fer mii 2 studi m0re harder as n lvl ish c0ming, den after tat i can play all i 1.. n m0st of all, i heard fr0m ms t0h tat gt 1 farker sae wat i wanna c his chest hair.. pls l0rs our sch all xia0didi, hu gt chest hair.. d0n even n0 gt hair or nt l0rs.. hmm relating abt m0ii j0b, i was tired t0o.. l0st all m0ii freed0m just 2 w0rk n gt m0ni.. maybe w0rk time 15 of june or 15 of july den i will st0p w0rk le.. da j0b ish relaxing, but its seems 2 b b0red.. everydae serve cust0mer, pack bra all tis.. alth0ugh can t0k wib other c0mpany ppl n slack.. but gt caught i mati.. b0ring j0b, n0 challenge, n0 everydae d0 da same ting n tie d0wn m0ii freed0m..

n relating 2 bgr, i tink maybe i shd gib up him, lyk wat m0ii fren enc0urage mii den l0ok fer a better 1.. lols but m0ii eyes mux open damn big man, sh0 mani flirty n h0ngsters ard.. lols.. envy yiling n her bf xueyi man.. lol gt 1 tym i make fun of yiling but using her hp 2 msg her bf sae 'i l0ve euu'. den his bf reply her sae 'i l0ve euu t0o'. isnt tat l0vely? summ0re he was tall n hands0me n in a express stream t0o hu hab da ability 2 take care of yiling in da future.. hahas after picking up sh0 mani shit, yiling hab finalli pick up a g0ld..

2006-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

GONNA WORK IN TRIUMPH !!

well tis week was quite relaxing c0z checking papers.. sians d0n n0 y tis tym r0und i studied sh0 hard yet pass 3 subs onli.. gt an a2 fer humanities, passed maths n chi.. eng nt sure yet.. hab l0ts of chats n t0k wib m0ii classmate.. lols g0ssiping.. well i cant laugh mux c0z of relati0nship pr0blem..

maybe i hab misunderst0od him?! but it seems lyk he was av0iding mii.. wenever i t0k 2 him in msn he will nt reply.. even gt reply os0 's0ri, gtg buai, tc' sians.. wanna break den sae lars. d0n drag drag here n dere.. he neber understand h0w i feel de lars knn..

on thrusdae i went 2 triumph 2 interview n successed.. quite high pay n a nice j0b which suit m0ii interest.. lol bras !! g0nna start w0rk on tml le.. t0dae mux slp earli n prepare m0iiself fer tml.. 1st dae of j0b.. wa hard 2 find da w0rk de unif0rm sia.. white western suit bl0use n a western suit pant.. expensive n hard 2 find.. lol still nid 2 wear c0urt sh0es sia.. machim g0 funeral.. lols.. aniway fren hu wanna buy bra, pls cum l0t 1 de seiyu, triumph c0unter buy..

2006-05-14T09:27:00.000-07:00

guys r WOMANIZE !!

on thrusdae i jus finish exams, went 2 sent0sa nite swim wib ah xing dey all.. hab a nice chat wib ah xing.. say out all m0ii w0rries n s0rr0w abt m0ii current stead.. gt hm, chat wib mani frens, all tell mii 2 leave him, but i sherbude..

fridae slack at hm wen i gt a unhapi news fr0m a fren, he t0ld mi tat he saw m0ii bf wib other gal at cine.. i was shattered, he reali spend tym wib other gals den mi..

sat g0ne 2 bugis n t0wn, b0ught 1 cute t-shirt..

t0dae g0ne 2 clementi pasa malam walk walk.. nice cl0thes wib cheap prices..

well tis few daes i hab being w0ndering.. i read his testi, n saw gals writing testi 2 h0ng him, yet he accept da testi.. he d0esnt 1 ppl 2 n0 tat i m his gf.. y? maybe c0z he wanna h0ng wib th0se xia0meimei.. he once t0ld mi b4 our pr0blem ish age gap.. he was 18 n i was 16, but wat anbt th0se xia0meimei in his testi? 15 yr old de gal, d0n n0 her pubic hair fully gr0wn or nt.. ccb farker.. i l0oked at her friendster, she gt stead de, yet euu n0 wat testi she rite fer m0ii bf? 'hi, thanks fer adding.. care 2 intr0? o sure yes, i m XXX fr0m XXX sch, free i g0 find euu' isnt she flirt.. knn gt bf still wanna h0ng other ppl de bf.. i h0pe her bf will slap her till her face r0t.. slutty face.. i feel lyk twisting her black, dirty, disgusting nipples n pull it n make it reb0unce. den pluck off all her cb hair, f0rce her 2 eat it, ch0p off her hand n f0rce it int0 her smelly cb h0le.. skin her alive den fry her skin n make her eat it.. knn she lyk 2 h0ng sh0 much, den make her g0 sux h0rse de c0ck.. knn wanna h0ng, g0 h0ng yr own bf lars.. den on fri, a fren t0ld mi tat he saw m0ii bf wib a gal at cine.. but i tink maybe it jus a fren ba? i still rmb sum swit mem0ries.. i once asked him did he reali l0ve mi tat y he ji0 mi.. he t0ld mi ' euu sae lehx?' den i sae i wan him 2 tell mi, he t0ld mi yes.. tis magic w0rd make mi feel hapi n was glad.. but gd ting d0esnt last l0ng.. n0w i was tinking ish he lying 2 mi? or jus d0esnt wanna make mi angry? or he reali l0ve mi? i reali h0pe he can tell mi da answer again.. tell mi tat i hab misunderst0od him.. but c0z i gt d0wnl0ad stuffplug in m0ii msn.. i can c hu open m0ii c0nversati0n.. i saw him opening it.. but he didnt t0k 2 mi.. wen i t0k 2 him, he d0esnt reply mii.. ish he hiding fr0m mi? or he wanna dump mi? i did hint him b4 tat i wanna break.. but y didnt he agree wib it? i m suffering, but i d0esnt 1 2 end tis relati0nship.. c0z i reali l0ve him, wib m0ii wh0le hart.. seeing his testi, i was sh0 sad n i didnt n0 wat 2 d0.. c0nfr0nt him he os0 neber reply.. da m0st i can d0 ish 2 h0ng wib other guys t0o.. pls pls faster reply mii, i cant h0ld on or wait on anim0re.. i miss euu n nid euu..

2006-05-06T21:16:00.000-07:00

wa fr0m tuesdae 2 fridae everydae exams, sians.. studi lyk mad.. on tues ish eng n ge0 paper.. lols m0ii m0st c0nfident de paper [ge0] den i kip studying trying 2 sc0re an A1.. wed ish p0a, lol wait n fail, but still i gt study trying 2 pass c0z if pass i gt free se0ul garden 2 eat.. lols.. den thrus ish s0cial studies which i bang beri hard on 2 sc0re A1 n finalli fri maths paper 2 which ish super duper hard !!

on fridae mii n meijuan g0 sh0pping at t0wn n bugis 2 find da brand of liquid eyeliner i wanted c0z nice 2 draw ma.. but cant find.. sad den g0 buy da new brand de k0tex 2 try out n den g0 play p0ol.. t0ok l0ts of pics.. n wen mii n meijuan on da bus, we saw a old yell0w t-shirt man slping at a big stairs in da public.. omg.. dere ish sh0 hard, h0t n public.. h0w can he tahan 2 slp dere? den g0 da bugis temple pray again.. n ask da g0d wat shd i d0.. he was lyk treating c0lder n c0lder.. den i t0ok a l0ts.. its sae tat he ish a 'jade' inside a r0ck.. i nid a pers0n 2 help 2 break da r0ck.. da intepretat0n ish gd.. lols..

on sat mii g0 mit kimkim dey all study.. after tat mit wendi g0 walk walk den b0ught 2 bras fr0m e2 n 2 handbag fr0m jur0ng p0int.. t0ok a few pics t0o.. lols i was all in pink c0z at 1st i th0ught g0 study onli den wear casual.. hu n0es will g0 sh0pping.. but gd c0z everyting sales.. alritex t0dae i shd studi fer tml de exam which ish chi !! yeah jus receive an sms fr0m meijuan.. maybe next sat g0ing rush c0z i hab finish m0ii exams.. den 30th may maybe mii g0ing wib her n her stead dey all.. yippy !! g0nna find w0rk s0on.. maybe tis thrusdae after exams i g0ing 2 truimp de headquater 2 interview.. lols bra seller..

mii n j0lin on tues..

i making fun of her wen she takin self pic..

mii !!

mii n wendi on sat..

mii n meijuan on fridae..

mii n meijuan again..

did euu sp0tted a kid bathing naked near da pill0r?

wat mii n meijuan wear on fri..

an old fell0w slping in da public stairs..

m0ii cuttie niece wib b0w..

2006-04-30T03:47:00.000-07:00

hmm wat a hapi n fresh dae.. well tis few daes i was d0ing reali great n h0pe i hab d0ne ritex.. on fridae after sch mii n meijuan went sh0pping at bugis n i b0ught 4 truimp underwear.. yeah ! n we went 2 da kuan yin temple at bugis 2 pray.. i asked da g0d whether mii n him will patch back ma? n i gt a l0t.. tis tym was da 1st tym i gt a gd interpretati0n n its damn zun..it says;

one f0ot lies between y0u n yr success.. by pr0gressive stages, d0es a gd man reach pr0sperity. harvest ish dawning. peace of mind will prevail after this b0at of w0rries.. sack- cl0th turns 2 silk 2 cling 2 yr feet.. in tym, will euu understand as one lives, one fl0urishes..

den at nitex mit m0ii da sa0 n went dere wib her 2 d0 tat0o.. she put o her hip n i put on m0ii back.. den after tat she went hm n i went 2 play p0ol wib meijuan, linda, junqi, hweelay.. l0ng tym neber all cum out t0gether le.. den while playing p0ol i receive a msg which made mii hapi till wack linda n meijuan butt. lols.. he msged mii 2 ask where m i? g0 hm earli, n he c0r mii dear lyk da past.. lols.. i was damn hapi.. i was tinking was tat tym tat msg a break msg or i misunderst0od it? den i msh back him tell him sae 'wa y euu suddenli sh0 gd'.. den he reply n asked mii wat i mean.. inorder nt 2 stir up unhappiness or wat, i t0ld him nth.. but i was reali hapi.. we stead on 28/3/o6.. n i th0ught we hab br0ke up le n neber b back.. yet was oki in 28/4/o6.. zun zun 1 mth.. lols.. da l0t damn zun.. h0pe we will last n wat i hab d0ne was ritex as i hab put m0ii hart in n n0w i can finalli c0ncentrate on m0ii exams well !! i mux gt at least 2 A1.. yeah !!

mii n yiling..

m0ii new tat0o.. ling

mii wib tied hair..

bitchy?

on tis very hapi dae !!

2006-04-22T07:28:00.000-07:00

hmm after aga a weeks, finally m0ii em0ti0n stable d0wn le.. mii n yiling os0 oki le.. seld0m cry le.. ytd was kim kim bdae.. den we celebrate fer him by thr0wing 2kg of fl0ur ard at each other.. lols m0ii hair ish all white can c fr0m da bel0w pic.. it was a reali fun dae celebrating his bdae.. sh0 envy him tat gt sh0 mani gd frens celebrating fer him.. den after tat g0 al0y hs de swimming p0ol dere bath n slack at his hs den g0 mac eat..

t0dae earli in da m0rning den wake up le.. c0z ytd fr0m 5+pm slp till t0dae 7+am.. lols pig.. den waiting fer meijuan 2 wakeup n pei mi g0 sh0pping c0z i save da m0ney 2 weeks le n0 sh0pping n i nid 2 buy l0ts of tings.. as m0ii mum wash m0ii bras till def0rm n i nid a better shaver 2 shave m0ii armpit.. lols.. n m0st of all a pair of c0mf0rtable heels which d0esnt hurt m0ii f0ot.. den when sh0pping wib meijuan at t0wn den g0 peep at a gal.. lols.. wen we walk past faber hs den c our old b0ss weiha0.. den we were sh0 hapi n busily chatting wib him.. lols.. he gr0w fit le.. den i squeeze his nipples again lyk last tym.. lols.. after tat went sh0pping again.. went 2 heeren n sh0p fer wax.. lols but was quite expensive n i discuss wib m0ii mum b4 i wanna shave m0ii 'abal0ne' hair fer hygiene purp0se.. but she advice mi nt 2 ask after waxing, m0ii 'abal0ne' might turn black.. lols.. den i nt dare try le.. after tat went 2 b0ught a truimp c0smetic bra, a d0n n0 at brand de heels, 1 mng t0p, 1 future state t0p n 1 female shaver fer armpit.. still rmb wen mi n meijuan jus passby faber hs, we saw an black guy without t0p n his pants ish sh0 l0w waist tat it sh0w off his c0ck hair.. lols den mi n meijuan trying our beri best 2 take da f0to d0wn.. but failed, onli taken da backview.. at least gt a bit of evidence 2 pr0ve 2 benjamin tat i m nt lying as he d0esnt believe tat i saw tis happen n he tink tat it was imp0ssible.. lols..

da wh0le team of ppl kanna sab0 during kim chuan bdae..

y m0ii hair ish sh0 white?

mii, yiling, elt0n, al0y..

mii wib p0ny tail..

childish mii.

mii n yiling..

da black man hu sh0w off his c0ck hair..

m0ii new truimp bra.. lols..

heels..

future state de t0p..

mng

mii !!

2006-04-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

well, tis few daes da aura ard mii seems 2 be getting w0rst.. still da c0ld war between yiling n mii hasnt end.. well jus let it be, recentli t0o mani tings r happening n i kip remembering wat happen in da past.. suddenli i recall sumting tat made mii furi0us n tulan abt a act beng guy in m0ii sch c0r gl*nn..

well mr gl*nn, i d0n mind euu or even yr gang of fren cum n c tis.. as tis ish truth.. oki it happens abt 3-4 weeks ag0.. i was having PE n mii n yiling went 2 t0ilet t0gether at 2nd fl0or where we passby 4e5 class r0om.. n suddenli i hear a cheebye v0ice which s0und id0itic c0ming out fr0m da class.. gl*nn tat act beng buay buay de humji kia suddenli sh0ut 'peiling plk'.. i was damn farking cheebye angry.. wtf man.. well, everyting i sae here d0es hab pr0ve.. he sh0uted tat sh0 l0udli n i bet tat wesley n his classmate plus yiling shd b able 2 heard it.. n i sae he humji c0z he hab once betrayed his old gd fren tay teck guan jus 2 save himself.. n thirdli i d0n d0 tat kinda 'dirty' tings n i d0n deserve 2 be called a plk.. tis ish obvi0usli he ish slanderig mii.. did he hab an vide0, pr0ve, heard or even seen b4 i fark wib guy? n0 ritex? where on earth he make tis t0opid c0mments n slandering mii plk jus c0z he hate mii n he hab nth better 2 d0.. sh0 well, he wanna sae mi plk which ish nt truth ritex? i shall sae sumting tat ish truth abt him 2 make him embarass.. ask euu guy, hab euu all ever c tat gl*nn beat ani1 b4? n0 ritex? well, he ish jus act beng, tinking tat he was an 'big' ah beng in bat0k, instead, he ish jus a beri beri small fry.. n summ0re he was humji, by saving himself, he hai his fren 2 gt int0 tr0uble n 1/2 yr cann0t play bb.. tis kinda humji kia fit 2 b ah beng? omg pls d0n make mii puke k n thr0w th0se beng de face lars.. he th0ught his j0kes was funni by everyh0w slandering ppl plk? i d0n tink his j0kes ish funi at all, i m flat n breastless, h0w can i b a plk n fark wib mani guy? da way i walk l0ok beri funi as i hab b0ne pr0blem.. d0 euu nid an evidence fr0m da d0ct0r? he th0ught tat he was hands0me n mani little gal surr0unding him.. omg dere r still much much much hands0me guy out dere.. n pls, d0n act big lars.. c0z euu r jus a d0g !! a beri beri small d0g which lyk 2 barks al0t n wen gt int0 tr0uble, will hide yr head at yr ass.. euu r jus a d0g which f0llow th0se guys in hilly.. euu th0ught euu wat? big ar? pls lars b4 i make ani untruth c0mments abt euu, euu better shut yr knnbccb m0uth.. hahas n m0st of all, d0n act as if euu wear till beri style.. c0z i c da cl0thes euu wear 2 orchard de heeren, omg cann0t make it man.. it jus sh0 old fashi0n n ugli + n0 taste.. i n0 tat after hearing tis euu will sae tat ' den euu tink euu where beri nice mehx? kanasai' but let mii tell euu, nt i buay ba or wat lars.. at least da way i dress ish much m0re better den euu n m0ii cl0thes r sureli much expensive den yr old fashi0n cb cl0thes.. n m0st of all, he flirt wib little gals.. wahahas.. after seeing tis i guess he will b farking pissed off n ask his fren c0me n beat mii c0z he th0ught he big ah beng ma.. oh mama i m sh0 scare.. well, if euu hasnt pr0v0ke mii, i w0uldnt sae tings abt euu.. but since euu d0ne it, i shall make euu pay d0uble fer saying n0nsense.. he nt onli slander mii, but mani ppl.. h0pe he will kanna beat up by his hater s0on, hahas tat w0uldnt b retributi0n..